James POV
The smell of caffeine reminded me of my childhood. Dad would come by my room at night with cup of coffee to stop me from sleeping in order read.He says I was going to continue the family business and I need to know how finance ,so I studied fiance. I remember the stread fogging up the windscreen glass as he drove me to school,my motion completely reliant on my five hours of sleep. I pulled out my gray trouser from the locker and change into them. I stared at the slightly noticable stain of cream on my black trouser. She definitely spilled it on purpose,ever since my breakup with Ashley in December,it has been going on around here like this. My mind eguled with thought of Calla,the fashion girl I had stormed out the office from. She had a spark in her eye,the kind that made you feel like you've known someone for years beyond imaginable. Her soul was comforting yet ,threatening. Maybe I overreacted. To be fair,Dad would have done that. Dad said you have to command respect to be taken seriously.It was rude to zone out in the middle of an important meeting,he would have been proud of me for handling business. However,I couldn't shake the feeling of the look in her eyes when she said she was sorry. I took a glance at my watch and walked into the male bathroom, when I heard an aggressive footsteps walk in, followed by a violent cry. It sounded like a distant roar,It felt suppressed. I wanted to walk out when I heard another woman walk in. They sounded like the women from the office some minutes ago. I was curious to know what happened but instead I stood there in silence and waited. Their conversations pierced me. Her mum's sick. The other woman comforted her, my chest felt heavy standing still in the stall . What brutal way to die waiting in a bathroom stall. They began to talk about me,they didn't have nice things to say and it hurts, knowing I had added to someone's pain. A few seconds later,the room echoes with chuckles from both women. I wanted to walk out but Instead I stood, I was cut in a box, I was the only enemy here. Their chuckles died out and i heard one of the women walk out. My feet still frozen,as I mentally debated my next move. I finally decided and walked out. I watched her, standing by the mirror drying her face and fixing up her makeup. I went up the the sink beside her and washed my hands. I didn't know what to say. Her face flushed as she recognizes me. So I decided to make a joke instead. I showed her my hands, held her arms and told her how it was coffee spill on my trouser that made my hands stinky. Her eyes dropped down to my crotch area. My chest lifted,I shouldn't be having thought like this...but my eyes fell on the top of her head, tracing her blond highlights down her neck. She noticed her eyes had made me uncomfortable and felt more embarrassed. I paced back and forth trying to gather myself and figure out what to say. I leaned on the wall and my hands ran through my hair nervously. "I'm sorry,I said those terrible things to you, please don't cancel this project. I was wrong but Julie don't deserve to be punished for this..." She began "I'm not going to do that." I assured "Butt..ttt,I thought " "Look my dad has the power over that type of stuff.. okay?. I'm just here for the meeting." I said and for the first time that night,my shoulder tensed down. Around her,I didn't feel like I needed to put on an act. I found myself saying more than I should and I don't know if it's a good thing talking to a client like that. Her eyes soften. "I didn't mean to pry I swear,I wanted to come out but I didn't know what to do..." I continued. "I'm sorry about your mum...and also the office" She walked closer to the wall I was leaning on and a little smirk appeared on her face. " Thank you." I smiled back. She walked back to the sink to pickup her purse. "Let's make a deal" I said. Her attention sprung back to me. "I'd help you get this project done by getting my dad's final approval." I said. She pickup up her bag and walked back to me. "...and?" She said looking up to me curiously. "...and in return ,you make it a good one. I'd get my Dad's approval. We could work together." "Okay...but why do you need my help with that. You're his son, couldn't you just ask him" she said, adjusting her hair from her face. "He's not like other Dad's. He doesn't really...well, he's quite difficult to get through with" I said rubbing the back of my neck anxiously as my face turned hot. She fiddle's with her bag staring back at me curiously. "Ohh-- you're serious?" She said in disbelief. "You're his only son... you're like thirty--" "Twenty six actually " I replied " So...it was an act,the whole boss thing you did in there?" Her voice went high pitch before melting into laughter. I watched her laugh,and I couldn't help but notice how beautiful she was. Her brown eyes were watery which made it look glossy and shiny. Her smile was warm and tender. "Sorry...sorry... okay I'd stop" she said in-between laughs. "But I don't see how I'd be much of a help in this" "He put me in charge of controlling the event and if it comes out well. He'd unsuspend my allowance " "Why did he stop it though...and why ... forget,I'm being nosey." She wrap her hands over her chest and tilted her head a little. "Okay...deal." she said. The corner of my lips held back before turning into a smile. She stretched forth her hands for a handshake and I smiled back at her " you sure, you want that again?" I shook her hands. "Not sticky " she announced theatrical. "Friends ?...Colleges?..." I said,my hands still attached to hers "Toilet buddies" she replied smiling back.Our hands separated and she walks out, leaving me standing alone in the male restroom. I took a look at the mirror and I knew I was in trouble. Whatever had just happened wasn't going back to normal. The day ended quickly,I could barely pay attention without the thought of Calla coming back to me. Her brown hair ever radiant with blonde highlights smelled like vanilla essence. The carve of her neck flashes in my mind...our conversation replays in my mind, longing utterly to be around her again. To watch her smile,to listen to her witty remarks. I was curious of her and my curiosity has began to drive me insane. Dad sent a plane to pick me up from the airport. It was the smallest of his private plane,painted in a ridiculous purple. It was previously owned by some Canadian pop star and he never bother to change the color because it was he thought it was a brilliant market strategy. Mr Martin, Dad's Hired guard,who was more a babysitter for the most part of my life handed me an ipad of my schedule.The thing is,in my freshman year in college,I had gotten drunk at a frat party and a photo of me ended up online and dad completely lost his mind over it. This led to an even bigger stain on our relationship and worse,an eye on my every move.The curse of having highly influence parents. I took a look at the ipad and we were going to arrive New York by 6pm,which will leave me with two hours to get ready for dinner with my family. Six hours later,the plane landed on New York. I checked in my hotel and waited for the inevitable.I took deep breaths, contemplating the worse of situations. The last time I saw dad,it ended in an engulfed flame of catastrophic disaster. I heard a knock on my door. Mum walked in as elegant as she is. Her long floral dress swayed with the air, matching her gold necklace perfectly. "How are you baby" she said smiling and flinging her arms over me "it's almost like I never see you these days" "Hi mum" She pulled away, looking at me with sombre eyes "Baby,I just had to see you before dinner...oh.mmim so happy you're fine" I said nothing. This wasn't the first time,I knew why she was here. "Vino" she said my middle name. It was her open act of pursuance,to convince me to do something. " you're dad is going to be around and he's already in a bad moody because of the warehouse getting burnt in los Angeles wildfire." she began. "Maman, je suis écœuré. Il ne pense qu'à lui, il s'en fiche des autres"(Mama,I am tired of it. He doesn't care about anyone but himself.) "Vino Mômo,I'm not here to fight...I just don't want you and your father getting into an argument tonight" she said wearily I turned,looking away from her. "Vino-" she said before turning around and walking out of the room. I went in the shower,got dressed and made my way to the dinner. I walked into the room,I adjusted my black tie and walked in. My sister Vinora, smiled at me as I walked it. She was four years older than I am but looked even more mature since she got married last year. She wore a black gown. It was our little to play with colors. Whenever we had dinner with dad,we wore black . I walked up the the seat beside her and sat down,we greeted each out with our eyes. The room was very quiet. Mum walked in shortly,her heels beating the earth with ever step she took. The only sound made in the room. " Bonjour " she said. We sat and waited. Two mins later,Dad walker it. We all stood to acknowledge him. He sat,then we sat back down. Food was served. The sound of utensils on plate,and melody of Myléne Farmer playing softly from the speaker. It was Dad's favorite songs of her from the 90's called Désenchantée. "Alors Vinora, comment vont les affaires de Paul?" (Vinora , how's Paul's business going?) "Ça va bien Papa" (it's going well Papa) I look across mum,who bated an eye at me, fidgeting the napkin by her side. "Hmmm..." He responded nonchalantly, knifing his meal in full concentration."James, comment avance le projet de promotion ?"(James,how's the promotion project coming?) I revert the fork of food coming to my mouth and replied "it's fine" I said, swallowing the remains in my mouth. He drop his fork and knife ,which led to a loud bang on the ceramic in the table and looked at me "well what's it about?" "C'est une mode qui allie élégance contemporaine et inspiration vinicole Renault"(it's fashion, that brings modern fashion inspired by Renault Wine.) "La mode, c'est de l'argent jeté par les fenêtres" (Fashion is money thrown out the window) " it would be great,it would draw in a list American celebrities to gain attention to us. Renult is only popular in Europe. We can gain connections to supply for big awards..." I said An expression of dissatisfaction was scattered on his face. He wasn't just disappointed,it was angry. "Do you know how much we lost in the LA fire? Not popular in the US?" My father had never been a the type of person to please or satisfy. I watched it play in a million scenarios. One time,when Vinora got straight A's ,she was the smartest in the house but he took her results and toss it in the drawer. I didn't say a thing. I've seen it in his marriage with mum. Even though she's way out of his league,he still acted like he was doing her a favor. I've seen it with me,I always see it with me and I was getting sick of it. I murmured under my breath angrily. "Please don't be angry. I think I'd be a good idea.." my mum gentility fought to harness the chaos to come. She knew how to soothe his ego. Even when they fight she'd still plea and even though i try to step in, Mum will push me away. She placed her left hands on his in a gesture to calm him down. "Yes papa, Celebrities like Bradley cooper will come,this can create endorsement deals papa" Vioner continued, trying to lessen the hight of his anger. His face was cold and his eyes were deam as usual. A loud irritated noise erupted the room,he was annoyed. "The boy have a mouth. Stop talking up behalf of him " he said, pushing mum's hand that was relaxing on his. She hit the glass cup by beside her and it shattered in a million pieces on the floor. A cleaner came running to clean the particles of shattered glass in the floor. The whole room is tensed. Dad kept going on at the top of his voice. Vioner looked frightened, her face was red and her eyes widens staring at mum. Mum sat quiet as dad continued to raise his voice at her. "Shut up Beau... He should be a man. I didn't have any of this growing up,I had to struggle for it and he sits there like a spilot brat" He got up from his chair and stormed off. On getting to the door,a piece to his coat got caught in the door handle, almost pulling him down to the floor. Nobody moved,until he had left the room. Mum followed after him, walking fast enough to catch up with him. I tuned back to look at Vinora,who sided eyed me before we both began to laugh. I realized I had been holding my fork steady while the whole eruption happened. So I went back to eaten and so did Vioner. "He's been hitting her again" Vioner said. The room got more quiet . "She called crying last week after the LA fire." she let her fork drop and nervously looked at me again. "The glass cut her" "What?" "She was bleeding...I don't know why she puts up with him." I couldn't tell if she was scared or angry but whatever she felt,I felt just as much.Calla's POVI watched through the glass door of my office as James stood across from Julie's office which had a good sight as it was opposite to mine. He held a can of soda. He head turned to my direction,he waves at me and I smiled in return. Julie's yellow jacket stood out at the corner of my eyes, distracting. She was backing my office and I couldn't stop looking back in their direction.She had a key holder on her hand which she dwindles carelessly while her hands moved scattered around, describing whatever it was they were talking about. Julie was fond of that. Whatever they were talking about,if was thrilling for her. Even though I couldn't see her face,I could tell a big smile was spread from both of her ears.The first time I noticed was when I came to Halt Fashion as an intern five years ago. I began my job as a Vogue writer for fashion trends,but she eventually promoted me to become one of the creatives,when she came across my drawing book. Her creative vision has since ch
James POV It's been four days and thought of rooftop kept coming back to me, leaving me reckless. It wasn't just the tension,it was the fear in her eyes when she looked back at me before leaving. I reached out to her but she didn't reply. She definitely hated me. She must have felt ashamed. Calla Grayson's footprint stained the pages of my story. I lurked through Halts fashion Pinterest page and came across a picture from five years ago. It was 2016,one direction had just began their indefinite hiatus and skinny jeans was still a thing. There it was,a picture of Calla from collage. It was a selfie with a Snapchat filter,the type with cat ears. She wore a stripe shirt and her hair wasn't brown with blonde highlights, it was the color or autumn leaves. I zoomed it, thirsting for more details on what can possibly be so endearingly magnetic about her. My hands almost dropped the phone when I receive a call from Vinora. Her voiced rings in my ear when I picked up the phone. She was enth
Calla's POVA loud noise rang in my head as tears began to fall from my eyes. My legs were weak making my body heavy to carry,I collapsed on the floor beside the bed. The room was spinning and all I could think of was what had happened to my mother. I wanted to be with her. The rain splattered hard on the window steel and the sound of thunder echoes tremendous. My blurry vision could only amplify James running towards me as I began to cry profusely.He wrapped his arms around me and sat on the floor with me. "It's okay.. it's okay..." He mutters as he used his fingers to softly brush through my hair. A few minutes later,my bitter tears was replaced with silence and the pouring rain was replaced with cool breeze slightly hitting the windows. I sat up and I could feel James hands releasing me. He had a towel tied around his waist. He got up and began to wear his pants back. I tried to stifled the flush of adrenaline rush that consumed me. One moment,I was worshipping his body and the
James' POVI stood by her door and for the first time i felt completely useless. Calla snuggle her blanket tighter as I gave her one last look before leaving her room. The past 24 hours had been a complete spiral in her world and it killed me that I couldn't make it better. I walked out of her house and drove straight to see my Dad. Luckily,he was in Boston for a meeting.It was a quarter past 10 when I pulled up in the drive way of the hostel he rented. I placed a call but he didn't respond so I went straight to the lobby to ask to see him."You don't understand I need to see him right?" I pleaded urgently to the manager "Sir,I'm afraid I can't disclose the information about our guest" he said "Your guest? He owns the damn thing!" I said getting paranoid "Look, Jimmy... you've known me forever,you have to give me his card, it's an emergency ""James, your dad said I shouldn't let anyone up---" his forehead squeezed in his failed attempt to sympathize with me."Oh just give me the c
Calla's POV"Is it just me or sequels aren't as interesting as the original movie?""But Harry Potter was pretty good" I looked up "oh yeah" I said before approaching the coach again with another bag of potato chips. I popped myself beside James flung my feet on his laps. He pulls on my pink socks dramatically before laughing."What?""Nothing...""What?""Just observing...that's my job remember?" He said,before tearing open the bag of chip. "Will your Boss find this type of observation appropriate for the company?" I said raising my feet to his face as he playful pushes it away. He crawled over me and kissed my cheek before returning back to his position and fixing his gaze on the movie playing on the TV. "Three hours again you did try to kill me." He gaze still fixed on the TV as he puts a hand full of chips into his mouth.I smiled "But I didn't,did I?" A buzz came from my phone on the little lamp stand by the coach. I streach to reach it and it was an alarm I had set earlier f
James' POVI couldn't make an appointment yesterday so I went into the hospital first thing the next morning. My head ran a marathon today from my last conversation with dad but i was also busting with the thoughts of Calla' mum getting treatment and how Calla wouldn't have to worry about losing her mother. As I approached the doctor's office I was directed to the doctor in charge."Hello Doc." I stretch my hands out for a handshake. I'm met with a tight grip. "Please,sit down" his gesture at the seat beside me and sat down too at the opposite of the table. He sat down,his eyes refusing to meet with mine. " Sonny, I'm sure your Aunty already told you.""My Aunt?""The blond woman... aren't you here for Mrs Grayson?. It says here patient--Hannah Grayson."A loud puff, escaped my mouth unconsciously " Yes,I'm here to see Mrs Grayson, Doc is there some kind of problem?" I said wearily." What I'm saying is you can't make the donation you're here for because it's already out of control. S
Calla's POVJames came back up five minutes later. He walked slowly back to the table with his eyes looking from side to side nervously and sweat dripping down his neck. This collar button was undone and his tie hung loosely on his neck."Hey...what happened?" I said as a nauseating sense of concern and worry came over me. He sat down looking distracted a bit,his eyes still wandering around like he saw a ghost."Oh I think some young lad was admiring my car" he said as his hands brushed through his hair. He smiled at me and held both of my hands in his. "It's nothing the security was just worried." "Okay. Are you sure?""Yeah,I think he really like the car. The security took care of it,it's okay." He bite his lips but his assurance calmed my down.Another waiters came up to our table with our food. We got served I watched him taking in his meal slowly. His jawline moved in rhythm seductively,as his tongue licks the sauce remains from the spoon. I flickered at my thoughts of our unfini
James' POV( FLASHBACK)It was a summer afternoon in Ireland. Thirteen years old James ran around their beach house by the sea shores. He could taste the salty air as the storm gathers in the sky. He rushes into the house with his sandy feet and Vioner's Barbie doll swinging by his side. His sister chases him into the house and his runs even faster to hide away from her with her Barbie doll,when he nonchalantly bumped into one of his dad's clients. The man was tall and had a tan skin that made his appearance orange like that of an orange peel and his hair was a darker shade of brown like his shoes."Ohhh,hello lad" his Irish accent tingling in James' ears. He smiled at him and James smiled back.As James turned around to walk out of the room,he is met with the venomous stare of his father looking down at him. He looks at James with an obvious anger but no words fell from his mouth. James completely frightened,runs out and hide in the next room.James eventually gets caught in his chil
Calla's POVThe smell of freshly baked pastries filled the air. Hot steams from cups of chocolate,tea, coffee forming a perfect blend for the sense of homeliness I was searching for since my arrival. Perhaps, I just wanted to be held,to be felt and kept warm. Protected from the void of the feeling of James slipping through my fingertips.Paris wasn't particularly cold in this season. The sun was bright but not scogging to leave outrageous sun burns on your skin or cause you to be dripping wet, melting sweat out of the pores of your skin.No,It was simple bright and beautiful.Julie and I sat under an umbrella in the bakery down the street of our hotel. She bites into the milky doughnuts on the table as it's condensed milk fillers pours on the floor almost staining her maroon dress. I sipped on my hot espresso,as I changed the song on my phone. "Ah-ah...I hate when this happens." she exclaimed,her face dancing on a fine line between being embarrassed and disgusted. I grabbed some pape
James' POVI could feel a heavy weight on my head as I'm being dragged into a room at the end of the passage. My eyes deemed as I struggled to stay awake, punching the air and trying to get loose of the security guard's grip on me. I pulled away from him with force as we got closer to the room. A part of my shirt began to feel loose only for me to look down to see a hole on shirt. My ripped shirt made my screams worse as the guards grip too became tighter. I wiggled,pushed,pull,and held on to furnitures,resisting to go through the doors of the room. My ripped shirt tore the more he dragged me almost freeing me from his grip. "Get in there!" He scolded and grabbed me by my collar and pushed me into the room. The room was dark,so I couldn't make sense of where I was.I rolled over the floor and laid flat,my legs spread apart,same with my hands extending into nothing and my head facing the ceiling. I laid there for a minute, making a snow angle mentally. My ripped shirt still covered in
Calla's POV I haven't heard from James in days. It has been quiet--too quiet,it's almost like he had gone ghost. I had called about a hundred times but he's not picking up,I've left countless messages but still I'm left with no reply. I'm so mad that I can tear him to pieces.My half packed suitcase laid open on my bed as I stacked and unstack clothes in it. I was trying to hard to bury the raging feelings building up in my chest as I threw clothes out of my wardrobe onto my bed,the floor and literally anywhere in my bedroom,as they compile together like a thrift shop safe heaven. Finally,I had decided on clothes to take. 'Why will he do that!' my inner thought eludes out loud as I soliloquize. I stared at the mirror half way through my rant. 'woah,I look crazy.' I said,again. I wanna fight and I wanna scream at him for making feel this wayPathetic Calla. Poor desperate Calanthe. What was I thinking...I went downstairs to get a quick snack,I walked passed mum's bedroom door which
James' POV"There's a great chance I am traumatized from seeing dad's legs without his trousers on." I said. Vinora and I were catching up over the phone. I told her about everything, because she was my best friend. Her laughter burst through the phone as I told her about catching dad during one of his cheating escapades."What?!" a loud laughter came from the end of the phone. "Vino,in the US they call them pants not trousers" My sister, Vioner said."I haven't seen him since then,and the meeting's tomorrow." I said devastated. "I wonder why Mum puts up with him.""Probably Stockholm Syndrome... I'm so over them." She said."So what about the fashion girl? Are you guys together now?" "Yeah,but it's complicated.""What's complicated about it. It's official,it's not a situationship right?""No, we're dating." I sighed despite the tickling feeling I got from admitting she was mine and I was her's out loud. Yet,it felt like a crash waiting to happen. "It's just... there's so much going on
Calla's POVThe ruckus from work was beginning to get through to me. The fashion show was in just five days time and I knew how perilous it would be for Hault Fashion if we weren't properly ready. I had gone over the list of items we had to ship to France before the day and my hyper fixation on making everything perfect was becoming a little edgy."What!" I screamed as my eyes twitch maniacally."I wanted to know if you wanted anything. We're about to order lunch." The new intern whose head was poking through the half opened glass door of my office,asked. His lips pout forward as he stares at me and I just know he was judging so bad."No sorry, I don't need anything." My voice lowering as I realized I had shouted at him.He walks away and the door shut behind him.The weight of my body fell on my knees as I knelt down on the floor of my scattered office going over everything tiny detail like my life depended on it. Soon after, Julie came busting through the door and I cured to seat on
James' POVI stared at the blue letters on the desk as the mystery of who sent the three of them races through my mind. It's past midnight and it's been hours since I drove Calla back home yet I still can't fathom the lore connecting the blue letters with me.The recent letter had my name written in red ink just like the last two and a paper in it. It read:Tu ne sais rienWhich translates to "You know nothing." I whispered in the dark as my fingers ran through my hair. One of the best days of my life has suddenly been replaced with crippling anxiety from a someone whose name I didn't know and whose face I've probably never seen.The vague message consumed my mind as I lurk for hidden messages in the prints. I brought the lights closer to paper hoping there was more writing in invisible ink. Alas, nothing.Tu ne sies rien,was a common phrase in France. Grandma use to say it to remind us of how vast life is and how we should be humble because we can never know everything about everythin
Calla's POVIt's Sunday morning but the sun was hidden in dark clouds. The rain had been falling for the past two hours. I stood by the kitchen counter as I heated up some coffee for myself. I could hear Aunty Kathy and mum chatting in her room. The walls of the room were padded so sounds were nearly impossible to hear but the mumbling noise was hard to ignore.I opened the jar for sugar in the cupboard and added it to my coffee,as well as some creamer. I tugged on my robe and headed back upstairs. It was almost past 11am and I had slept over in mum's room with her last night. This week was the final week to get everything on track before we flew to Paris and it sure as hell was going to be a busy one. So I had just today as my last free day before the rustling week ahead and I was ready to sleep in all day.I pulled out my laptop and began to scroll through my I* feed when I got a call from James."Hi" I said into the phone,my heart flushing like a teenager."Baby..." His calm voice I
James' POV"Hello ladies" I greeted as they walked towards my car. Calla rolled her mum's oxygen tank beside her as she assisted her mother's slow steps up to the house."Hi" Calla said as they walked by me,she gave me a quick kiss on the cheek before continuing to pull the oxygen tank behind her. Her mum,who walked beside her looked at me and immediately lower her gaze."Hello James" she said. Not a hint from her tone could give away the intense curiosity between us based on our conversation from nights ago. She looked weaker than the last time I had seen her. Her arms were lanky and she wore a yellow beanie on her head. Her brows were scanty and she seemed exhausted.I followed behind them, taking the tote bag Calla hung on her shoulders and carrying the oxygen tank through the stires in the front pouch leading to the house. An art work poked out of the bag and it was like a canvas of some sort.The smell of condiments filled the house immediately we walked in."Hiiii" aunty Kathy a
Calla's POV "Hey Calla,I need you help on this" Julie announces as she walks into my office. She had a measuring tape around her neck and she was barefoot. She hands me a vouge magazine that was turned to page 47. There is a picture of Zendaya and the other cast of euphoria with glittery eye makeup and a review of it as a retrospective fashion comeback."Ermmm..." I stood confused as my eyes couldn't help but stare at her feet--- she was barefooted. A little sigh of frustration left her mouth and she walked closer to me."Ohh ,don't ask. I ordered a new shoe and it's a size smaller and there's no return policy but it matches my dress and it's A LIMITED ZARA EDITION!" Her voice going from low frequency to a force of busting enthusiasm.Typical Julie,I chuckled at her randomness. She was more of a friendly colleague than a boss. It was just her being the nerodivergent ray of sunshine she is. "Sure,what do you need help with?" I asked ."We already contacted models to walk the show for