I can't even begin to describe how ashamed I feel after Doctor Storm leaves.
Dad takes Amelia to school, and tries to coerce me to go too, but I tell him I need more rest. The truth is, I'm so disgusted with myself, and I need proper time to heal from the shame I feel. Doctor Storm rejected me. I stood right there, naked, pulsing, yet he wouldn't even touch me with a ten foot pole.
As much as I hate to admit it, it puts a lot of things into perspective. Nothing between us might work out, and I've spent all this time pinning for the wrong man. It made me mad as hell, and deeply sad. I want him so bad. I want him, I want him, I want him!
Two days later which was a Saturday, Dad walks in that morning to announce that Doctor Storm would be joining us for dinner. "He declined, but I persuaded him anyway. Get dressed. We're going shopping."
In truth, I've given up on Doctor Storm, and I'm much too comfortable, catching an hour more of sleep to care about him coming over for dinner. But Dad is giving me this suspicious look, and I didn't want him to sense that something was wrong.
"I'll be down in an hour," I sulk.
"You're not excited," he points out, his eyes crinkling. "Did something happen a few days back with Max?"
"What?" I mock-gasped, giving him a death stare. "Dad, what are you implying here?"
He raise his hands innocently. "I'm just..." he sighs and gestures to the door. "I'm sorry. I'll wait downstairs for you."
"Good."
When we get back from shopping, Dad forces me to help him out in the kitchen. We're just about to cut the chicken stripes when we hear Amelia squeal out excitedly. "Doctor Storm!"
My stomach drops as Dad and I share a look. He beams, while I swallow painfully.
He's here.
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Dinner is a battle.
I've never felt so awkward in my entire life, and what makes it worse is Dad asking me politely to sit next to Doctor Storm, so Amelia won't disturb him so much. Doctor Storm avoids my eyes for most of the time, until Dad asks me to pour him more wine.
"More wine, Max? Theresa, please help him."
I remove the cover from the wine bottle and pour until Doctor Storm says it's enough.
"Thank you, Theresa," he says, meeting my eyes for the first time this evening.
We have never been this formal. Never. And it's hard to tell if Dad notices the tension at all. He's so engrossed in telling Doctor Storm about his bank job and the crazy shenanigans that go on there. When he reveals how he caught his manager making out aggressively with a security man, hos he wouldn't even blame her because she was almost forty and recently divorced and needed the rebound, I just about face plant in my casserole.
Dr Storm pinches the bridge of his nose.
"I, um. I got the marks back for that essay, Dad." Need a subject change, STAT. "The one about Ancient Rome?"
"Oh, yeah? How'd you do, pumpkin?"
"Good! Good, I..."
I ramble on about my coursework, but my voice is fuzzy in my own ears, because every time Doctor Storm and I make eye contact accidentally, my whole body perks up and warmth pools low in my belly. My breaths come faster, my cheeks flush. And he knows. A faint smile plays around his mouth for the whole freaking dinner, the jerk.
I love it, though.
I do?
I'm still salty about our last encounter but I can't keep being annoyed with him. I love this. Love him. And it's definitely me that he's been distracted by lately, not some other woman—I'm sure of it. The second I felt his hungry eyes on me, all that earlier anger evaporated like a fine mist.
We've been on a collision course for a long time now.
I hope he's ready.
Because I'm not giving up on him that easily.
By the time I tuck Amelia into bed and go back down to the den to watch a movie, I'm slick and aching beneath my skirt. Is this how I normally walk? What do I normally do with my arms? Ugh. I'm like an alien in a skinsuit, trying to get all my limbs to function.
Lord, help me.
"Hey, you know what I found in a drawer the other day?" Dad wanders to the bookshelves lining the den walls. This room is where he keeps all the mint-condition comics and first edition paperbacks that he loves, and that my mother used to shame him for before she left us. Good riddance.
When he spins around and waves a battered old stethoscope, I choke back a groan. Not here. We can't play those games here.
...Can we?
"Remember when you wanted to be a doctor, pumpkin? So you could work with Max all the time?"
"Sure." I cross to my dad and pluck the stethoscope from his hand. There's a heavy silence behind us as Max sets up the movie. "I was a kid, though. As soon as I realized how crazy the Doc's job is, I changed my mind."
"Smart girl," the man in question says quietly. I don't turn around to check his expression. I can't.
Instead, I pop the stethoscope in my ears. "Think I still remember this, though. Picked up a few tricks of the trade. Come here, Dad."
There's a steady woomf... woomf... woomf... through the cotton of my father's shirt. When he chortles, it echoes weirdly in my ears.
With the movie playing, we drift to our usual spots: Dad takes his armchair, a mug of decaf on the little table beside him and a blanket thrown across his lap, and Dr Stewart and I sink onto the sofa. As always, Dad rambles on and on about his college days, and the number of girls who swooned over him, while Dr Storm listened attentively. We sit at opposite ends, with miles and miles of respectable wilderness between us. Soon Dad begins to doze off, and I tap him to go inside and sleep.
He wishes us a good night and heads upstairs.
Alone with Doctor Storm for the second time in a week. This time, there is radio silence.
"Um," the words come out of his mouth slowly. "About last time, Theresa..."
I don't want to hear a thing. "It's fine, Max. I'm..." the tears escape my eyes before I can help it, and through my peripheral vision, I can tell he's stunned. "I don\t know what came over me, and I sincerely apologize..."
"No, no, no. It's fine." Strong hands grip my hips, and I muffle a squeak as he tips me into his lap. I can't believe this is happening. He wipes my eyes with his hand, eyes burning, and he's so big. He takes up half the sofa—and all the air in the room. "I was harsh, I realized. I've never had a woman want me...want me so badly. And you're so...young."
"You think I don't know what I want, do you?"
He shakes his head. "I know you're nineteen, and you're a legal adult who can decide things for herself, but Theresa...your father. He's my best friend."
"I don't care," I exhale. "I want you."
He sighs. "You're so stubborn. Want to play a game?"
I shrug. "Was waiting for you to finally admit that the movie was boring anyway."
He guffaws as the movie flares back at full volume. My breath catches as I squirm in his lap, and he tugs the blanket out from under me, then tosses it over both of us.
The soft lighting of the den goes hazy. He's solid, surrounding me.
Is this real? Fuck.
Max's thighs are so solid, and his body is so warm. How many times have I pictured this? How many times have I wondered how he'd feel, how he'd smell?
The other day upstairs, I couldn't get enough of his cologne. It haunts my dreams. Smells like chocolate, and roses, and a lavender dream.
"The rules go like this...first, we establish a baseline." His words are like quiet music, soft, melodious against my temple, barely audible over the movie. But his voice is ragged; his chest heaves. The metal disc of the stethoscope is cool through my thin black t-shirt, and I arch automatically into the touch. "Good girl. That's it. Alright, your heart rate is a little elevated."
No shit.
Glass shatters in the movie. Bullets pop, and upstairs Dad and Amelia must be in Dreamland.
Is this really happening? But yes—I can feel my heart racing faster, gathering speed the longer the doctor touches me.
"Now, let's discuss your shorts." A big hand slips under the blanket and glides down my knees to my innermost thighs, a finger finding my pussy, and sinking in. He jerks my hips forward by an inch, and my gasp cuts through the air, my throat dry, breathing ragged. "You are a naughty, naughty girl. Did you wear this to torture me? Answer me."
"Yes," I manage after two gulped breaths. "I wore it for you." With no panties. Never said I wouldn't play dirty.
And though Dr Storm's expression is hard, his green eyes narrowed, he loves this too. I know he does. I know this man better than I know myself, and besides—there's a giant clue digging into my butt cheek.
A boner.
"You want me that bad, Theresa? You want me worked up, right? Feral, agitated, hopelessly turned on, huh?"
My lips part as he shifts the stethoscope, listening to my heart pound as I answer. As if I'd lie right now. "Y-yes."
"Say it. I want to hear every word."
"I wore shorts to turn you on, Dr Storm. Every time." Excitement flourishes in my stomach, and I ride it like a tidal wave. "I wore it so you could..."
He waits, bristling with impatience as I trail off. A muscle leaps in his jaw, and his whole sculpted body is tense beneath me. "So I could what, Theresa? So I could what?"
The silence is so loud, the tension so thick, his eyes so intense, so needy to hear the words, I feel my toes curl.
"So, you could put your hand up there, Dr Storm. So, you could touch me."
The movie goes quiet, and we sit together in stunned silence, my dad snoring softly in his armchair. We did it; we finally crossed the line and admitted it out loud. There's no way of explaining those words away; no laughing this off as an innocent game.
No pretending this never happened. No turning back.
The quiet drags on, and the longer it lasts, the colder I go, shrinking into myself on his lap. Has he changed his mind already? Did I go too far? I'll die if he regrets this. If he rejects me again.
But then Dr Storm inhales deeply through his nose, gripping my hip tightly beneath the blanket. The soundtrack blares again from the TV screen. His gaze roams over my face, my lips, my body, and his expression is so possessive that I can't breathe. Can't breathe.
This is it. With his hands on me... his eyes on me... it's finally happening. At last.
"Well, then," my father's best friend rasps, and the roughness of his voice makes my nipples press against my t-shirt. "Let's move to the next phase."
Five years laterThis lecture is taking an eternity. Most days I love my job, love every minute I spend teaching classes and writing papers, but I've got a naked photo from Sarah burning up my phone, and I made the rookie error of checking my messages right before class.She knows I have a lecture right now, the imp.I dig the palm of my hand into my eye, pointing at another raised hand. "Yes?"I'll field their questions. I'll talk through all the slides. I'm good at my job, damn it, even when my wife is trying to drive me mad.She looked so fucking good in that photo. Stark naked, except for an artfully draped throw, tucked around the early swell of her baby bump. Stretched out over our sofa, with a mischievous smile and the caption: "Remember old times?"Old times. The cheek. I fucked her on that sofa two days ago.Another student raises a hand, and I point at him. "Yes?"Of course, I'm glad that Sarah's made a name for herself as a freelance graphic designer. She can set her own ho
He's right.I am a little pervert, I'm his little pervert, and he's everything I've been hoping for all these weeks and months. Everything I've dreamed of each night with busy fingers swirling between my thighs. I tweak his nipple with another happy sigh, then bend forward to lick it. Suck it into my mouth. Kieran curses loudly, thrusting up beneath me, and I sit back again with a smirk on my face.Our eyes meet. His pupils are blown.My smirk fades.Ki's cock twitches when I brush his hand away, circling it with my own instead. My fingers are paler, so much smaller than his, and I know I'm holding him too lightly but I'm afraid to squeeze in case I hurt him.We'll get better at this. We will.My thumb swipes over the head. Spreading another bead of moisture. Ki hisses, gripping my hips tight, fingertips digging into my soft flesh."So shall I just–""Yeah."It's awkward. A little clumsy. I push up onto my knees, lining up his cock with my entrance, and my cheeks are pink. This is so
"Sarah. Fuck."Ki's no poet, but he gets his point across. And he wants me, his brown eyes so dark they're nearly black. His features are hard, his face stark with hunger.God, I need to feel him. I scrabble at his pants button, our heads ducked and watching my clumsy fingers. Jeez. I can't—this stupid button—"You're killing me," Kieran says after a long moment."I can't–freaking–there. Got it." I yank his pants open, triumphant."It's hardly Fort Knox.""Easy for you to say. All you have to do is slide your hands under my dress."Even as the words come out, Ki grins, running his palms up my thighs. His thumbs dip into the center, rubbing me through the fabric of my panties, and I tilt my head back, lips parting. It wasn't long ago that he pushed his fingers inside me, but I'm needy again. Pulsing and hollow. Slick and ready.Ki zones in on my clit, rubbing it through the cotton.Yeah. Hell yeah. He may not have done this before, but the man's a natural. How could he not be, when he'
I've messed this up.There's more I'd like you to teach me. That's what Sarah said, towing me through the darkened library stacks, her hand gripped tight in mine, my lips still tingling from our kiss.I'd like you to teach me.Fuck. Fuck. Should I have told her that I'm a–that I've never done this before either? When the hell would that have come up before today? Does she only want me for this because of some tutor kink?God. Kill me now.If I had any final scraps of pride, I'd make some excuse and end this already. Send her home without the masterful fuck that she wants, but also without my inexpert fumblings.Jesus Christ. She'll figure it out in seconds. Will she laugh at me? Judge me for it? Look at me with disappointment in those big, blue eyes? I'd die.No. No.My thoughts may be crashing around my skull, but Sarah's hand is steady in mine. Her thumb draws gentle circles over my knuckles as we walk, and I draw in a deep breath, holding her hand tighter.Sarah Hastings does not j
God.I swallow it back: every muttered curse, every plea, every keening moan. All the sounds I'd make if we were alone, safely locked in a room, away from these turning pages and tapping keys.I choke it all back until it's clogging my throat and all I can do is wheeze out a single breath at a time, clutching Ki's shirt as he pumps one finger, then two, in and out of my slick channel. His thumb finds my clit, swirling over and over it in relentless circles, and my body flashes hot, a wildfire charring my insides. Then my muscles lock and I'm clamping down on him, gripping and grinding, coming silently with air choked in my throat.One breath.Two.A bead of sweat trickles down my spine.I settle back into my body, and the floorboards creak under my feet. God, I'm sticky. Flushed bright red, too. I hope he's not grossed out–hope he wasn't expecting some sexy, experienced siren.But Ki says nothing. He pulls his fingers out gently, tugging my panties back into place and letting my dress
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