Chapter 12Stella My heartbeat suddenly quickened. Is that me? I mean... Damn, Tristan you're literally out of your mind.  "Hey, are you fine? You look pale, don't tell me, you have your period?" I quickly turned my face into her and shook my head. Is it obvious? Are my actions too obvious?

Chapter 14Stella We control our lives but sometimes we get to the point where even though we know we are wrong, we still choose do it. There are things that no matter how many times we want to give up, we still have the desire to fight even if it is a wrong way. If only I could turn back the time, I wish I hadn't been tempted so that I will have the chance to let it go early. But what can I do? Here it is, it is already in my system. Now, even though I want to stop it, I may not be abl

Chapter 16Stella "Our plan worked out well."  That was his statement as soon as we made ourselves comfortable at the couch near the food table. I raised my right eyebrow, so? "Good for you." I commented, not minding his continous stare from me.  "That's it?" he smirked, as if it's telling me he's contented. What does he wants me to do? Plan a party for his so called success? Oh come on!  "You're becoming more and more grumpy Stella. If I have a mirror here I'll give it you so that you can literally see yourself and your face." he laughed, literally touching his stomach.  "That's what you need to say? You exc

Chapter 18StellaIt is hard on the part when even if you still want to continue, you are gradually being pushed to the highest limit of yourself. It gets to the point that even if you want to still fight the situation, it is the situation that will give up the battle you are fighting for. I do not understand. Why does the person you are getting energy from still need to disappear? At this point, I can never pinpoint what is happening.  I lost my strength. Suddenly the energy in my body disappeared. My life is now meaningless, My mother is gone. The person  wherein my number source of power is not breathing, she's now lifeless.  "When you finish school, what will you buy first? A car? A house?"We are here in my room, talking some random stuffs when my mom

Chapter 20StellaI can't imagine life without mom, but maybe this time it is real, she was gone.  It is difficult to lose a father, and now it becomes more horrible because I also lost my mother.  And maybe if I have a chance to stop the time? It was only in the part where we crossed the road to school at the same time. We were happy, laughing and teasing each other. There is nothing more painful when you know in yourself that you are alone, that no matter how hard you try to build yourself up, you still can't. I miss you so much, mom and dad. I hope wherever you are now, you are happy, because you are together again. I will force myself mom, dad, I will choose to be strong.Because I can't do anything, it has happened, it's over and I can't bring