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ELENA
The folder slipped from my fingers.
I didn't even notice until I heard the papers scatter across the floor. I stood there, frozen in the doorway, watching Adrian's hand pull away from Vivian's waist like it had never been there.
"Elena." His voice was steady, composed, like he had not been caught doing anything wrong and i was wrong for entering his office without prior notice.
Vivian turned to face me, and she smiled. It was a practiced smile, one that makes you think she was doing you a favor by merely looking at you.
"Elena," she said softly. "I've heard so much about you."
She let the words sit there between us as the implication was there, glaring for all to see. Like she had known all along who i was to him, and what she thought about it.
"You take such good care of him." She tilted her head, her eyes gentle. "He's lucky to have someone so devoted to him, he deserves that, don't you think?"
The way she said devoted made my stomach turn. Like I was a housekeeper rather than his wife who had been loyal to him all these years.
Something in me snapped.
"I'm his wife," I said. "Not his caretaker."
The smile on Vivian's face didn't falter, but her eyes shifted, just slightly, to Adrian.
"Elena." His voice carried a warning now. The kind that said, 'stop right now, do not make a scene in public'
I didn't stop. Rather i pressed on, feeling disheartened by what i had seen.
"She was laughing against your shoulder, Adrian. Your hand was—"
"She is a childhood friend." He cut me off cleanly. "She came back to help the company build a new business line. That is all this is." He said it bluntly, flat, like he was managing a story, and was sticking to it, no matter what.
Vivian gave a soft, pained sigh like she was pitying me as she shook her head slwoly before adding. "I'm sorry, Elena. I didn't realize my being here would cause you distress. I truly mean no harm." She pressed her lips together like she was swallowing her own hurt. "Adrian is right. Please don't misunderstand."
She was so graceful about it that I almost felt like I was the one who had done something wrong.
Adrian looked at her with something close to gratitude and relief. Then he looked at me, and it was different, his face hardened with disappointment.
"We will talk later....privately," he said to Vivian, quietly.
She left with one last glance in my direction. A smirk playing on her lips, triumphant with how this played out in her favour.
After she was gone, Adrian crossed to his desk and picked up a slim black bag I hadn't noticed before. He held it out to me.
"Happy anniversary," he said.
I stared at the bag for a moment before I took it. Inside was a bracelet, white gold, delicate, the kind of jewelry that cost more than what people made in a year.
He remembered. I hadn't been sure he would.
It wasn't what I wanted. I knew that. What I wanted wasn't something that could be wrapped in silk clothes or packaged but it was something at least. It was from him. From the man I had loved quietly for three years without ever being asked to.
My chest squeezed tightly as i felt hope building in me, maybe this was a sign that he could choose me, and our baby.
I set the bracelet down carefully.
"Adrian." I kept my eyes on the desk. It was easier. "Do you still not want children?"
The silence that followed was instant and tense which made me look up.
The color had left his face. It was not anger or irritation, but something worse. His jaw was tight. His eyes were filled with an emotion that i could not describe.
I felt the familiar shame creep up my throat before he even said a word.
'Too much', the voice in my head said. 'You always ask for too much.'
"Never mind," I said quickly speaking before he could, shaking my head as i willed the tears to not fall.. "Forget I asked."
I picked up my scattered papers from the floor and walked out.
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My desk felt very far away from his office. i did not know how i got there, without bumping into anyone but it seemed the others noticed and cleared out of my path. i managed to sit down and keep my eyes on the screen, rereading a sheet of report, over and over without even understanding it.
Around me, the office hummed with its usual noise. Keyboards. Muffled phone calls. The distant sound of the elevator doors opening and closing as it brought in people and took some out of the floor.
Then I heard her voice.
Vivian was standing beside my colleague's desk, leaning over slightly, pointing at something on the screen. Her voice was softer than it had been with me, like a teacher speaking to her favourite student.
My colleague was nodding, hanging on every word.
When Vivian straightened and turned, our eyes met.
"Elena." She smiled. "You work so hard. I can see why Adrian relies on you." A small pause. "Would you mind making me some coffee? I'm not quite sure where everything is yet."
She was new. I told myself that. She was new and it was a reasonable request and I was being paranoid by thinking otherwise.
I got up and went to make the coffee for her without a word, i carried it back to her and set it on the edge of the desk beside her.
i had no idea how it happened, one moment, the cup was on the dsk, the next second the cup was in the air after being hit by vivian's hands and there was a crash.
I could feel the heat as it splashed on me, burning hot, but i was too startled to even say a word. i thought the cry of pain had escaped from my mouth until i saw Vivian, clutching onto hers, her eyes watering as she looked like she had been bullied. Then she opened her mouth and spoke.
"I don't understand what I did to upset you."
His office door opened before I could speak.
Adrian was across the floor in seconds. There was fear apparent on his face as he looked at VIvian's hands, taking it carefully into his as he inspected it.
"Let me see," he said, low and urgent.
"It's nothing," Vivian whispered. "I'm sure it's—"
"Your hands are everything to you." He was already steering her toward the door. "You need a doctor. Right now."
"Adrian." My voice came out, barely audible as i wanted to explain to him.
He didn't look at me.
"Adrian, it wasn't—she knocked the cup herself, her hand struck the—"
"Ethan." He called out without turning around. "Call an ambulance."
A gasp rippled through the open floor at what happened next. He carried her, like it was the most natural thing in the world and he had been doing it for a long time, it was more of a subconscious thing at this point.
I watched the elevator doors close behind them.
The office settled back into noise around me, voices low and curious, careful not to let me hear, but i knew what they were saying, talking about how he had been careful with her and barely spared me a look. i closed my ears to it all, refusing to listen when the pain was more prominent, on my hand making me, look. My skin had blistered already, bleeding from the spill earlier. i made my way to the restroom, and took off my ring, and then washed the wound, feeling the sting even more as i realized that my husband had been putting on a performance all these years with me and Vivian hands mattered more to him than my feelings.
Chapter 35ARIAWe looked at each other across the corridor.Adrian shifted. "I'll leave," he said. "I'm sorry for the disruption." He addressed it to Julian, not to me, which was the correct instinct and also somehow made everything worse. "It won't happen again."Julian did not acknowledge this. His eyes were still on mine.Adrian walked to the end of the corridor and pushed through the exit door, and then it was just Julian and me and the bouquet sitting on the bench between us.Julian picked up the bouquet. He looked at it for a moment. Then he crossed to the bin near the stage door and dropped it in.The sound it made when it hit the bottom was soft and final.He picked up the chocolate box from where he had set it on the edge of the bench. That went in after it.I watched him do both things and said nothing."I'm going to pick up Eli from daycare," he said, straightening his jacket, his voice back to the careful evenness that w
Chapter 34ARIAHe had said it was the best one.Most people preferred the first. The recognizable one. He had said the third was better, and he had said it the way you said something you meant without thinking about whether it was the right thing to say.I was still thinking about that when the door at the end of the corridor opened.Julian came through it with a bouquet in one arm and a small box of chocolates in the other hand. He was dressed like he had come from a morning meeting, jacket still on, the particular look of a man who had carved time out of a full schedule to appear somewhere because he wanted to.I saw his face change the moment he saw Adrian.It did not change loudly. Julian's face never changed loudly. But I had been watching that face for five years and I knew every variation of its stillness, and what moved across it in that single second before he composed it back to neutral was not pleasant.He stopped walking.His eyes moved from Adrian to me and back."What
Chapter 33ARIAThe next morning's rehearsal ran long.I pushed the program harder than I had planned to, pushing my musicians who were beginning to notice the tension that was building up but said nothing and did as they were told, repeating the music peieve over and over.We ran the final movement four times.After the third, Adaeze caught my eye across the room with an expression that was not concern exactly but was paying close attention.After the fourth, when I called the break, she appeared at my shoulder with two cups of tea from the side table, holding one out to me in the quiet way she did things."Good morning," she said."Was it not good yesterday," I said."Yesterday was excellent," she said. "This morning is different." She sipped her tea and looked out at the rehearsal space where the other musicians were moving around, stretching, talking in small groups. "What's in you this morning is good. I just want to make sure everything is alright, you kind of went hard on every
Chapter 32ARIAI could see Ava's.She was looking at him with something that was not professional one bit, she was looking at him like she was right where she wanted to be, and stood by it.The bell rang for the second half.Julian came back to his seat leaving Ava behind. Ava drifted back into the crowd. Having no other reason to stay. And I stepped away from the wings and went to find my violin.Julian did not mention the conversation afterward.Not in the car on the way back to the hotel. Not when we checked on Eli together. He talked about everything else.He talked about the performance. He talked about the hall, the way the acoustics had carried during the solo set. He was warm and present and said all the right things and I sat beside him and listened and kept my mouth shut about what I had seen,Because what was I going to say. I saw you talking to your investor representative at a professional event. I saw you introduce her to another investor. I saw her expression when sh
Chapter 31ARIAThe charity opera was at the Meridian Hall, the oldest and most beautiful venue in the city. The ceiling was painted, the acoustics were the sort that made every note feel considered, and the audience was exactly the kind that filled seats like that, old money and new influence, people who attended cultural events because they genuinely loved them.We had been preparing the program for two weeks. It was not our usual tour repertoire. The charity committee had requested something specific and I had built the program carefully.I was in the wings twenty minutes before curtain, running a scale quietly in the dark, when Julian appeared.He had flowers. A full arrangement, the kind that took deliberate choosing and not the kind you picked up from a shop near the door on the way in. Deep red, structured, the stems wrapped in dark paper. He held them out with the particular expression he wore when he was doing something that mattered to him and was trying to make it look casu
Chapter 30JULIAN"No," I said.She looked at me with the particular expression of a person who had expected that answer."You were hers," I said. The words came out before I had fully decided to say them, but they were true and I did not take them back. "That's the honest answer, Ava. I'm sorry for it. But you asked me directly and that's the truth. I couldn't have her. She was with Adrian. She was married and unreachable and I had known her since university and I had spent years watching her be somewhere I couldn't get to."She was quiet. Something moved across her face that I recognized as genuine pain and I felt something for it, some old regret, but not enough to change anything."And now you have her," she said."Now I have her," I said. "We're getting married. Whatever this is, whatever you think you're going to accomplish with those photographs, I am asking you to stop. Not as a threat. As someone who knows you well enough to know you are better than this."Something flickered







