11pm after drinking too much, I feel dizzy. I haven't drank this much in ages, I can't really remember taking alcohol since sixth grade, or seventh grade, I feel nauseous, I might throw up, no, no you can do this, embarrassing myself in public wont make my look mature, it will only scream
'a newbie in the house!'
Everyone will instantly know I am a newbie and I can't afford to bear such name in an environment like this, damn it, my chest burns, i bet thats the sensation, everyone is looking forward to.
I should drink some more, this is the best night ever, topped up by the fact that Kate was my plus one, best hype women, waist wigglier, bottom rocker, and best friend, hyping me from behind.
"you can do it bitch!"
her indifferent life style, made everthing about her, so charming, and unpredctable, to top it up with the look runaway model with a bad bitch vibe, always on cut out wears, spikey martin boots, and a bubble gum
making me remember how i all happened back in junior high, bullies were taunting me and I couldn't do anything about it. I didn't have the courage to do so anyway, being all shy and shit but all the same, it was worth having the experience
And on that lucky day Kate came to my rescue. She kicked the bully so hard on his knee and he sustain a fracture she was like a character in a scary story, told in highschool, hastag, 'stay away from the spiky boot, and dark hair girl' with a quote 'she migh hunt you in your dreams'
She was a one girl squad, and after that day I became a plus one, looking at her dancing to the disc joker, like she won something I was the one who got the scholarship and she was the one celebrating...classic Kate.
always on the high spirit, no time to be dull
It was my first time going to a club, the music isn't all bad, but not my genre, and I felt guilty lying to my parents, for the first time, It was supposed to be a sleep over at Kate's , and here I am getting drunk in a club, filled with different jolly people, dancing there sorrows away.
"Lily!!!!Come over here", she yelled at the top of her voice, she really enjoys shouting. I could hear her yelling my name to come over amid the crowd
she looked drunk, and I don't need more alcohol, or maybe I do. I should just go check out why she's calling me.
I could see her chatting with two handsome men, she always has a way with men, they are really handsome looking like madingo
One had short dark wavy hair, he looked like a fiecer verson of jason momoa, while the other has a shoulder length hair, they look eatable, but the latter is preferable, if it were the era of cave men ,i think i just came in contact with demi-gods with broad shoulders.
maui!!
Kate really attracts sexy men, unlike Lily the plain Jane, who never wears makeup or heels, and never had a boyfriend, or a mysterious crush, shit I hate myself for being so shallow
I felt embarrassed to approach her with my outfit, the attention magne i had surprisingly chosen Everyone had a rather exposing outfit and I wore a bland petite pants with loose long sleeve now I regret not listening to Kate, she had tried so hard, but being a hard nut I had to go with being plain
i found myself moving further I guess the alcohol made me courageous, I should hasten up before I lose my newly found courage. Everyone was dancing to the music and it made it difficult to soar through the crowds, but I finally approached them.
And boom! my courage crawled under the table " lily meet our compa's for the night only, don't worry about the payment" she winked, my belly knotted, nt only have i lost my courage, my sense of reasoning as well
"compas?"
what is the payment__?
" they look man Enough what do you think?",she said as she ran her eyes through their body, " damn !"
jason momoa twin had his eyes glued on my body, i could have broken this glass, if it wasn't this strong, my feet were rooted to the marble floor already, i just want this leave , i could feel a mental diarrhoea coming up.
" Lily!!!, she taunted even further.
"Loosen up, you are done with highschool, you are no longer a little girl,you are young, beautiful..."
" these men would pleasure us for the night, and I bet it would be intense…. Jeez I have waited for So long!!!" She yelled at the top of her voice
wow, I felt a rush of blood through my veins and, how can she think of such a thing? Would have expected that anyway... Sigh
I gulped down two shots of tequila, i found on the counter, tongue tied,really nervous should I do this?, no lily, philips isnt here, i wanted first love, first kiss, first husband,and I won't want to loose my V card to this mouth watering men, even when i was dying to just be swayed.
Kate gave that hurry up look, as she waited for my reply, .
you could like it you know?, he he looks eatable lily, his eyes, can sway you, if i could shut the voices in my head, i wuld, i bet they are high as well
" take this , lily, you will love this trust me" i rolled my eyes, she knew i wouldn't budge anytime soon, " lets go papi" she pull the other madingo by the arm like a possesive mother as they made their way out of the club leaving me with the hot guy with long blonde hair
Shit it had to be him, why? My inner Godeses cried, as she paced around in her dark room
" More shots please!!!", I pretended like I didn't notice anyone beside me, as a stream of perspiration found their way down my face, as I yelled at the bartender, even with the alcohol I still felt nervous,
I hate it that he could sense my ausement, and still lagh about it, if i could, i would shv him down the bar stool, i could do then mentally anyways, but why would hekeep starin without saying anything, hes supposed to mae he first move
damn him
I gulped down two more shots of tequila, and could feel myself getting high. I gulped down two more glasses, as everything became blurry, " More!!" I yelled at the rather strange man, who was supposed to pleasure me for the night but didn't make an attempt to touch or speak to me, am I that awful looking.
I should be happy, not sad, " do you want to drink yourself to death ?" startled by his seductive manly voice. I choked on my drink,wow thats real bass.
damn lily, you got yourself a fucking pop smoke
well thats a man in so many shades of sexy, his eyes were like a mixture of gold and black, r maybe the disco light added more effect, what ever i was,i was drawn already, drawn to the danger that were obviousy emmiting his dark eye
now he had his eyes pinned on my, it feels like my lungs constricted or maybe they did, because i had forgotten how to breath, where are you kate!
"I..I ..I", his sly smirk, was all my bain needed to shut down
I couldn't pinpoint anything right now, and before I could think of anything, I threw up on my cloths and part of his, " sorry" this is so embarrassing, I tried taking an handkerchief from my back pocket to clean his already stained jean. the chair before me looklik it splitted inot three, or maybe four, why is it like that?, i think my legs just lose ther will to stand, someone catch me Agh!, is my brain making an escape plan?, it felt like one of those headache from hell,i need to stop it, before i am taken to the neurologist, for a new brain, or maybe taken to the asylum, to get my head stright, the sweet smell of floral perfumes filled the air, where am i? looking at the surroundings, I am in a luxurious bed that should be meant for five people to sleep. This isn't Kate's house, the interior decorations are so expensive I could tell by looking at them. I Could see a lion statue beside the bed, am i in a cave? ,where am I?, " Little lamb, thank goodness
Slamming the door real hard I let myself fall freely on the ground, Am I crossing my boundaries?, I don't know who that man is and I kept acting like a tyrant with him, what if I get on his nerves and he kills me. Nah, that can't happen, I love my Newly found courage, looking at the clothes it looks expensive, and smelt really nice, I could get used to this He is kinda nice though but must he get me underwear?, and my favorite type, pure cotton. How does he know that? I hurriedly put on my clothes, it fit perfectly, it was a plain royal blue high waist jean and a cream color crop top, it's just perfect, he knows my size. " Aren't you done, little lamb" I heard the grumpy man say, why can't he leave me alone, I can't dress in peace, I ignored him, and continued dressing up, my hair is a mess. Where do I get a hair brush? Ahh there it is, a perfect hair brush ,just like the one I had at home, but this one looks more sophisticated, than the one I have, 'you
" Hey lamb, where do you think you are going , there's no way out", he said, sigh, I will get back at Kate for this mess,what does he mean, if I am inside this building that means there's a way out, I just need to find a way out, what has Kate gotten me into. Maybe I just need to use his game against him, I would pretend to enjoy his silly jokes, maybe he would think I'm finally vulnerable to his sly games, I grinned stupidly before turning to face him Edit " Sir, please where am I?" I said, with my fingers crossed tightly behind me, while pouting with my puppy dog eyes,it always worked " You are in my building, and you are standing in a room filled with my mafioso's", he said with a poker face, what does he mean by mafioso's, jeez I am staring at a mafia lord, whoa, what have I gotten myself into,what has Kate gotten us into, I hope she is ok, she didn't see this coming. My head completely went blank, I couldn't process any word, my legs were gettin
Why does he have to end it now?, He left me at a vulnerable state, "time to go* he whispered in my hears before standing, It seemed like ages but i finally responded, and in no time I found myself at the entrance of my house, my joy knew no bounds, I never knew I would be this happy coming back home. But I still feel queasy about Kate's sudden disappearance, Mr grumpy over here wouldn't give me an answer to her whereabout, ever since we left the enormous building he hasn't uttered a word. I knew he wanted to get rid of me, and it's a miracle that I am still alive and well, to be with a mafia for hours without being killed, and I was at my worst, I guess I should thank him for that. "Thanks, for letting me live, I knew I have troubled you quite alot….. these past few hours with you has been…. both horrible and entriging, I never knew ...my first kiss and ….attempt sex would be with …. Ehmm a mafia boss, never in my widest dream". Why did I say that, jeez
I woke up to a ton of messages and calls from Kate, how did I sleep all theough,? Luckily, she's ok. She lost her phone last night in the club, hmm careless as ever, well that's not my problem anymore, thank goodness she is ok, I had imagined the worst with time . But I need to return her call, to ask how her night went, then find out Mr grumpy's location, she must know his whereabouts, if there's on thing I know Kate for, it's her questioning spirit. my heart is really aching, it's weird to crave danger , I just need to look at him one last time, even if it's the last, I hope it's not, all I could see was his perfect body in my dreams, and the time we spent together, " baby girl be running crazy for" my inner girl danced while snapping her finger.. damn she's on fire today. But I guess it's my fate, I would be admitted into the university this year, and I guess meeting Mr grumpy would be fatal, the devil doesn't bargain anyway, it's a losing game, after all, a
I have two months, to search for Mr grumpy, before I go to the university, and I want to make this happen, I walked outside my room in search of food, , my dream sex drained me. Had I not woken up in my room, it would be hard to believe I didn't have sex, I woke up feeling different, my lips were a little bit swollen like I kissed him for real,or maybe this is as a result of imagining to hard I grabbed an apple from the dinning table, mom never misses it from the grocery list, she always say this with her fingers on the air, " an apple a day keeps the doctor away". Accompanied by my favorite bland fruit I headed out of the kitchen strawberries has this Bland taste I really admire,not to sweet neither bitter . I don't want to get all fat from excess food, I just wish I could eat everything I crave for at any time not minding if it's 11pm in the night or minutes past 6. if wishes were horses, sigh, I would accomplish alot, so back on Mr grumpy, what can
I hurried down the stairs, and out of the house, I have never been this anxious about anything, neither have I been this stupid, going out with a mafia on the second day of meeting him, I stoped at the front door Finally catching my breath. It would be weird meeting him while panting like I just ran away from a lion chade, " you can do this" I walked out the door , just to be escorted by a man, with a tattooed neck, in suits. He looks handsome, with his dirty blonde hair, the wrinkles on his face showed he hasn't smiled In a while. He held my hands,in his manly palm, as he led me to the black oddly shiny car, just down the stairs. I was so nervous, and surprised Mr grumpy actually invited me to a ball, and he bought me clothes, do I need to pay for that as well I got to the car, and the gentleman beside me opened the door for me as I climbed into the car. The way he bowed sent chills down my spine. He is probably older than me, so why is he bowing? Weird I entered the car, hoping
" Pervert", I said as I giggled slightly, I could see Bridges forming on his head he withdrawed his hands immediately, then walked back to his seat, like nothing happened, what have I done this time? Lily keep your mouth shut, for ones, I sat on the seat provided for me opposite him, say something grumpy just anything will do, I cleared my throat, maybe i would distract or provoke him. But he still maintained a poker face, he wasn't affected at all. What do I do now, I can't tolerate the silence anymore, and it seems we are too early, the auction won't start now. I stood up from my seat. To explore the artworks around, though I knew I won't be able to afford any of them anyway, I ran my hands through some art work. It would be nice to have one of these in my room. " Hey, pretty" strong hands pulled me from behind, I turned to meet a bearded man with messy hair. He looked weird and he reeked of alcohol and cigarettes. He held my face with his right hand. As he drew me closer by my