로그인My hands were trembling as I pulled out my phone. I scrolled through my contacts with shaking fingers until I found the name I needed. The name I should have called a long time ago.
Alexander Calvert.
My best friend since we were seven years old. The boy who'd taught me to ride a bike and picked me up when I fell.
The man who'd been there for every important moment of my life—except the ones where I'd been too blinded by Miles to see him. The man who'd told me, just last night, that he loved me and would always be there if I needed him.
I needed him now.
The phone rang once. Twice.
Each ring felt like an eternity. Around me, the chapel had dissolved into chaos—my mother crying, my father arguing with someone, bridesmaids whispering urgently, guests pulling out their phones to text their friends about the drama unfolding before their eyes.
But I stood perfectly still in the eye of the storm, waiting. "Lila?" Alexander's deep voice came through on the third ring, tinged with surprise and something else—concern, maybe, or hope.
"Shouldn't you be getting married right about now?" His voice alone made something loosen in my chest. Steady. Calm. Present. Everything Miles had never been.
"Alexander." I was surprised by how steady my own voice sounded, considering my entire life had just imploded for the third time. "I'm holding a wedding, and I need a groom.
Do you still want to marry me?" Silence. For three heartbeats—I counted them—there was complete silence on the other end.
I could picture him in that moment, wherever he was. Probably in his office downtown, surrounded by the floor-to-ceiling windows that overlooked the city.
His dark hair was slightly disheveled from running his hands through it, the way he always did when he was thinking.
His gray eyes were sharp and focused, already calculating, already deciding.
Then, in that stern, decisive tone I'd known since we were children building forts in his backyard, the voice that had always made me feel safe: "I'll be there in ten minutes." The line went dead.
No questions. No hesitation. No demands for explanation. Just absolute certainty and a promise that I knew—I knew—he would keep.
I stared at my phone, my heart pounding so hard I could feel it in my throat. Had I really just done that? Had I really just asked my best friend to marry me? This was insane.
This was impulsive and reckless and possibly the most dramatic thing I'd ever done.
Or maybe it was the first truly clear-headed decision I'd made in three years.
My maid of honor, Jessica, rushed up to me, her emerald bridesmaid dress swishing around her ankles. Her face was a mixture of concern and barely suppressed fury—fury at Miles, I knew, not at me.
"Lila, oh my God, are you okay?
What are you doing?
Should we tell everyone to go home?
Should we cancel the reception?" I looked at her, then at the crowd of guests who were still whispering and watching.
Some had started to stand, gathering their things, assuming the show was over.
My mother was crying in the front row, my father's arm around her shoulders. My father looked furious, his jaw clenched so tight I could see the muscle jumping from where I stood.
This was supposed to be the happiest day of my life. I'd planned it for months—for years, really, if you counted all the planning that had gone into the previous two failed attempts. The flowers were perfect. The music was cued. The reception hall was decorated and ready. The cake was a four-tier masterpiece.
Everything was perfect except for the one essential element: the groom. But maybe I'd just been planning to marry the wrong man all along. "No," I said clearly, loudly enough that several nearby guests turned to look at me. "We're not canceling. We're not sending people home. We're just... changing the groom." Jessica's eyes went wide, her mascara-lined lashes nearly hitting her eyebrows.
"What? Lila, what are you talking about?"
"Tell the officiant to wait ten minutes," I said, a strange calm settling over me now that the decision was made. "And tell the DJ to keep playing.
Announce that there's been a slight delay, but the wedding will proceed as planned. Offer people champagne. And tell my parents—" I paused, seeing my mother's tear-stained face, "—tell them I know what I'm doing." Jessica stared at me like I'd lost my mind.
Maybe I had.
Or maybe I'd finally found it.
I took a long bath in the master bathroom, letting the hot water wash away the tension of the day. The bathroom was enormous—all marble and glass, with a soaking tub that could fit three people comfortably. I'd filled it almost to the brim, added some lavender bath salts I'd found in a cabinet that smelled expensive and felt luxurious, and just let myself sink into the heat.My muscles slowly unknotted as I lay there, watching steam rise toward the vaulted ceiling. I could still feel the phantom weight of the wedding dress, the tight grip of my shoes, the heaviness of the day pressing down on me. But gradually, the hot water worked its magic, drawing out the stress and replacing it with a bone-deep exhaustion.When I finally emerged, wrapped in the softest towel I'd ever touched, I found that Alexander had somehow acquired comfortable pajamas in my size—silk, in my favorite shade of midnight blue. Of course they were. Of course he knew my size. Of course he knew my favorite color, the
That night, Miles didn’t even bother to call.I stood in the empty chapel long after most of the guests had left, still in my wedding dress—though now it felt like it belonged to a different person, a different life entirely. The ivory silk that had seemed so perfect that morning now felt heavy and wrong, the delicate lace sleeves scratching against my wrists like a reminder of expectations that would never be fulfilled.The chapel was quieter now, the excited chatter of guests replaced by the hollow echo of my footsteps on marble floors as I finally moved from where I’d been standing frozen at the altar. Candles still flickered in their holders, creating dancing shadows on the stone walls. The flowers—thousands of dollars worth of white roses and peonies—still perfumed the air with their sweet, cloying scent that was starting to make me feel sick.Everything was exactly as I’d planned it, down to the smallest detail. Everything except the fact that I’d just married a completely diffe
Which brings us back to where we started. The third wedding. The moment everything changed.Standing at the altar in my white silk gown, watching Miles's face change as his assistant burst through the doors. Feeling my grip tighten on his wrist as he tried to leave. Hearing him say those words again: "Valeria has no one else. I have to go to her."But this time was different. This time, something inside me didn't just crack—it shattered completely.Because as Miles walked away from me for the third time, as I stood there listening to the whispers and feeling the pitying stares, I finally understood something crucial that I should have seen years ago:Miles would never choose me. Not over Valeria. Not over anyone. Because in his mind, choosing me wasn't a choice—it was an obligation. Something to do when there was nothing more urgent demanding his attention.I was his fallback. His safety net. The woman who would always forgive him, always understand, always be there waiting when he fi
The night before the third wedding, I couldn't sleep. I stood on my balcony at 2 AM, looking out at the city lights, wrapped in a blanket against the cool night air. The streets below were mostly empty, just the occasional car passing by, the distant sound of sirens, the city breathing in its quieter hours.Tomorrow was supposed to be my wedding day. Again. For the third time. Part of me couldn't quite believe we'd made it this far. Part of me was waiting for the inevitable disaster.My phone rang, making me jump. Alexander."Can't sleep either?" I answered."No." His voice was rough, like he'd been awake for hours. "Lila, I need to tell you something. Before tomorrow. Before you marry him."My heart started racing. "Okay."There was a long pause. I could hear him breathing on the other end, could picture him in his apartment, probably pacing the way he did when he was working through something difficult. Perhaps he had expected to reach my voicemail. "I'm in love with you," he said
The week before the third wedding, Alexander took me to dinner. It wasn't planned—he just showed up at my office after work on a Tuesday evening and said, "Come on. You need a break from wedding planning."I should have said no. I should have gone home to review seating charts and confirm vendor arrangements. But the truth was, I was exhausted. Exhausted from planning a third wedding, exhausted from the constant low-level anxiety that this one would fall apart too, exhausted from trying to convince myself that everything would be fine this time.So I said yes.We went to a small French bistro in the West Village that I'd never been to before. The moment I walked in, I fell in love with it—the warm lighting from antique fixtures, the exposed brick walls covered in vintage French posters, the cozy atmosphere created by mismatched wooden tables and chairs. The air smelled of butter, wine, and fresh-baked bread. Soft jazz played from hidden speakers, just loud enough to create ambiance wi
My father requested to meet me for lunch the day after I took Miles back. We went to Giovanni's, a quiet Italian restaurant downtown where my parents had taken me for every major life event—graduation dinners, birthday celebrations, the lunch after I got my first real job. The kind of place where the tables were far enough apart that you could have serious conversations without being overheard.It was raining outside, a steady autumn drizzle that made the city look gray and melancholy. Inside, the restaurant was warm and smelled of garlic, tomatoes, and fresh bread. The walls were covered in family photos—three generations of the Giovanni family, smiling faces documenting decades of life and love.My father ordered wine. That should have been my first clue that this wasn't going to be a casual lunch. My father rarely drank during business hours, and we both knew this was essentially a business meeting, even though it was about my personal life."So you've decided to give him another c







