6. Fuck Love!

ALEXA

I staggered back as I saw the scene in front of me.

Shocked? Yes! Angry? No, because I was too shocked, and disappointed…?

Well, very much! But I knew better than anyone that this was all my fault, and I should have never, ever had feelings for Jacob Smith, especially since my mother married his father.

"I'm the stupid one, so I better leave," I thought, biting my lips hard trying to suppress the unwanted cry, while my hand roughly brushed away my foolish tears. But my fucking eyes were too blurry, and without realizing it, my toe kicked the table leg below me. 

I tried to suppress my curses, but I knew that I had ruined my ex-crush's mood as a rustling sound came from behind me, and his fucking drowsy face looked at my teary one.

"A—Alexa? You're home? Wait…It's not what you think! I can explain—" Fuck…Why was this guy trying to explain something to me as if we had a relationship??

"Huh? Explain? Nah, there's no need, it's my fault," I said, trying to keep my voice cool. But I knew that I failed because I accidentally choked and concealed when he moved closer to me. "Um, you know what? You can just go back to fucking your girlfriend."

"I'll just go to the arcade or something, I have an invitation from a friend," and with that, I ran away from him. I cursed as my toe hit the table again, but I didn't care. I just ran, and ran faster because he started putting on his pants and chasing me.

Why do you even run, Alexa?

As soon as I opened the front door, my head immediately spun. Where should I run? Where should I go? I just fucking got here two days ago!!

"I don't even know Grumpy or Betty's home but would it be troublesome if I called them to meet up? Should I—" and before I could decide my next move, I bumped into something cold, sturdy, but soft.

I was shocked to see that I had just bumped into Nicholas Alexander!!

"Why do I keep seeing this fucking guy everywhere…"

"ALEXA!!!" "SHITT!!!"

And not caring about Nicholas's strange and surprised look, I immediately silenced his thin lips. His dark, intimidating eyes looked at me in shock, and I myself was shocked to feel how cold his face was, but when I heard Jacob calling me again, I immediately dragged him to the nearby bush, ignoring his increasingly panicked eyes.

"Why are you…" "Just shut up and follow me!"

"I'll tell you later…" And Nicholas could only give in as I bent his body down and drag him to the bush. I even pulled him closer and hugged him tighter while covering his mouth as this bush was fucking cramped, and right after we were hidden, I saw Jacob come out and call me. 

I almost cried when I saw that he was only wearing boxers, and his cum was splattered and visible through it!

"Fuck…Why did that idiot come out like that??" I cursed, feeling my tears pour more. My anger grew stronger when I saw that he was still trying to find me and asking around, and I wanted to explode when I saw Ashley suddenly come out and hug Jacob from behind like a damn lover!

I tried to focus my hearing when I saw how ‘intimate’ they hugged each other, and Jacob seemed calm as she kissed him, and just as I considered calling my mom and leaving this fucking town…I felt my hand warm.

There was liquid flowing on my hand, and I was shocked when I saw it was Nicholas Alexander's blood!

"Shitt!!! I scratched him!!" I panicked, pulling my hand away from his unfortunate lips, but this hasty action made me lose my balance, and before I could emerge from the bush and risk myself being caught…Nicholas pulled me towards him!

My head bumped into his soft, silent chest, and I couldn't help but hitch when his vanilla scent hit my nose like a cold summer breeze.

"Don't move. We're already trapped in this position, so just be quiet," he whispered in my ear. "Just keep your hands down. Don't hurt me again."

"O…Okay…" Then, I could only be silent in Nicholas Alexander's embrace. I couldn't focus my gaze on Jacob or Ashley anymore because Nicholas was hugging me.

"Why don't I hear a beat or feel his chest moving, though…" I thought, frowning when I realized that only I was breathing all this time, but when Nicholas's sharp eyes looked at me, I tried to ignore this strangeness.

After a few minutes in this 'intimate' position, Jacob and Ashley finally left. Nicholas and I came out of hiding, and I couldn't help but feel guilty when I saw his scratched mouth and his gray slim-fit shirt that was wet from my tears. 

There was even a white spot there, which meant my powder had also stained his shirt.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to stain you or hurt you. If you want, I can wash your clothes and treat—" "No need, I can do it myself, and also…"

He put one finger under his nose horizontally and brushed it. I blushed when I touched my nose and realized there was snot there!

"A—Ah!! Sorry, it must be disgusting, and—"

"Here." Nicholas offered a crumpled wad of tissue from his pocket. I couldn't help but feel even more guilty towards this boy!

"N—Nicholas, I—" "Just go home and get some rest. Get plenty of sleep if needed." 

"Huh?"

I looked at Nicholas confused as he walked past me. He stopped about 5 large stone blocks in front of me, and when he turned around…I felt my heart skip again.

How come his eyes were so dark, so black, and so focused as if his entire world shifted to me?

"There's no point in dwelling on a guy like that. A dog like him is better with a bitch like that girl."

"Just don't be with that guy. You're 8.5 out of 10, so you…Must find someone better than that dog."

Then Nicholas left me.

I was left shocked when I heard his words. Did he just say that I'm… pretty?

"Nah, no way. If he said that I'm pretty, it should be 10 out of 10…Where's the other 1.5?" I thought, brushing away my thoughts, although my cheeks were already hot.

What the hell is wrong with Nicholas Alexander?!

"Must be high…" I murmured, entering the house, although my heart was beating faster because I realized we were entering the house at the same time.

As I entered the house, I saw disheveled shirts, guns, and badges scattered on the floor. I noticed Harold was already home.

"Since when did he arrive?" I thought, before heavy footsteps approached me, and when I looked at him, I saw Harold, a bit ‘distant’ Jacob, and…

Ashley Winter?

"What is she doing here…" I thought angrily, before Harold's clearing of his throat, catching my attention.

"Um, kiddo? I know you're just arrived and are still adjusting to this house, but I was wondering ...."

"Is it okay if Ashley shares a room with you? She'll be staying with us temporarily for God knows how long."