For our dinner, Marixa nominated herself to cook the foods, and I just let her for me to think some things on my own. Right now, even though I had lots of regrets, I still was waiting for Neil fulfill his promise about him coming in here so that we both could talk.
Although until now, I did not receive any updates from him. I contacted Mom but she was out of coverage. Only Daniel exerted effort in asking about my status. Only him.
"Hey, baby girl. The foods are ready, we should really prepare yourself because I am planing to do something," Marixa's head showed up like a little kid's on my door. "Well, I am just planning to help about you seducing your husband. You're good at performing in stage but you really suck at charming your husband."
"Shut up!" I said, and we both laughed. Both of us had fun in teasing each other, specially now that I had known her background status. Currently, she's liking someone whom also her best friend. She never mentioned a name but
I did not have any idea how I got fallen asleep that night, maybe something miracle happened for me to close my eyes. I was feeling threatened but because I was in Neil's room, I felt somehow secured.If I would say the truth, I was panicking, and so was Marixa. Unfortunately, I did not manage to message to Neil because of one thing : he was busy. Maybe I would just tell him once I found a perfect timing to."Hey, wake up, sleepy head. I have something to tell you," I heard Matixa, and I panicked at bit. What did she want to say? Was something bad happened again? Did someone trespass in here? "But do not worry, this is not all about what happened yesterday," she assured me as I sat on my bed. "Your husband in here. He is in the living room and--"I never gave her the chance to continue talking because I immediately fixed myself up and went to the bathroom. I was right at the thought that I looked like a monster. My eyes were bloodshot which was the proof that I
On the following days, Daniel and Neil did not show up because of busy days, specially Neil, news of him linking with different girls had been exploded, and so there was no doubt that he started to become very private for the paparazzi not to notice him. And if you would ask my how was my life going, I could say that I was bored to the core. I was with Marixa though I needed to do some activities to cure my boredom.Days had passed, and even Neil's shadow did not reveal itself. He's really busy, huh?On the following days, three policies looked for me and announced something. They told me that Neil asked for a favor and that's making me see the psycho guard who wanted to harass me. Marixa and I, therefore, went to the police custody, and we met a man whose physical appearance screamed for dirtiness. It was not my intention to judge him because of that but because of what he did urged me to."You are safe. You can ask him
"Thank you very much," I heard her, she's crying still, and I could not hug her because doing that also meant hurting my own self. That's it. I had said a promise I should face. Soon as my tears began to fall, someone joined in the scene, and it was mom. In her hands, she was carrying lots of healthy foods like fresh fruits. At first, her eyes were full of worries, obviously because of Felicia, but as she noticed me, her eyes widened in surprise."You are here. I was expecting Neil to be in here and not you," she uttered using her firn voice. "And what's happening with you two? I have been worrying for days yet here you adding some problems in my head again.""I am just happy, Auntie. I am because Sydney understands my situation." For some reason, that message of Felicia gave me cues to look around. "She told me that she would encourage Neil to take care of me. That's a good news, right, Auntie?"I was not seeing Mom's f
At the end, Neil just shook his own head, disagreeing at my decision. He seemed so untamable, as if no matter if I told him all the reasons existing in this world, he would not still like to let me go."I have a plan. Just go with the flow," he said and sipped on his coffee for the last time. He also invited me to take my breakfast and I just followed him. For minutes, I did not have any strength to speak."How's your day yesterday?" I heard him asking me.I stared at my own plate, finding for an answer in it. "My day was okay--""Another lie again," he cut me off. "As what as I said, I will take care of Felicia. If possible I wll visit her everyday. But that doesn't mean I will not come back you, alright?"I was still unconvinced. I could already imagined my Mom's scolds because I failed in encouraging Neil."She's sick. Why can't you just accept their favor?""How many times do I have to tell you that I do not care about her conditi
I could not blink anymore. I wanted to make sure if I was just in a terrible nightmare or what but when my heart thumped so hard inside my chest, I instantly got the idea that everything was real, and that included of Neil in my front wearing the kind of expression that reflected as how disappointed he was on me.I knew that kind of expression was all about that land. And this time, too bad, but I prepared nothing to defend my side because I myself could not even understand myself why an obnoxious idea formed in my head these past few days."Hey, you are awake. What do you want?" I asked to break the tension. Good thing he smiled a little bit."I already fed myself before I came in here. Thanks for asking," he uttered with formalism. His hands on his pockets, he locked my eyes using his. "So, why did you sell that land?""I have the right to because... That's not even yours!" Goodness! Please, anyone, gave me strength because it seemed like there's still
I never planned to stay in this place for too long because Neil might come in here and it's possible for him to notify me that's why it was better for me to be sure. I took a one-minute rest and that meant of sitting all alone in a sofa thinking for my next plan. Damn. I should have made for a plan B. Coming in here without any backup plan was one of the dumb moves I had ever done for this day. Having a plan B, C, D was crucial for someone like me who had lots of doubts and second thoughts."Are you planning to go back in here again, Ma'am?" the maid asked me as she saw me standing up with finality."Not anymore."Too bad but I could not find any reason to come back in here. Unless I would plan something to steal from here-- kidding."Sir Neil is not always in here. It's impossible for him to be in here for hours. Aside from he is busy, I guess he really does not want this place anymore."That's what I received from her again, and it marked in my s
There were many times that I tried to surrender, but I knew that I was almost in there... I thought everything was finally settled since Felicia and I were becoming friends, but that what was just I knew, because the truth was, the exchange of becoming closer to her was starting in losing my connection to my own husband.I again, tried not to mind what's happening, but it's so painful to the core... Everytime I heard Felicia on the other line calling my husband's name, not to mention that Neil would answer her with so much adoration in his voice... I felt like there was no reason to be happy anymore.And Marixa's words were like a curse, for she once said that I one day I would really regret selling that land, and it really was now happening. Words were powerless to describe how I wanted to go back in the time and changed what I did days ago.I had been crying for days. I ate sorrows as my breakfasts, regrets as my lunches
I always asked myself, 'Have I made the right decision? And luckily, majority part of me answered, 'Yes, you have that's why I am so proud of you. I decided to leave a letter for Neil. At first, I did not want to -- I wanted to surprise them all for them to feel guilty. But I had realized that, no, doing so would seem like I was just having my revenge, and I never like them to picture out my leaving as one.Years had passed, and fortunately, I fixed myself up so totally. I almost even forgot that I married someone who could not remember me, I almost forgot that I did not have any family I could lean into during my dark times.I glowed up, mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I trusted God in controlling my life. I lend to Him my fate and I would always be grateful for all the blessings He had given to me. Because of what I did years ago, I found myself going to GYM to improve my metabolism. I did not do it to have a sexy body