All Chapters of Say You Won't Let Go: Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

THE worst part about losing someone is losing them when you least expect it. It's not every day you have your parents break the news to you that your best friend has committed suicide. It was one of those days where I just had that gut feeling that something was bound to go wrong–and trust me, I’ve had more than one of those days–but never in my life could I have imagined something going this wrong.                                      &

IT'S been one month and two weeks since her death, and I can feel myself drifting away more and more from reality with each passing day. I feel numb.     As if I felt so much during these past few weeks that now, I feel nothing. Some might say that I'm depressed, which by the way is the fourth stage of grieving according to the school's counselor.

I enter my therapists' office after school despite my insistence to my mother that there's no reason for me to go anymore and that sending me to these sessions are pointless and a waste of money.     "Katherine." I acknowledge the middle-aged woman as I plop down onto the love seat in the middle of the room.

SOMETIMES I wonder what it would be like to just disappear. To just vanish and leave all your worries and problems behind. I wish I could do that now. Disappear. But, I can't. It's an endless battle between me and my thoughts, and I'm losing.     "Alexa, can I talk to you for a moment?" Mr. Callaghan stops me before I can exit the classroom. It's the end of our second-

THE next day, I'm awoken by the sound of my phone dinging at what has to be about one hundred dings per second. It's Alison and Madison wanting to know what exactly happened at their party and if I'm okay. When my phone finally stops emitting that harrowing dinging sound, I close my eyes and attempt to fall asleep again.