Falling for the Alpha: He fucks me better

Jordan’s POV

“We did it!” Joanna’s voice was still audible despite the loud thumping of the bass speakers that shook the window frames.

Her hands moved slowly over Killian's chest and I just watched in shame and completely speechless. I didn't dare say a word of course, not today.

After winning the hockey tournament and remaining the ruling pack, I couldn't afford to destroy that moment for him, but I would really appreciate a little bit of attention too.

My heart fluttered as I watched him bask in the joy of the victory, holding firmly the large bottle of booze and gulping it in carelessly while the rest spilled off his lips.

The beauty of seeing him free and this happy was something I had been waiting for all along. All through the tournament, he had been busy and not giving me attention and not just happy, but at least, today, he was cool.

Emily, the leader of the dance group girls in his team, a tough beta was just all around him, touching and caressing his chest and long hair,. alongside Joanna, her elder sister.

I clenched my fist hard until my fingers turned white. He was enjoying it, knowing fully well I was watching and he didn't stop her, he didn't stop them.

As the star of the hockey team and the son of the Alpha, this was quite normal for girls, especially powerful ones to flirt with him, not the likes of me—an ordinary omega.

My heart was heavy with pain as I watched and I couldn't take it anymore. Even though I was enjoying the way the other team mates of the same alpha breed were shifting and playing together around the fire circle and mud, alongside him, the flirting was too much.

With a soft sigh, I grabbed a small glass of water and gulped it down and turned away, headed straight to the pack house.

I had just gone only a few meters away when a voice cut through the air, a familiar voice.

“Jordan? What's the matter? Leaving already?” Killian asked and I could see the persuasion in his eyes, but by his side, Emily hung and was dancing all over him.

“Uhm, nah, I just need some fresh air.” I smiled.

“Come on,” he pressed. I knew he clearly didn't want me to leave. I knew he enjoyed staring at me all day, even though he couldn't tell his teammates and comrades that I was his mate.

“I'll be back, I promise,” I said, trying to escape when Silver in his alpha wolf form brushed over me.

“Come on, aha, Jordan, it's been a while since I saw your wolf. Come on, let's go play…” he urged and immediately dragged me closer to the fireplace and my heart stiffened.

God no! Killian knows why I can't join them…but his expression was rather confusing.

He knew how my parents were killed and he knew I couldn't shift because of the trauma I expected him to stand up for me, but he didn't say a word. The other boys kept on pressuring and pushing me, and he didn't say a word.

“Uhm, I…I just need a little break.” I begged and wanted to run off.

Immediately, he swung into the air and pulled me back. His tough and strong fingers dug into my shoulder and his gaze was locked.

“What's your problem? Do you want to disgrace me?” He scolded with a whispering voice.

“You know…”

“Yeah, I know, but we have to work, some day, and I can't afford to tell my boys that I'm mated to a soft omega who can't handle his trauma,” he warned. With that, he shoved me closer to them and back to the fire circle, my body trembling.

Their golden eyes locked on me, just the same way those perverts did to my parents. I was supposed to shift, I was supposed to run after doing that and they'll chase me round the fireplace, but I couldn't. The heat seeped into my soul. I could hear the sound of everything around me, even the sound of the sweat drops from my head, I heard it all.

My soul shook hard as I shivered with their eyes locked on to me.

“I can't believe he's shaking?” Emily mocked with the girls. But that didn't even bother me.

They were closing in on me while the on lookers were hailing and begging me to shift. I froze, couldn't take a step and was hyperventilating.

“Come on boy!” Joanna's voice echoed in my ears as she screamed from the stands.

My eyes scanned all around the place, searching their faces, hoping any of them would know that I meant it when I said I couldn't play with them. But no, they were too engrossed and warming up to chase me around the fire circle.

“Killian!” I called, but he just looked me in the face and spat the cold words.

“Come on boy, go on! Shift! Run!”

“Let's cheer him up!” He urged the others now and they started cheering.

“Jordan! Jordan! Jordan!” Their voices slowly became inaudible to me as the loud growl of Silver’s wolf shook me. I saw it right there, that very wolf with golden eyes, staring right at me.

And in that brief moment, I just remembered that night, just as if it was happening right now. I watched it now, as if it was happening before me, as it lunged into the air, and pounced on my dad, its paws stuck into his chest and tore him to pieces, cutting each muscle piece by piece without mercy and my heart raced even harder.

But I shrieked now and snapped out of my hallucinations by the loud order from Silver. Once again, the boys growled louder as the order from Silver was given and they clearly thought that could force me to wolf out.

Bloody hell!

I watched them lunge into the air and my breath caught beneath my throat.

At that moment, my lungs locked and I finally stopped breathing. I stared at Killian with my heavy eyes, fighting for survival and the pang of the realization hit me stronger.

He wasn't going to help me here and there were only two ways out of this. It's either I find a way to breathe and maybe escape and face my fear, or I die like an ordinary omega after my heart stops and join my parents.