JaylaSo when Shane stands up and walks away, I want to walk away too. And it is certainly because I am not ready to confront this person I had once loved with all my heart.My eyes fall on Tyler once more and I give him the best glare that I can muster, hoping he will just leave but he doesn't. Instead he comes and sits beside me with a determined look on his face.Oh how I wish he had this determination before when I had literally begged for his love. But now this determination is just like an unnecessary stubbornness for me.I don't speak. I don't want to be the one to start the conversation. Then he opens his mouth to speak when he gets the hint that I am not speaking first."So," he begins. And I have noticed that it is a sort of habit that he has. Whenever he is nervous, he starts a conversation with 'so.'I still don't say anything and I look ahead. It is almost dark by now so I can still see his face but l don't really want to see it."I just don't know what to say," he says a
Jayla"Strength comes at a cost I never knew I was capable of paying," I finally say after a long pause.He looks up at me, while I look at the woods and continue. "You know when I was there for weeks," I say, referring to the place where I had been held hostage. "I was locked in a smelly room. That room smelt to the extent that it was hard to sleep at night. I have fought darkness alone in those nights. Sometimes I would hear screams of other prisoners being tortured and abused. Those voices scared me. I hugged myself because I was seeking comfort in those times. There were days when he beat me up to the extent that my wolf couldn't heal fast. I have held my wounds overnight so that I wouldn't lose too much blood and I have seen my blood stain the floor many times. One time, he chained me with silver and it numbed my senses to the extent that I couldn't feel anything. "I have reminded myself of who I am when I was alone. I had no one to help me, Tyler. Kendra was the only one who u
Jayla I stand in front of the mirror, and I run my fingers over the black dress I am putting on. I try not to let my fingers shake as I do so and clutch the tiny piece of paper tightly in my left hand.I slip my feet in black heels to match the dress and sit on my bed afterwards, just staring at space. I need a moment to collect myself.It takes me all of my courage not to run back into my bathroom and curl up like a ball and cry. It feels like I am lifting heavy stones up as I move my legs to walk out of my room.I close the door behind me and quietly walk down the stairs, holding the railing tightly becauseotherwise l would have fallen due to my shaky legs."My poor baby," my mother coos, her eyes filled with remorse and tears and she rushes forward to hug me.My father stands behind her with a sad smile on his face, silently offering his comfort just like always. They too are clad in all black, ready for the tough day."Come on," my mother says, sniffing as she grabs my hand and
Jayla"Kendra Simmons - A selfless soul "The biggest gift you can give to yourself is through giving the gift of happiness to someone else.Beloved daughter, sister, friend and mate."The gravestone doesn't express half of what she was, how great of a human being she was and the great deeds she did to help others. They might not be so great to others but to me, she was an angel who came into my life and tried to make everything alright.I watch silently as the proceedings go on. Shane, Tyler, Jessica and her brother, Liam are also in attendance at the funeral along with Megan and Kendra's parents, of course.I was surprised to see them at first, but then I found out that Megan called them from their pack so that they would be able to attend the funeral. Megan's parents are here too, comforting their daughter as she sobs relentlessly. My heart squeezes in guilt every time she cries and I have to look away in shame.It is difficult for me not to break down myself, but I contain my emo
Jayla"Why is it that I am excited and nervous at the same time?" Megan asks me as she sits on my bed with me, packing up the last of her things into a travel bag."You will be okay," I say, chuckling at her excitement."No, but you don't understand! I haven't been there in ages!" she says. "I am looking forward to going to school again and meeting new people, but I am afraid of the kind of looks I will get from the people who know me and have seen me before. Also, I don't know what they will think of me or if they will pity me. I don't want them to pity me, Jayla. I am really tired of receiving sympathetic looks from everyone everywhere and people treating me like I am made up of a brittle material like glass that can shatter into pieces at anytime."Her eyes cloud over in sadness and I completely understand what she means and how she feels. I really sympathize with her and her plight."You don't have to worry about anyone," I tell her."If you think about others, you will stop thinki
JaylaRemember what I said about it being lonely? Yeah, it still persists except for those moments in which this annoying creature called Shane comes to nag me."Come on, Jay. It will be fun," he says, tugging on the fabric of the shirt at my elbow as I arrange my closet and he sits on my bed."No. I am not interested in eating out at all," I maintain.Shane huffs like a kid and whines. "But Jay, it is a new restaurant downtown and it is so nice. Plus there is a party in the pack house today so we have no chances of running into one of those hooligans. We can easily just enjoy ourselves and gorge ourselves on good, delicious and divine smelling food."The food part sounds too good to me and I purse my lips to stop myself from agreeing. He knows me too well and he also knows that food ismy weakness which is why he is trying to use it against me."Yeah, but we have school tomorrow," I say, trying to reason out with him. School is finally starting over tomorrow since the apparent 'crisi
Jayla"A dog?" Shane asks as if I just said I want a pet lion instead of an ordinary puppy."Yeah," I say, nodding in confirmation.But he still looks at me incredulously after that which makes me annoyed. "What!" I say in exasperation."No, it is nothing. I am just not able to grasp how you will take care of another living creature when you can barely remember to even feed yourself."I don't know if there is humor in his tone or it is just genuine worry for my mental health but l hit him nonetheless because of his words."Shut up," I mutter. "I don't forget to feed myself, okay? I love food so much. I didn't grow this," I tap my tummy which has no muscles, by the way, "just like that."He rolls his eyes and says, "Yeah, right. And all you eat is unhealthy junk food. You need to be on a more nutritious diet instead of eating all that carb.""Says the person who ate an entire box of chocolates this afternoon," I retort almost immediately."But my case is an exception. I work out," he s
JaylaI am really glad that Shane cares about me. But I can't get him to go against the pack for whatever reason, because until the pack trusts him, and also he is my only and closest source to know what is going on in there."Sure," he replies immediately. But then he pauses, raising an eyebrow in puzzlement. "Why do you even want to come?" he asks me out of curiosity and I shrug in a nonchalant manner."I don't know… I feel like I should just go with you," I reply him vaguely and he gives me a weird look."Alright," he murmurs as we reach the gates of the house I once lived in for a short time before the hardest days of my life came knocking.I gulp, feeling a little anxious to go inside. I didn'teven think of it before but when I go inside, I will be seeing all those people whom I have been trying to avoid since I got back from that rogue pack.Jessica has been trying to contact me since then. She apologized and is still trying to get me to forgive her since the time l returned, b