Mag-log inThe Stranger on the Phone
December had become strangely quiet. Amara still went to work every morning, still laughed with the girls and still tried to convince everyone around her that she was okay. But when she got home, the silence seemed louder than before. Vince was gone. Not just away. Gone in a way that made Amara realize she had no idea what their marriage had meant to him. She tried not to think about it. During the week, work kept her busy. Her colleagues made her laugh, even when she didn't feel like laughing, and sometimes she stayed longer at work just because she didn't want to go home. But the weekends were different. There was too much time to think. Too much time to remember his face on that video call. Too much time to wonder how he could look so happy while she was falling apart. One Friday evening, Amara was lying on her bed, scrolling endlessly through her phone. She was bored. Not the normal kind of bored. The kind where you didn't actually want to do anything, but you also couldn't stand sitting alone with your thoughts. She opened one app. Closed it. Opened another. Then she came across an online dating app. She stared at the screen. "Why not?" She laughed quietly at herself. She wasn't looking for love. She wasn't looking for another husband. After what Vince had done, the last thing Amara wanted was another serious relationship. She was simply bored. Maybe she wanted someone to talk to. Maybe she wanted to feel like there was still a world outside the mess she was living in. So she created an account. She chose a few pictures, filled in some basic information and uploaded her profile. Then she put the phone beside her. She barely expected anything. A few minutes later, her phone buzzed. Then again. And again. Amara picked it up. "Already?" She opened the app. There were messages from strangers. Some made her laugh. Some made her immediately roll her eyes. Some were so forward that she deleted them without replying. Then one conversation caught her attention. She replied. The man responded almost immediately. Their conversation was surprisingly easy. They joked about random things. He asked what she was doing. She told him she was lying in bed. He teased her about being boring. She told him he was the one who had messaged her first. The conversation continued. Before she realized it, an hour had passed. Then two. Amara looked at the time and shook her head. She couldn't remember the last time she had talked to someone for that long without thinking about Vince. Eventually, he asked her name. "Amara." A few seconds passed. Then his reply appeared. Beautiful name. She smiled. She hadn't expected that. Then she asked him the same question. "What's your name?" His answer came quickly. Justin. Amara saved his number under the name he had given her. Justin. She didn't question it. Why would she? She had met him on a dating app. He was still a stranger. They continued chatting. At first, Amara kept everything light. She didn't tell him about Vince. She didn't tell him about the wedding. She didn't tell him about the drinking. She didn't tell him about the way she sometimes cried herself to sleep. She simply enjoyed talking. For once, she didn't have to explain herself. Justin didn't know her as someone's wife. He didn't know Vince's family. He didn't know what people at work thought about her. To him, she was simply Amara. And somehow, that felt freeing. A few days later, their conversations became more frequent. Morning messages. Afternoon jokes. Late-night calls. Sometimes they talked about serious things. Other times, they talked about absolutely nothing. One night, Justin noticed the change in her voice. "You sound sad." "I'm not." "You are." Amara smiled. "You don't know me well enough to know that." "I've been talking to you enough to know when you're pretending." She became quiet. Nobody had noticed that before. Or maybe people had noticed but never asked. "Bad day?" he asked. "Something like that." "Want to talk about it?" Amara hesitated. She wasn't ready. "Maybe another time." "Okay." He didn't push. That surprised her. Most people wanted answers immediately. Justin simply changed the subject and made her laugh. And Amara found herself grateful for that. As the weeks passed, she began looking forward to his calls. She would never admit it. Not even to herself. But whenever her phone lit up with his name, there was a small smile waiting on her face. Her colleagues noticed too. One afternoon, one of the girls caught her smiling at her phone. "Who's that?" Amara immediately locked her screen. "No one." "Nobody makes you smile like that." "I'm just talking to someone." "Someone?" Amara laughed. "Yes." "A man?" "Maybe." The girls burst out laughing. For the first time in weeks, Amara laughed with them instead of forcing herself to. She didn't know what Justin was becoming in her life. She wasn't calling it a relationship. She wasn't calling it love. She wasn't even sure she trusted him completely. But he was becoming familiar. Comfortable. A small part of her everyday life. There was only one thing she didn't know. Justin wasn't actually Justin. The man she had met through the dating app had given her a different name. His real name was Liam. And Amara wouldn't discover that immediately. For now, she knew him only as Justin. A stranger who had entered her life because she was bored one December evening. A stranger who had no idea how broken she was. And a stranger who had no idea that, in just a few months, they would finally meet face-to-face. March 25, 2023. But that day was still months away. For now, Amara simply waited for her phone to ring. And somewhere along the way, she stopped wondering whether Justin would call. She started wondering when he would.A Week AwayThe weekend finally came, and for the first time in a long time, I was genuinely excited.I was leaving the province for an entire week.I wanted to forget about everything waiting for me back home—the job, my in-laws, Vince, the questions about our marriage, and the constant feeling that my life was becoming something I didn't recognize.Just for one week, I wanted to disappear.I wanted to be somewhere nobody knew me as Vince's wife.Somewhere I could dress however I wanted, laugh as loudly as I wanted and wake up without immediately remembering everything that had happened.James had been excited about my visit too.We had been talking for weeks about what we would do while I was there. He had plans for us, places he wanted to take me and things he wanted to show me.I was looking forward to it.Maybe more than I should have been.When I finally arrived, I expected to see James waiting for me.He wasn't.I stood there with my bags, looking around while people passed me.
The Answer I Wasn't Ready ForSeeing Vince once a month had somehow become normal.It shouldn't have been.We were married.Yet sometimes three or four weeks could pass before I saw my own husband. We lived separately, worked in different places, and had completely different routines. Our marriage had become something I had learned to fit into the spaces between everything else in my life.But despite how little I saw him, I was still madly in love with him.That was the part nobody understood.My colleagues could see how much he had hurt me. They could see how different I had become since discovering what he had done. They could see the way I sometimes came back from seeing him confused, disappointed, or unusually quiet.But they also saw how quickly my face changed whenever someone mentioned his name.I could be having the worst day at work, and one sentence about Vince could make me smile.I hated that about myself.But I couldn't control it.Three weeks had passed since I had last
Still Blinded by LoveThe morning after I spent the night with Vince, I woke up with a strange feeling in my chest.Not sadness.Not regret.Something much more embarrassing.I was happy.I hated admitting that to myself.After everything Vince had done, after the wedding, the lies and the months of wondering what had happened to the man I married, I had still gone to him when he asked.And now, the morning after, I couldn't stop thinking about him.I got ready for work, trying to convince myself that it had been nothing.Just a night.Just two people who were still legally married spending time together.Nothing more.But every time I remembered something he had said or the way he had looked at me, I smiled.And then I would catch myself smiling and immediately become annoyed with myself."Get a grip, Amara."I was still in love with him.That was the truth.No matter how many times I told myself I was moving on, my heart hadn't received the message.When I arrived at work, my collea
What Was Left Between UsMorning came slowly.I woke up knowing that I had to go to work, but for a few seconds I simply lay there, staring at the ceiling.Vince was still asleep.We had spent the entire night together, but there was something strange about waking up knowing that we would both leave separately.We didn't live together.We hadn't lived together for a long time.Our marriage had always been unusual.We dated for six months, got married, and somehow still ended up living separate lives.I would see him mostly on weekends.I would visit him at work.Sometimes we would spend time together, but even when we were sitting next to each other, I often felt like I was alone.And now, after everything that had happened, I could finally see the pattern.I wasn't suddenly lonely because he had married another woman.I had been lonely long before that.The wedding had simply forced me to stop pretending I wasn't.Vince eventually woke up.He didn't say much.He reached for his phone
The Man Who Came BackBy the time May 1 arrived, I had almost convinced myself that Vince no longer mattered.Almost.I had spent the past few months trying to put the pieces of my life back together.December had broken something inside me.January had been about surviving.February passed without me really noticing.March brought Liam into my life.April brought James.And somewhere between all of it, I had started learning how to live without waiting for Vince to come back.Then he called.He wanted to see me.It was May 1, a public holiday, and he knew I would finish work early.He didn't explain much.He simply asked me to meet him at our usual place.I agreed.I don't know why.Maybe because even after everything, some part of me still wanted answers.Maybe I wanted to see whether being around him would still make me feel the way it used to.Or maybe I just wanted to understand how someone could promise you forever and then marry somebody else.After work, I went home, changed a
The One Who Was Always ThereThe days after meeting Justin were confusing.I still thought about him.I still wondered about the women I had seen on his phone.And I couldn't forget the name the taxi driver had accidentally given me.Liam.But I didn't ask him about any of it.I continued talking to him as though nothing had happened.He still answered when I called.He still replied when I messaged.But I could feel that something had changed.Before we met, our conversations had felt effortless. We could talk for hours, and I never had to wonder whether he actually wanted to hear from me.After we met, he became distant.Not completely.That almost made it worse.If he had stopped talking to me completely, maybe I would have been able to let him go.But he didn't.He answered.He replied.He was still there.Just not in the same way.Sometimes I would stare at my phone after sending him a message, wondering whether I should send another one.Then I'd stop myself.No.I wasn't going







