— Hi, I’m Katherine Amarantt. I think I spoke to you on the phone a couple days ago. I came for the job interview.
I try to smile as friendly as possible and I hope I’m not looking crazy. It’s too early for me to be spontaneous.- Oh, yes! Mr. Belmontt is on the twentieth floor, but it was not with me that you spoke, certainly with his secretary. The girl returns my smile and puts her hair behind her ear. She is so beautiful that I got a twinge of envy, her red hair look beautiful in contrast to the sun, the freckles on her face make her a cute footprint, but the blue eyes give a more "sexy" and confident look. When I absorb what she said I get a fright, what do you mean "Mr. Belmontt"? Business owners don’t usually do that service.- Mr Belmontt? -He owns the company, right? He’s going to interview me? Isn’t that the secretary I spoke to?! I shoot several questions at once and feel the distress return. The woman just laughs at my despair, which makes me quite ashamed. Fuck, is it funny that someone almost freaking out over an interview?— Yeah, he owns the company. Mr Belmontt likes to meet in person everyone who works at the company and make them feel welcomed. What she tells me makes me even more nervous, the weight on my back becomes even heavier, I can’t look like an idiot in front of the CEO.- Thanks for the help, see you soon. I force a smile and walk towards the main elevator. I press the twentieth floor on the elevator buttons and to my distress, it stops on almost every floor. When it arrives at the last I have almost no personal space among so many well-dressed, white and money-smelling people. I practically run from the elevator and walk to another counter that should be where that desk should work. When I’m in front of her, I open a smile without showing my teeth. I stop for a moment and analyze the woman, she has a beautiful smile and a fat body with wide hips, the cheeks are very red, the eyes are black as coal and the hair of the same color.- Hi, I’m Katherine Amarantt, I’m here for the job interview.I speak straight to the point before I run out of there and come home to cry in fetal position.- Hello, he’s waiting for you. Pleasure, my name is Anastasia Pirez, I’m Mr. Belmontt’s secretary. She reaches out to me and I gently squeeze. Her hand is so soft, but the grip is very firm.- It’s a pleasure to meet you too. What’s his office? I ask looking sideways behind some room that might be his. Anastasia points to the last door in the hallway and smiles when she notices my expression, the room is so isolated that I hardly see the door.- He’s the reserved type, the quieter the better. I nod and walk towards the room she sent, feeling my heart almost leaving the mouth of such distress. I stop in front of the wooden door and knock twice in a row.My heart beats decompensated and I feel like fainting at any time, I have always been an anxious person, especially in adolescence, unfortunately I suffered in advance and it just hindered me and made me get stuck by fears without foundation. I hear a "between" and my trembling hands go automatically to the door handle, the turn carefully and push forward, the great room begins to appear and I could see the decoration, the furniture has a very rustic footprint and the huge windows make a wonderful natural light come in. I notice a man facing the windows, he does not seem to care whether or not there is a stranger in his room, since he does not even turn to look at me. I can see nothing more than his broad and seemingly muscular back, but that’s enough to intimidate me, his posture is imposing and incredibly straight, I feel embarrassed to be all crooked and lift my body. I approach the table and sit in the chair quite comfortable. The man slides with the chair forward and finally I could see his face. His eyes are deep blue as the sea, transmit a mixture of danger with mistrust, as if he did not trust anyone.His charcoal black hair is well maintained and seems to have been trimmed a few days, his beard makes him look even sexier, the jaw is well designed and incredible as it may seem, even the chin is attractive. He raises one of her eyebrows and deflects her gaze to the ground quickly, which embarrasses Kate, was caught analyzing her potential boss.Saturday is usually the best day of the week for me. I can do nothing, watch a movie, sleep and eat. This Saturday I decided not to eat candy, since I threw myself in the sweets yesterday, but what could I do? I was caring for my inner child and children do not care about healthy eating.I sit at my small dining table with my bread and milk with warm chocolate milk, there is no better breakfast than this, it gives even a satisfaction to feel the bread and milk in your mouth at the same time. While as I watch the morning news, most of the news is sad, but it’s always good to stay informed of things that happen in the city I live in, especially living in Toronto which is a huge city.I’m taken from my first relaxing moment in the morning with my phone ringing. I think about not answering, since I think it’s fucking rude to call people in the morning, they do not know that this is a sacred time and deserves respect? But when I see that it is Anastasia, I think it is better to answer, I r
I run to the shooting booth and stop in front seeing some people shooting at the targets to win the gifts, some children are around looking amazed at a game that practically only serves to get money, since many people have a bad shot. The toy is beautiful and bright, the counter is worn, but in compensation the targets are well maintained, they must be changed every month. The targets are colorful fish made with wood, they are so cute that it makes you want to take it home. I look at the corner of the tent and the gentleman behind the counter looks grumpy, since he does not open a smile.Cassian stops by my side and crosses her arms looking at people playing. I fake a false cough to attract his attention and when I can I put my hands behind my back smiling. The time has come to twist the truth.— Alison has great aim. Once we went to an amusement park and stayed for hours at target shooting, we left there with so many gifts that on the way we even gave some to the children, they were
The week passed quickly, as always. The days for me are the same, my life has become a fucking routine, so when it finally comes Friday night I just want to throw myself in bed and cry myself to sleep. It’s hard to try to find yourself again after so much time lost inside myself, after being trapped in a world where no woman should stay. It’s so dark and scary...The worst thing is that for years I thought I was guilty of everything, that my attitudes led me to live that way, I had no one to help me. I moved away from my friends and my parents, I had nothing and no one, it was just me and Ethan, but in fact it was always me and me.I wipe my tears and try to push away those thoughts that only give me trigger. I hear my phone beeping and I remember I have an appointment with Cassian. Damn mouth that only brings me confusion and trouble, if I had stayed silent I would not have to lie to him again. I hate lies, but they are now part of my life. I unlock the phone screen and see the notif
Today the day started complicated, when I was leaving home my shoe spoiled and I remembered that I did not take the clothes from the clothesline. Detail, it snowed all night and the clothes didn’t dry properly, missing having a dryer. I wore a very warm outfit and went to work, but the subway was closed due to bad weather, so unfortunately I had to go to work by taxi...........Now I’m rubbing the bathroom floor with my hands freezing. I’ve cleaned the hallway and the boss’s room, at least that. It’s past eleven o'clock and now is lunch time, I have to finish the bathroom before, I still have to dust the hallway, after doing this I will be free and just need to pretend I’m working until one in the afternoon.After half an hour of fighting, I finish the bathroom. I rub my hands on each other and try to put on warm gloves, sigh in approval and sit in the vent for a few moments, my legs are aching from kneeling to scrub the floor. When I feel that my legs are no longer hurting, I get up
After a troubled conversation with Cassian, I leave the room and Tásia waits for me with both hazelnut eyes very attentive. She looks like my neighbor, the owner Marta is so gossip, that if doubt she knows a gossip before it happens.- How was it? He fired you?She asks with palpable distress in her voice, almost smiling at her concern.- No, I begged him to stay, I think he took pity on me.I lie to my face and almost feel my nose grow.- You have no idea the relief I’m feeling, this company is not the same without you.Tásia smiles and I reciprocate. I approach her and hug her, I feel like Judas himself now, but I need to enjoy while I still have her friendship. Anastasia’s hug is so warm, it feels like the hug my mother gave me when I was little. I feel welcomed in it.- Now I need to leave, I’ll go back to work tomorrow.I talk after I get away from the warm hug.- All right. See you tomorrow, see if you can take my calls.Her eyes get serious, but I know she only cares about me.
About a week later...I never liked Monday, it was always the most tiring and boring day of the week, but this Monday I can say it’s the worst of my life, I felt bad for missing the service last week, but I’m already feeling terrible for so many things.This morning I decided to stop having ice cream, since in seven days I ate six pots, perhaps this is a little worrying. Now I’ll just stay in the brigadeiro, it may not be healthy, but at least I gave a diverse menu.Tásia tried to call me a few times, but I ignored how I was doing, I ignored the messages too, which have already passed three hundred, apparently she has plenty of time when the work ends. The company called me too, but I did not see it, since I did not even get the right phone. I even thought about returning, but gave up as soon as I dialed the number.I’m gonna shove another brigadeiro spoon in my mouth while I watch Chris Evans shirtless on TV. God forgive me, but damn it, what a hot man, I could stare for hours withou