Chapter 4

Maera

The cold comes first, a hard edge that steals heat from my bones. I keep moving because stopping feels like surrender, and surrender is what they wanted when they cut me loose at the pack boundary. My feet drag. The cloak they threw over me is soaked and heavy; the ropes chafe where they rubbed my wrists. Every step sends a pulse of pain through the lash lines along my belly.

On the third night the rogues find me.

I hear them before I see them …low voices, the scrape of leather, the muted clink of metal, like rain on a roof. Torchlight threads through the trees, slow and hungry. They move like a thing that has learned how to look for weakness. My throat tightens. I flatten myself against a mound of roots, hair stuck damp to my forehead, and try to make myself as small as the soil.

“Look,” one of them says, and his voice is a hook. “A pretty scrap left by the pack. Could fetch a coin.”

“Or two,” another says. Their laughter is loose. It tastes like the inside of a wound.

I hold my breath. The air in my lungs burns. My hands tremble but I keep them folded under my chest, as if a stillness could fool them. The scent of torch smoke rides past, close enough to lick my face. One of the rogues drops a soft thing against the underbrush and it rustles, a boot, heavy with purpose. They’ll check the hollows, they’ll strike the low places first. I can hear the rope of their planning.

They filter like a net. One moves left, a tall man with a beard like brambles. Another skirts the right, blade glinting where it catches the torchlight. A smaller one, mean-mouthed, edges straight for where I am curled. I can smell him: beer, stale sweat, the iron tang of a knife.

My first mistake is thinking they want only loot. The second is thinking I can hide forever. The mean one drops to his knees and pats the leaves, whispering like he’s reading me a story. He finds my cloak, he finds the wet hem of it, and his hand closes on the fabric, slow, as if he wants to savor the moment.

He lifts his head. “Found you,” he says, as if we are playing a cruel child’s game.

Something in me snaps.

I roll under him before he can pull the cloak clear. Fingers find his wrist and I bite down hard — teeth on bone, a long hungry closing. He howls, a surprised, ugly sound, and the torch tips. The light swings wild, and for the first time I see faces: greed, hunger, cruelty, all sharpened by drink and starvation. I kick at his ribs, catching him near the kidney. He doubles, a sick sound like rope burning.

They rush me then, two of them, boots trampling leaves. I taste blood, copper and warm, in my mouth from the bite. A blade flashes and kisses my thigh…shallow, but it burns. I grab at the man with the knife, fingers sliding on his sleeve, and pull. He stumbles into the other and they both tumble. Their surprise is my small mercy. I wrench free and run.

Running is something I once did for the harvest, for the market, for the train of chores that kept me busy. This running is raw and animal. I ignore the sting in my side. Branches slap my face. Roots try to twist my ankle. I hear them behind me, cursing.The heavy boots of men who think they will have a bed by morning and a woman to warm it. One of them calls out loud…Liar! Witch! — thick with hatred like I have already been punished twice.

I burst through a low stand of the territory. The thorns tear my cloak and catch my hair. I crawl, sliding on damp leaves, arms and legs burning, and find a narrow stream. Water is a miracle. I fling myself into it and the cold steals my breath, but it cleans the blood and mud from my skin. The rogues hesitate at the water’s edge, curses stuttering. They shout and scrape, but the brush grips their boots and the night keeps my shallow breathing like a secret.

They come closer, torchlight bobbing, and one of them leans down and thrusts his hand into the water like he wants to pull me out with a hook. My fingers close on a slick stone and I drag it like a talisman. He grins, thinking of me defeated. He doesn’t see the pebble I have tucked under my palm. I raise my knee and stamp it against the back of his calf. He goes down with a howl. Two push, one slams into the other, and for a ragged minute they scramble like animals trying to right themselves.

That minute is all I need. I slide under briers and burrow into a tangle of roots, cold water slicking my ribs, breath shallow. They shout and smash branches; one curses as his shoulder meets a hidden root. The moment stretches thin; then, as if remembering some other hunt, the rogues peel away. Maybe they fear the river, maybe they hear other steps, or maybe they grow bored of a prize that might bite back. When the echoes of their curses trail off, I let my shoulders sag.

I cannot stay. My legs tremble when I stand; the blood from my thigh has left a damp smear across my leggings. I stagger from the stream and press my back against the tree. My hands fly to the bite on my arm and pull at the crud with trembling fingers. The wound stings and yells. My breath comes in shallow waves.

I should move, find higher ground, a hollow to sleep in. Every sensible thought is a map of survival. But my knees wobble and the world narrows to a place behind my eyes where stars spin. I count the breaths like stitches, one after the other, and try to push panic into the river where it belongs.

Footfalls crack the silence again, different this time — not the heavy swagger of rogues, but something measured and sure. The light is not a torch. It is a wide, slow glow that shakes the leaves in a calmer rhythm. I try to lift my head and the pain screams. My vision swims and the edges of the trees soften.

A shadow moves between the trunks. The shape is too big to be a man: broader shoulders, a gait that eats the ground. He steps into the spill of light and for a breath the world tilts like a door. He does not move like the hunters I have seen in the pack. He moves like a thing that has always belonged to the dark places — deliberate, like a tide.

He is close enough now that I can smell him: damp earth, fur, the clean faint iron of a wild animal. My throat closes with a noise that is equal parts fear and relief. I try to speak and my voice is a dry whisper.

“Please,” I say, because there is nothing else to say.

His eyes find mine. They are luminous, not human-bright but like a hunted moon. He crouches like he is settling to listen. His hand moves, surprisingly gentle, and presses to my shoulder. Heat blooms through the cold where his palm rests.

“You are near gone,” he says, the voice low and not unkind. It is a word I do not expect from a Lycan, which is why I feel my body relax a breath.

My teeth chatter. The sound of his voice is a loop I can hang my thoughts on. “I… rogues. They—”

He lifts a hand and lays a finger against my lips. “Sleep,” he murmurs. The single syllable is a cloak.

His fingers find the rash of silver scars at my ribs, thumb pausing as if reading a map. I make a sound that is part apology, part question. He does not answer my words; he answers with steadiness. Around us the night breathes and the river chatters like old gossip. Everything I have been ripped off …family, home, the fierce comfort of knowing my own shape, slides away until there is only the small bright ache of wanting to belong. I think once, absurdly, that if the wolf inside me were awake it would choose him, and in that impossible thought I let a small, grateful sleep take me whole right now and I surrender to it.

I close my eyes to the world like shutters and let the dark take me. His warmth is the last thing I understand as the edges of consciousness unthread and I go under, the world sliding into a place where pain quiets into an even, distant drum.