MasukNOLAN POV
Holy hell. It couldn't be true that I was seeing her right? I felt totally messed up seeing Gwen by the side of the road here in the woods. I was two hours away from the city, right near my cabin. Part of me was also kind of excited. Okay, that excited part was mostly down there. But mostly, I felt really worried. I'm good at judging people, and Gwen hadn't seemed like a crazy stalker. But here she was. I thought she had realized who I was, but as I walked closer to her, she quickly stepped back, like she was afraid of me. After the night we spent together, I thought she would be happy that I was the one stopping to help her. This area is usually safe, but bad things can happen anywhere. Gwen was an easy target out here. I was about to speak when suddenly, she lost her balance and fell back into the deep ditch. I moved fast, being careful of the icy, slick edge of the road. It would be terrible if I slipped and landed on top of her. That would be very bad. I slowly made my way down into the ditch. I held out my hand to help her up. "Are you alright? Did you hurt yourself when you fell?" Just like last night, she hit my hand away. Her eyes were wide and angry. "Are you seriously following me?" Did she just ask if I was following her? What the heck? "I live out here," I said, my voice getting louder because I was annoyed. "I've owned this house for more than twenty years, and I have never once seen you here. So, let me ask you—are you following me?" I had thought she wasn't a stalker before, but maybe she figured out who I was—or at least that I had money—and decided to try and get something from me. If I wasn't worried that she would either freeze to death or be found by some dangerous weirdo, I would leave her right in the ditch and go home. She finally got herself standing up and looked at me with the same mad stare she had given me at the supply store the night before. I felt insulted and grumpy. "Well? Tell me. Are you stalking me?" "Why would I ever do that?" she snapped, quickly brushing snow and dirt off her pants and coat. "A woman doesn't make the sounds you made at the hotel, or get off as hard as you did, and not want to do it again." She stared at me with her mouth open in total shock. I had to admit, my own words surprised even me. I sounded like a complete jerk. Finally, she lifted her chin, trying to look strong. "I regret last night completely. Every single part of it. If I could erase that memory from my brain, I would do it right now." I took a step closer to her, noticing how her eyes flashed with heat and her chest rose and fell faster when I moved near her. "Liar." She looked up at me. I could see her trying to hold back, but her lips were shaking just a little bit. It made me feel like the biggest idiot in the whole world. I stepped back to give her space. "Okay. Why are you out here by the side of the road, anyway?" She started to climb up the snowy bank toward the road. "None of your business! Just leave me alone, please!" I followed her up to the road. "Fine, whatever. I'm just going home, then." I started walking toward my car. It was freezing cold, and I planned to wait in my car just to make sure she got into her own car and drove away safely. I might be an annoying jerk, but I wouldn't leave a woman alone and stranded on the side of the road, no matter how much she made me angry. I had walked about halfway across the street when she called out, "Wait! Wait a minute! I'm stuck. I hit some black ice and slid off the road into the ditch. I can't get my car out. Maybe when you get home, you could call a tow truck for me?" I stopped and turned around, putting my hands on my hips, looking her over. "How about I give you a ride to my place, and you can call a tow truck from there? It'll be faster." She moved her feet, looking down at the frozen ground. Was she nervous about being alone with me again? Or maybe she just hated needing help. Twice already, she had refused my help when she fell. She spoke quietly. "I'm supposed to be out here visiting a friend of mine. Maybe you could take me to their house instead?" That sounded even better to me. The last thing I needed was the woman I had just slept with and was still thinking about sleeping with again—inside my house. "All right. I can do that. Where does your friend live?" She took out her phone and quickly read off the address. My stomach suddenly twisted. My heart started to beat hard. I recognized the address. And with that, a horrible new thought slammed into me. This couldn't be the young woman my daughter, April, had planned to bring to stay with us for the holidays. April's friend was named Gweneth. Fucking hell. Is 'Gwen' a nickname for 'Gweneth'? I had received a text message a few hours ago from April saying that they would travel to the cabin separately. But no. This woman couldn't possibly be my daughter's college roommate. Could she? All at once, I couldn't breathe. Two terrible truths hit me at the exact same moment. I had slept with my daughter's friend, which made me feel like a horrible pervert. Because she was my daughter's friend, I was even more responsible for helping her right now. "Yes, I can take you there," I said, trying to sound normal. "Do you have a bag or anything?" She walked to the driver's side of her car and opened the back door. It was hard because the car was leaning to one side. I rushed over to help her, holding the door open and taking a small bag from the back seat. I carried it over to my car and put it inside. The whole time, my mind was racing, trying to find a way out of this mess. There was no way I could take her to my house and stop her from learning who I was, was there? I could just leave her at the empty house, but that would be rude. Also, I had locked the door, so I'd have to unlock it, which would show her that it was my place. My irritation grew. Why the heck was she out here all by herself? Where was April? I had expected my daughter to be here by now, but I hadn't worried because she is always running late. And why didn't they travel together as they had planned? Not that having Gwen walk into my house with April wouldn't still be a huge shock. But never, not even in my worst nightmare, did I think things would become this complicated.MOONA POVI don’t know how long they will hold me there, but I never want to move.I’m scared I’ll fall apart without their arms around me. I’m scared I’ll shatter into pieces and never pick them all up again.I remember all the times the guy who called himself Peter touched me. I remember all the times he told me that that was what love felt like.But love feels nothing like that, and I know it now.I want to forget every second I ever spent with him. I want to feel how much I’m loved for real this time.I want to feel kind hands on my body. I want to feel kisses that give, not kisses that take.I want them. The only two men who’ve ever counted.I need to know I’m still theirs and they’re mine, and words aren’t enough.Words will never be enough now I know how easily a random guy like Mathew Connor could speak whatever he wanted in my ear.I’m still in their arms as I press my lips to Cain’s neck. Brian is still pressed to my back as I reach for him.Cain doesn’t respond at first as
BRIAN POVAnd suddenly all the pieces fit into place. She’s in a daze as she heads through to the living room and sits herself down on the slashed sofa. She pulls her knees up to her chest and hugs them tight as Cain sits alongside her and I drop to my knees on the floor. “It’s alright, Moona,” I say, “you can tell us.” And she does. She tells us everything. She tells us how happy she was to find her brother. She tells us the story of what happened all those years ago in Peter’s family home. She tells us how they thought it was her assaulting their younger daughter and leaving bruises on her arms, but it wasn’t. It was Peter, and that makes sense too. The kid was troubled when I met him, narcissistic tothe point it gave me shivers. Thoroughly dissociated from those around him. And now he’s studying law, blending into the student populous no doubt oblivious to the pain he caused the broken girl sitting before me. He didn’t mention Moona once in all our s
MOONA POVI want to tell him but I can’t. Even now I can’t let them throw Peter in prison. He’s my brother. He was there for me when no one else was. My heart is breaking worse than Cain’s, even though I can’t show him. My heart is breaking because I know I can’t come back from this, because no matter how much Cain’s eyes say he wants to forgive me, I know he won’t. I know he can’t. I know he’ll never trust me again. I wish I could say I’m sorry, but I can’t. Even though I can’t bring myself to land my brother in the shit, I can’t bring myself to confess all this either. Cain’s glaring right at me as I hear Brian’s car pull onto the drive. I want the ground to swallow me up and never spit me out again, but I’m standing right here with nowhere to run and no one to turn to.Brian doesn’t even notice the destruction as he steps through the door. He sees me before Cain but he’s already got questions of his own. “Mathew Connor was asking directions to your house in town ea
CAIN POVMy crazy idea for Brian’s career wouldn’t let go once it started. That’s why I called the bank today and set up an appointment. That’s why I marched in there with a hastily drawn up plan and opened a new account all ready to start. It’s crazy but perfect. Perfect for both of them. I can’t fucking wait to fill them in on the news.I’ve got more money than I’ve ever known what to do with, and more than enough time around work to help with the practicalities of setting up something like this. I make sure I’ve got my folder of ideas on the passenger seat as I buckle up and head for home. I know I’ll be earlier than Brian, I’ll just have to keep my mouth shut until he gets there. There’s a crunch of glass under my foot as I step inside. My brow creases as I stare down at it, and it takes me a second to realise it’s the mirror from the wall, smashed to pieces. What the fuck? Memories of walking in on Moona for the very first time come flooding back to me,
MOONA POVThe attached photo makes my heart race. A picture of the centre of Lydney. He’s here. Oh my God, he’s really here. But he doesn’t know Cain. He doesn’t know where I live now. I try to force the nerves away but they won’t budge an inch. All the filthy things I did for him come back to the pool in my belly. They make me feel sick. I used to think it was okay before I knew what real love felt like, but now I know it isn’t. It never was. What he did to me was cruel and disgusting. The way he made me use my body for him was a world away from how Cain and Brian make me feel. I don’t care that he’s my brother anymore, or that he’s holding family news over my head. I don’t care that I may never get to see them again if I don’t do what he wants. If they wanted me, they’d have found me long ago. If they still believe his lies after all these years then I’m better off without them. All the years of making excuses for him in the name of lo
I can’t believe I’m doing this, I can’t believe my dick is still hard, but it is. It’s only when I hear Cain grunt that I realise he’s not nearly so hesitant as I am. But Cain never is. Cain doesn’t have limits like I have. Cain goes all in for the pursuit of pleasure, and right now his pleasure is in Moona’s hand as she rubs his dick against mine. “Fuck,” he says. “Peen on fucking peen. This has never been on my fucking agenda.” But he doesn’t stop and neither do I. And it occurs to me, right at the back of my mind, that maybe he wants this. Maybe he’s not nearly so hung up on what all this means as I am. The thought that he might even enjoy these blurry boundaries takes me aback, but makes my dick throb. It makes me shunt closer, giving Moona all the leeway she needs to press us length to length and move us as one. Oh fuck, it feels good. It feels so filthily good. “You like it,” she whispers, “I can feel it.” I don’t argue and neit







