ログインI stared at Wilson as if the world had suddenly tilted.The noise of the restaurant faded again, the chatter of guests and clinking of glasses dissolving into the background once again.The whole world stood at a stand still just for us. The only thing I could hear was Wilson’s breathing… it was uneven, desperate, begging “I love you.”The words hung between us My throat tightened.For months I had tried to bury everything connected to Vegas.Russell.Wilson.Them……The nights we spent tangled together in peace, the quiet mornings where none of us wanted to be the first to leave the bed.I had convinced myself that it was nothing more than a beautiful illusion…..A beautiful dreamA dream that had ended the moment I stepped out of the hotel and on the plane back to Alabama.And yet here Wilson was.Standing in front of meLooking at me the same way he had looked at me the first night we met. He looked at me like I was the brightest thing in the room.“You… what?” I asked my vo
The grand opening of the restaurant was a huge success……. I guess. I am always happy with myself anytime I do something to help others and improve people's livesI literally take joy in little things“Ollie?” a quiet,mellow voice called out to meI froze. I couldn't think, couldn't move, I couldn't…… Oh God!!“Oliver, I know it's you please turn around, please look at me”Wil.. Wilson…My WilsonAll the thoughts running through my head halted at that moment.I dare say all my sadness and anger also vanishedEverywhere blurred, everyone vanished but I could distinctively hear the singing crew sing ‘Young and beautiful’‘Dear Lord when I get to heaven,would you let me bring my man? When he comes tell him that you'll let him in……father tell me if you can…..’That also faded into the background as I panicked turned to look at WilsonHis eyes were red, puffy, sad, elated, hopeful….His eyes were a lot of thingsHe'd lost weight too but he nevertheless was still beautiful “Ollie” a sob wrec
I lay there alone in a bed that was far too big and lonely. I was already used to having bodies, touching hands, arms wrapped around me, and the sound of breathing. Now there was silence. And a dull ache in my chest.They made me and broke me just as Simon had done. At this point I knew I was only the one week fling but God it hurtBefore dawn and before either of them could start their shifts, I packed my shit and checked out of the hotel.Hell I knew it was a cowardly move but I didn't want to be the reason they fought or were estranged from each other, I stopped a cab going straight to the airport ……………………Two stops later I was finally in Alabama. Standing in front of the airport I realized, with all my wealth….. I was lonely I hailed a taxi home and rang the door bell.“Father” I broke down in tears as he opened the door. He held me and soothed me as I leaned heavily on him“its fine Oliver it'll be fine”My father didn't ask any questions, hours turned to days, days turned to
‘Why do you think I don't want this?’ I repeated what he said to myself…..I was stunned speechless I didn't answer. I couldn't. I didn’t even know what to say.I didn't want him to admit to my face that he was only putting up with me for the sake of his boyfriend.He cooked his head sideways anticipating an answer, upon seeing me quiet he continued “Oliver never ever put yourself down,you are worth a lot and more. Don't think you aren't worthy of someone, people don't define you and you are a work of art on your own”I looked at him in shock, this was the first time someone spoke to me like that.He looked back at me and nodded “thank you” I whispered knowing he had to get back to his duties, I nodded backA few hours later as I lay on my bed thinking about all Russell said earlier on, I decided to call my dad“Oliver? Whatsup champ” dad asked cheerfully. I thought about it a second more before coming out openly“Dad, I don't want to come back to Alabama. I have thought of it, i
I did some sightseeing here and there, left the hotel, though I was a little bit distracted. The hotel combined with the scenery was picture perfect: silver clouds, blue skies, even bluer water, and golden sand. It was picturesque. It couldn't have been any prettier. But my mind kept going back to Wilson and Russell,I liked them. I liked being with them. I liked their energy, their vibe, I liked the way they included me in their every gesture and conversation.It almost felt like I have known them since……forever It was not as though I liked one over the other, because I liked them together. I liked seeing the two of them together. I couldn't see myself being with Wilson without Russell, we felt knitted together.My thought drifted to my businesses and I honestly felt down, shaking myself off the depressing thoughts, I went back into the hotel “oppphhhmmm oh shit sorry” Wilson's voice came out muffled.I couldn't help but smile at him and at his cuteness. I held his hands a
“Sorry, I've got lots of things in my head” I replied looking up at him“oh? Things like what?” “honestly? I am planning not to return home, and… I dont know I am not sure anymore” I replied as my phone began to ring“sorry one second” I told Wilson as I picked“...Hello? Hello Oliver? Son?”“Father”"My son! Oh God! How are you doing " he asked. It was real good and encouraging to hear his voice, even if it's been only a few days“How is Vegas?” "It's um… it's great," I answered, still grinning. "How's the resort and everything father?”"It's fine everything is fine” he said dismissively.“Oh?” I knew my father didn't want me to worry at all so I put it aside “How has been your vacation?” he asked cheerfully "It's been wonderful," I told him, not really sure just how much I should divulge. Dad had always known I was gay, and that Simon and I were secretly seeing each other, but I'd never discussed details, not about what we did anyway. "You're not down there all by your sorry a







