Mag-log inJulian's POV
Vivienne.I’m unsure whether she still recalls me fondly or just with pain. I don’t know if she’ll distance herself or deny I ever mattered. Yet it doesn’t matter to me. I’m unable to quit at this point.“I refuse to leave you by yourself any longer," I murmured inwardly yet it seemed as if I was addressing her directly. "No matter how you attempt to escape.”The horizon blazed red as the sun set like blood oozing behind the clouds. A stunning sighVivienne's POV I was still looking at the black screen of my phone. The video call ended about ten minutes ago, but the grin on my face did not go away.The heat in my chest still stayed, as if Maximilian's laugh was still bouncing around the room. I softly ran my fingers on the screen.My image looked back at me. I seemed weak and a bit leaner than I was some months ago.My hair was getting thin from chemo. The cut on the side of my head was still under a white bandage.Seeing me like this used to make me weep. Today felt different.For a reason, I didn't care as much. Maximilian had stared at me through the screen without asking why I seemed different.He just said, "Mom is pretty." The thought gave me another smile on my face.Tiny kids do not judge a person by their hair. They do not mind a face or the marks that are left.They just see their mom. That was all he needed.Tap. Tap. Tap. A soft n
Julian's POV "I'm scared."I looked at him. My heart felt tight right away."What are you scared of?""I'm scared Mom will get sick again."His tiny voice made my throat feel tight. I grabbed his hand once more."It's okay to feel scared." My voice was gentle."But don't let fear stop you from hoping."He raised his head slowly. His eyes stayed on mine."Mom is doing her best.""Dad is too.""Uncle Dominic is too.""So are all the doctors.""That means Maximilian only has one job.""What is it?""Keep your spirits up and keep praying for Mom."Maximilian nodded softly. His eyes got wet, but he did his best to stop the tears from dropping."I wish every night before I sleep." He looked up like he was trying to recall the right words."I tell God, please don't take Mom yet."My chest got tight right away. I gulped hard b
Julian's POVI put my phone in my pocket after the video chat with Vivienne was over. For a little bit, I stared at the black screen while a small smile stayed on my face.It has been a while since I saw Vivienne so calm? Her face looked pale, and the bandage on her head was still there. But something had changed.There was a wish. That just made it easier for me to breathe,"Dad."Max's voice brought me back from my daydreams. I looked at him and noticed he was next to me with his backpack close to his chest."Hm?"He grinned big. His eyes were full of joy!"Mom looked pretty today."I giggled a bit. His pure words made my heart feel nice."She did.""Even though she's still sick."I shook my head a bit. There was no use acting differently."Mom still needs a lot of rest."Maximilian grabbed my hand. His tiny fingers held onto mine."Come on, Dad."
Vivienne's POV Maximilian turned to see him. His eyes were still full of hope, "The doctor still wants Mom to rest.""Oh.""When she's feeling better, we'll go pick her up."Maximilian smiled again, his letdown slowly went away"Okay."He turned back to me. His small face was full of worry."Get better soon, Mom.""I will. I'll do my best."I really would do all I can. Not just for me.I wish to get nicer for a small kid grinning at me from the screen.I wished to hug him once more. I wanted to cook a meal for him.I wanted to put him in bed. I wanted to listen to his many small tales each day.All those plain times I used to ignore now seemed more valuable tha͏n all else.I lifted my hand to the camera. A grin came back to my face."Let's have a long-distance hug."Maximilian lifted both of his arms right away. He held the phone and g
Vivienne's POV I heard a chair move on the ground. Julian said something a bit later."Hold on."I frowned a bit. His reply surprised me."Why?""I'm giving the phone to him."My heart quickened right away. Joy flowed through me."You're with him?""Yeah."Only then I heard the soft noise of a TV in the back. They were still at home.A bit later, fast steps rang out on the phone My heart raced with each tick of the clockThen a small sound I had been wanting to hear finally came to me."Mom?"My eyes got full of tears real fast. Feelings took over me."Max...""Mom!"His voice broke into joyful giggles. Joy ran through each word,"Dad! Mom's calling!"I heard Julian giggle soft in the back. His fun was hard to ignore."I know.""Video call, Dad! Video call!"I giggled a bit while cleaning my tears. My
Vivienne's POV I got up sooner than normal that day. Soft sunlight came through the hospital room drapes, throwing a kind light on the clean white floor.My head felt lighter. The mark still hurt, but the pain was not as sharp as it had been a few days ago.The nurse just finished checking my blood pressure and changing an IV. She smiled kindly before stepping back."You're doing nice work, Mrs. Vivienne." Her kind words made me grinI gave her a grin. "I hope I keep getting better.""I hope so," she gave me one last smile before leaving the room.Quiet came back to the room again. The hush felt sort of nice.My eyes went to the nightstand. My phone was still sitting there.A tiny grin came to my lips. For a reason, Maximilian had been in my thoughts since I opened my eyes.I thought of him getting set for school. He was maybe still tired.May͏be he was choosing which bag to use. Perhaps h
I didn't know how long I stayed there, seconds or minutes felt just as never-ending. But the hurt didn't end, it only shifted from warmth to sting, from sting to tightness, from tightness to nothingness.In the center of it all, just one thought filled my mind. No one knows I’m here.
Julian's POV Damn it. I didn't even know if she'd eaten tonight, if she'd taken her medication. The thought alone was enough to make my stomach feel empty.Suddenly, my phone vibrated on my desk. I glanced over, my heart leaping. But it wasn't her name that appeared. It was just a
Vivienne's POV “Maybe I'm like this," I whispered. "I am still standing, but falling apart at the edges." Inside my bag, there was a small picture that caught me off guard. The memory that I had of Julian and me by the lake, with a happy expression and smiling eyes against it, had bee
Julian's POV I held my breath. The question was straightforward, but it felt even more complex than any other question I had ever heard.Ophelia made a further approach. Just a few inches separated us. The faint lavender scent from her hair was a familiar scent to me.She flickereder







