Chapter 3

Maera

The stone bites my knees. The hall smells of smoke and boiled stew and the sharp copper of fear. The guards press me down; their grip is steady. Around us the pack watches, faces a blur. No one meets mine.

A man steps forward with the whip. Silver is braided through the leather and it flashes in the lamplight. Someone near the back hisses the word cursed, and it spreads like flame. Cursed. Witch. Traitor. The sound scrapes deeper than the rope at my wrists.

“Let the pack see the truth,” Kael says. He stands above me like a winter cloud. His voice is calm and final.

The whip comes down.

The first lash burns across my stomach. Heat blooms so bright it knocks the air out of me. I see stars. Pain knives through muscle and bone, sharp and honest. A metallic tang sits on my tongue. I cough, taste iron and cold, and a tear slips from the corner of my eye.

They strike again. Each hit narrows the world to leather and silver and the hands that wield it. I force my eyes toward the crowd, hunting for my father’s face. He will stand, I tell myself, he must. But he turns away. My mother grips her apron, folding the movement into a prayer. Liora presses closer to the man at her side and will not look.

A laugh peels out of the crowd…too loud, meant to break me. The silver stings differently than any lash I knew. It sears under the skin as if it cuts memory as well as flesh. I cry without meaning to. The salt tracks to the dust at my cheek.

“Hold her steady,” Kael says. The guards do. One of them presses a thumb across the new red line on my belly as if testing for guilt. The pack leans in, hungry for proof.

Words jam in my throat. I want to tell them about the serving girls moving like snakes, about a small vial slipped beneath skirts, about how I saw the poison touch the Alpha’s bowl. I try. The words freeze. Something colder freezes too.

I reach for my wolf. I call the shape with the small rituals taught to children, slow breath, think of river, think of leaf—but the wolf does not answer. Not the warm, steady answering I know. Silence sits under my ribs like a stone.

The lash snaps again. It stings along my ribs and I gasp. Voices rise in the hall. “Cursed,” someone says. “Her wolf will not shift,” another adds. The claim lands like a verdict.

My hands knot in the ropes. The guards tighten. The pack begins to chant: Exile. Exile. Exile. A woman near the front whispers that if wolfsbane touched his food, then she must be guilty. People want a clean story. They want safety.

I keep calling, softer now. I press my palm to my throat and try to feel the old stirrings. Once, the world rearranged into fur and hunger and everything made sense. Now there is a blank. My wolf is small and folded, refusing to lift its head.

When the whip falls again the skin splits in a thin red seam that smokes in the cold air. A cloth is slapped at it; vinegar stings. A child’s voice says she looks like a witch and someone shoves the boy to silence. Adults begin to murmur law and lineage, tidy words to bind an ugly thing.

I feel two deaths at once: the hot ripping across my belly, and the long small one when the animal inside me goes quiet. It refuses to rise to defend me. It refuses to claim me. It turns inward like frost under fur and curls until it is nothing but a memory of warmth.

Kael moves then. His decision drops like ice. “She has touched wolfsbane,” he says. “The pack cannot harbor those who poison their Alpha. Exile her.”

The sentence is a blade. The elder’s nods hammer it in. Two guards bind my wrists. They strip from my neck the thin cord that marked my family’s joining and toss it aside. Membership ends with that small, thoughtless gesture.

They push me toward the doorway. Dust rises around my ankles. A bowl is struck once…some gesture sealing the act, and I am shoved across the threshold. Cold air hits my face and the world sharpens.

Outside the pack people pretend the night is ordinary. A child drums his fingers on a post and laughs. Someone throws me a flatbread I can’t eat. Torches throw long shapes along the road I must walk. The pack’s silhouettes linger on the ridge, turned away like a wound.

I stagger. My legs tremble. The silver has carved something raw inside me that is not only skin. My breath comes ragged. I whisper the wolf’s name like a prayer. Nothing answers. The shape that held me whole is gone.

They walk me to the boundary. The markers are simple stones, a crooked sign. An elder tosses me a cloak with the pack emblem cut out. It hangs from my shoulders like a thing borrowed and unpaid for.

I step across the stones. The pack holds its breath. The pack’s voices spill like distant river noise behind me, the lamplight shrinking into memory. The cold bites deeper, and the part of me that is not human begins to ache in a way that is not simply pain but a mourning.

I stumble onto the road and keep walking because there is nowhere else to stop. At the edge of sight, the pack’s shadowed figures blur and I am alone. My hands are sticky with blood and sweat. My wolf stays curled like a sleeping thing that will not be roused. I try one last time to call it…call my wolf out, if she can come out we can at least have the strength to walk, but there is nothing. Only the whipping echo and the sound of my own breath.

My heart is a broken drum. My wolf will not answer.

I remember the first time I shifted: the river at midnight, fur and bone folding into a body that felt like home. That memory is a coin I rub now, trying to buy back a shape that will not answer.

The whip cracks before it lands. Silver flashes and the leather stings, opening skin in neat, terrible lines. The guards move with practiced hands; they do not look at me, only at the duty they do. Each lash takes something that was mine.

Voices rise around us. An elder speaks of law and lineage; people nod because safety is a language they choose. A spoon with a silver smear is held up as proof. I try to tell them about the serving girls and the vial, but the words drown. Certainty matters more than mess.

They pull the small cord from my neck and toss it aside. A bowl is struck at the threshold and someone pushes me into cold air. Children line the path with hard eyes. A distant howling from afar. Torches throw long shapes across the road. My legs feel as if they belong to someone else. I walk because stopping would be surrender.

They call me cursed until the word fits like a second skin. I wear a rough cloak with the emblem torn away and cross the stones that mark the pack’s edge. The ridge holds their silhouettes until the light slinks down; their voices are distant now.

My hands are sticky with blood and sweat. My throat holds the words I could not speak. I walk into the dark because motion is the only argument left. My heart pounds; my wolf will not answer. It locks itself shut and with the lock I feel something unmake me. The night takes me.

I call it, though, my voice thin; the silence only answers with a colder echo.