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The text from Derek messed me up. I tried to forget it, but I couldn’t. It was like a song you hate that gets stuck in your head. *He talked about you a lot. More than you know.* Why would he say that? We paid him to lie. Was he lying about the lying? My brain hurt. Louis made some calls. He told Irina to “handle” Derek. I don’t know what that means, and I didn’t ask. Sometimes now, I don’t want to know. Everything else looked normal. Katie was fine. She had a playdate with a girl from school. The girl’s mom was nice. She didn’t ask about the kidnapping. She just talked about how good Katie was at sharing. Louis worked a lot. I started planning a new thing for the foundation—giving money to schools for art stuff. It kept me busy. But at night, when the house was quiet, I’d think about the text. I’d look at Louis sleeping next to me. He looked calmer now. But I wasn’t calm. One night, I had a bad dream. I was in the grocery store, but all the boxes had my picture on them. And Victor was the cashier. He was scanning apples and saying, “He talked about you a lot,” over and over. I woke up sweating. Louis was awake too. He was looking at me in the dark. “Bad dream?” he asked. “Yeah.” “Want to talk about it?” “No.” He didn’t push. He just pulled me closer. I put my head on his chest. I could hear his heart. It was beating steady. It helped. The next day was Saturday. Family day. That was the new rule. No work. Just us. We took Katie to the zoo. It was crowded. Our security guys came too, but they hung back. They wore normal clothes, but they looked like security guys anyway. Too stiff. Katie wanted to see the penguins. We stood and watched them swim. They were funny and fast. Louis bought us all ice cream. Mine dripped on my shirt. Katie laughed. “Mom, you’re messy!” Louis smiled. A real one. It made him look younger. For a minute, it was perfect. Just a normal family at the zoo. No bad guys. No police. No creepy texts. Then my phone buzzed in my pocket. I ignored it. It buzzed again. And again. “You should get that,” Louis said. His smile was gone. I wiped my hands and looked. It was a news alert. Then another. The headlines made my ice cream feel heavy in my stomach. **SOURCES: KIDNAP VICTIM KATIE CROWE SEEN WITH THERAPIST** **INSIDE THE CROWES’ POST-TRAUMA RECOVERY: A CHILD’S STRUGGLE** There were pictures. Blurry, but clear enough. Pictures of Katie and me walking into the therapist’s office building last week. Pictures of her holding my hand, her head down. “No,” I whispered. I showed Louis. His face went hard like a rock. He took Katie’s hand. “Time to go, sweetie.” “But we didn’t see the monkeys!” Katie whined. “Now, Katie.” He didn’t yell, but his voice meant business. Katie knew that voice. She pouted but didn’t argue. We walked fast to the exit. The security guys closed in around us. People were staring. Did they recognize us? Did they just read the news on their own phones? The car ride home was silent. Katie fell asleep. I stared out the window. “How?” I asked Louis. My voice sounded small. “The therapist’s office is private. They promised.” “Someone sold the pictures,” Louis said. He was typing fast on his phone. “The nanny? The driver? The therapist’s secretary? Someone got paid.” “This is about Katie,” I said, feeling sick. “They’re using her. Again.” “It’s about us,” he corrected, but he put his hand over mine. “They’re trying to shake us. To see if we break.” When we got home, Louis went straight to his office to make calls. I put Katie to bed for a nap. She was tired from the zoo. I went to the kitchen. I wasn’t hungry. I was just mad. Louis came in later. He looked tired. “The story is planted in two gossip sites,” he said. “My team is pushing back. Threatening lawsuits. But the pictures are out there.” “Who did it?” I asked. “We’re tracing the money. It’ll take time.” He sighed. “Sierra… the text from Derek. And now this. It feels like a one-two punch.” He was right. First the text to scare me personally. Now this, to hurt us through Katie. It was an attack. “What do we do?” I asked. I felt like a little kid asking for the answer. “We do what we said,” he said. He came and stood in front of me. “We don’t break. We act normal. We show them it didn’t work.” “How?” “We go out tonight.” “What?” “The hospital fundraiser dinner. It’s tonight. We RSVP’d weeks ago. We go. We smile. We act like a happy family that doesn’t care about stupid pictures.” It sounded crazy. And hard. But I looked at him, and I knew he was right. Hiding would look guilty. Hiding would look scared. “Okay,” I said. “We go.” So that night, we got dressed up. Katie wore a pretty blue dress. We went to the big hotel ballroom. Cameras were everywhere. I held Louis’s arm tight. Katie held my other hand. We smiled. We walked slow. People clapped for us. Some of the looks were mean. Most were just curious. A lady reporter shoved a microphone at me. “Mrs. Crowe, how is Katie handling the trauma? The pictures today seem to show a struggling little girl.” I made myself look at her. I gave her my best calm-mom smile. “Katie is a brave, happy girl who loves the zoo and penguins. She’s healing beautifully, thanks to wonderful professionals and her family’s love. We’re focused on the future.” I didn’t stop walking. We kept going inside. My heart was pounding, but my face was calm. Louis squeezed my hand. “Perfect,” he whispered. We sat through dinner. We laughed at the right times. We were a perfect picture. But inside, I was making a list. Someone took those pictures. Someone sold them. Someone wanted to hurt my kid. And partners protect each other. They protect their own. I looked at Louis across the table. He was watching me. He nodded, just a little. The message was clear. We knew. We were together. And we were going to find out who did this. The dinner was boring. The speeches were long. But I sat straight and tall. Let them take pictures now. Let them see. They thought they could scare us. They were wrong. All they did was make us mad. And when we’re mad, we’re together. And when we’re together, we’re strong. Game on.Sierra's POVThe first trimester hit me like a truck. A big, smelly, nausea-filled truck.I forgot how awful this part was. With Katie, I was young. Twenty-seven. I bounced back from everything. This time? Forty-two felt very, very old.The smell thing got worse. Coffee was enemy number one. But then it was also eggs. Then chicken cooking. Then Louis's cologne. Then the cleaning stuff the housekeeper used. Then the garbage can in the kitchen. Then flowers. Flowers!"I can't smell anything," I moaned, lying on the bathroom floor at 3 a.m. "Everything smells like everything."Louis sat beside me, looking helpless. Men always look helpless when their wives are puking. It's kind of funny, if you're not the one puking."Do you want water?" he asked."No.""Tea?""NO.""A cracker?""Louis, if you say one more word, I will divorce you."He shut up. Smart man.---The tiredness was worse than the puking.With Katie, I worked through my pregnancy. I was busy. I had energy.Now? I couldn't kee
Sierra's POVI was forty-two years old when my body decided to play the biggest joke of my life.Katie was fifteen. Fifteen! She was already talking about college and boys and how embarrassing we were. Louis and I were finally at the easy part. The "we survived parenting a teenager" part. The "we can sleep in on weekends" part.Or so I thought.It started with the smell. Coffee. I'd loved coffee my whole life. But one morning, Louis made his usual pot and the smell hit me like a wall.I ran to the bathroom. Threw up. Came back pale and shaky."You okay?" Louis asked, concerned."Fine. Just... coffee smelled weird."He looked at me funny but didn't push.The next morning, same thing. And the next. And the next."You're not fine," Louis said on day four. "I'm calling the doctor.""It's probably a virus.""For four days?""Viruses can be long."He gave me The Look. The one that said he wasn't buying it.---Dr. Patel was young and nice and very professional. She ran tests. She asked ques
Sierra's POVMeeting the Crofts was one thing. Building a relationship with them was another.After that first coffee, we didn't see them for a few weeks. Life got busy. Katie had school projects. Louis had work. I had foundation meetings. The usual chaos.But they sent cards. Little notes. Margaret had beautiful handwriting, old-fashioned and careful. Edward's was shakier, but you could tell he tried.*Dear Louis, Sierra, and Katie,**I saw the most beautiful flowers today at the garden store. Purple ones, like Katie's sweater. Made me think of her. Hope you're all well.**Love,**Grandma Margaret**P.S. Edward is learning to use email. It's not going well. Send help.*Katie loved the cards. She taped them to her wall. She started writing back, little notes in her messy kid handwriting.*Dear Grandma Margaret,**Thank you for the card. My sweater is still sparkly. Mom washed it and it didn't die. School is boring but art class is fun. I drew a horse. It looked like a dog but that's o
Sierra's POVThe months after Margaret died were strange. Not sad exactly. More like... quiet. Like a door that had opened and closed again, leaving us different on the other side.Louis read all the letters. Every single one. He took his time, like he was saving them. Some made him laugh. Some made him cry. Some he read to me at night, his voice soft in the dark.*Dear Louis,**Today I saw a little boy at the park who looked just like you. He was maybe three, with dark hair and serious eyes. He was building a sandcastle all by himself, so focused. I sat on a bench and watched him for an hour. I pretended he was you. I pretended I was just a normal mom, watching her son play. It was the best hour I've had in years.**Love always,**Mom*"She watched other kids," Louis said after reading that one. "For years. Just to feel close to me.""She loved you so much.""I know. I just wish..."He didn't finish. He didn't have to. We both wished for more time.Katie handled it better than I exp
Sierra's POVThe second photo changed everything.We couldn't just wait anymore. We had to do something. Louis spent hours on the phone with lawyers and private investigators. I spent hours staring at the photos, trying to see something we missed.The woman in the pictures. Louis's birth mother. She had my eyes. My dark hair. My smile. It was like looking at a ghost version of myself from thirty years ago."Is it weird?" I asked Louis one night. We were in bed, both too wired to sleep. "That she looks like me?"He was quiet for a minute. Then he said, "Maybe it's not weird. Maybe it's... I don't know. Fate? Something?""Do you believe in fate?""I believe in us." He turned on his side to look at me. "I believe that somehow, through all the mess, we found each other. And we stayed. That's enough for me."I wanted to believe that too. But the photos made everything feel complicated.The next morning, Louis's investigator called with news. They'd traced the postmark on both letters to a
Sierra's POVSix months after the beach house. Six months of normal, happy, boring life.I say boring like it's a bad thing. It's not. Boring is good. Boring means no ghosts. No trials. No fear. Boring means waking up and knowing the day will be full of small things. Grocery lists. School runs. Dinner with the people you love.I've learned to love boring.Katie was in eighth grade now. Almost done with middle school. She had a little group of friends who came over on weekends and ate all our snacks and giggled about boys until midnight. Louis pretended to be annoyed, but I caught him leaving extra snacks outside her door."She needs to eat," he said when I raised an eyebrow."She needs to sleep.""She can sleep when she's dead.""Louis!""Too dark?""Way too dark."He grinned and kissed my forehead. "I'll work on my dad jokes."The foundation was going well. Really well. We'd helped over two hundred kids in the last year. Kids with absent parents. Kids who needed someone to believe in







