chapter 8

The grand opening of the restaurant was a huge success……. I guess. I am always happy with myself anytime I do something to help others and improve people's lives

I literally take joy in little things

“Ollie?” a quiet,mellow voice called out to me

I froze. I couldn't think, couldn't move, I couldn't…… Oh God!!

“Oliver, I know it's you please turn around, please look at me”

Wil.. Wilson…My Wilson

All the thoughts running through my head halted at that moment.

I dare say all my sadness and anger also vanished

Everywhere blurred, everyone vanished but I could distinctively hear the singing crew sing ‘Young and beautiful’

‘Dear Lord when I get to heaven,

would you let me bring my man? When he comes tell him that you'll let him in……father tell me if you can…..’

That also faded into the background as I panicked turned to look at Wilson

His eyes were red, puffy, sad, elated, hopeful….His eyes were a lot of things

He'd lost weight too but he nevertheless was still beautiful 

“Ollie” a sob wrecked out of his mouth as he called my name in a choking manner everything came rushing back like a loose train

“Wilson? Hi…. What are you doing here?”

I asked hastily and awkwardly I smiled at him even though it didn't reach my eyes. My Wilson…. He was here

“Um… how are you doing Ollie?

You left and I tried hard to get your number and I called and your father picked up”

“Oh? Right! I used my father's line to book the reservation so…… He didn't tell me you called! My father… he didn't say anything”

“Oh? Ok I call every week …. After a while he didn't pick up again”

“Ok… Look Wilson it is nice talking to and seeing you but….I have to go”

I really needed to escape this conversation filled of tension and sadness

As I said that Wilson's eyes sank in sadness. God knew I hated the fact that I put the sadness, the hurt there

He jerked his head and with a quiet“ see you later” he walked away.

‘Would you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful? Would you still love me when I've got nothing but my aching soul?

…… I know you will, I know you will, I know…..that you will’

This song continued in the background and Wilson walked away

I was a fool a coward…..a….God! I am so sure Wilson didn't know the reason for the abrupt change that happened that night between Russell and I

He didn't know Russell looked at me like that… and he sure as hell didn't know I at some point had fallen for the both of them

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Wilson

What went wrong? How did my life build up to become successful and crumble at the same time.

I was a coward for not talking it out with Oliver. I think…. I think I couldn't risk or accept the fact that he might reject me and may not want to hear what I had to say.

Since he left has he doing well?  Has he eating well? Has he got someone else? Those thoughts plagued me the first month after he left 

But 6 months later when I was invited to attend the opening of a new restaurant, I didn't anticipate it. I didn't think he was the owner yes I knew he had lots of businesses but…..

My thought ran amok as I kept walking away

Everything and everyone was weird. Russell has not been the same since  Oliver went. I want on the verge of being abandoned.

Evertime he looked at me? I could feel the words he wanted to say ‘lets break up’ Wil

What happened that night? What changed? What did I do? 

I felt as if I spoilt the only good things in my life with my hands. I had been the one to convince Russell to let Oliver join us for a threesome. I was the one that seduced him.

Could they have been angry? Was Russell disgusted by me? But he showed no sign until that night or could it have been because Oliver said the L word when we fucked that night?

Wait Oliver said he loved…….. Jesus Christ! I think I understood what was happening right now

Turning I ran back towards the spot I left Ollie standing at. Gracious God he was still there's thinking and pondering looking sexily confused 

I spoke before he could look up

“I love you. I know I love Russell but I love you too”

“you might think love between three people isn't possible but I love you both so much” 

“Since you left nothing has been the same, we've been out of sorts and heck we hadn't fucked since you left”

“I don't know what happened that night….. Oliver I sincerely don't know”

“But if you are angry at the fact that you told us you loved us I want you to know I do love you. And I am sorry that I left with Russell that night without clearing with you”