Angelo Ever since Gio was taken from me; my biggest fear is losing everything I've ever owned and loved. Therapy with Brent has been going well and I'm making progress. This morning Cleo suggested we do therapy together, and I was going to suggest it to her but she beat me to it. I love making love to her and I hate it when we fight... She makes me want to be a better man and fix the mess I made. I never cared when I fought with my exes but with her I care so deeply. I'm changing in a good way and she has me wrapped around her finger. I was lost in my thoughts when she walked in dressed in a blue and white floral maxi dress and kissed me. We had just finished our heart to heart when she answered the phon

AngeloI get worried when my wife ... Girlfriend is unsettled. As happy as I was to be talking to my parents like old times and having Cleo next to me was the cherry on top. I've known her long enough to detect her moods and she seemed too quiet and out of sorts . I thought she'd feel betrayed after my mother told her I was bi but she was totally chilled. Her reaction put me at ease . I don't regret my decision to have her as my girl. I want her as my wife. Speaking of which I need to ask my mother for her wedding ring.I wanted to let Cleo go upstairs but my father insisted she stay . She came back home from Mass with him. I has time to talk to my mother about why my dad did what he did . When I asked Cleo what was wrong she said; she couldn't cope...I wanted her to make her feel safe and protected . Above all ; wanted, loved and ,needed. My dad knew about the threats ,but not my mother ."Cleo w

 CleoThe Massa's are a very well connected family on the ground, and most recently I found out underground too. The shooting incident was Cleared up within an an hour . When Nicolai pulled me away from everything; he made sure I wasn't alone and that I was with him at all times. Angelo was air lifted to the hospital and Duncan was knocked out cold and taken away. I constantly worry and whether or not I hide it well, is another story. When Rosa joined me and Nicolai in the car she gave me a hug and a shoulder to cry on. The roads weren't that busy which made the drive to the hospital quicker.The ride was quiet, until we made it to the parking lot of the hospital. As soon as Nicolai stepped out the care , I was left alone with a very calm but worried Rosa."Cleo are you okay?"I shook my head and cried again."I'm sorry. This is all my fault."" no i

 One month laterAngeloI am alive. I'm so thankful to God that I am alive . Remembering who I was before the head injury has been a tad bit difficult . I remembered Cleo and Giovanni . My mom and dad too. A lot has happened ; Duncan killed himself after shooting Nina . I found out when I had a heart to heart with Gio that he hid himself under one of the trap doors in the house and when he saw Duncan leave he saw Nina and called my father. While this was happening Cleo had alerted me when Duncan broke in that; she knew Duncan had done something wrong and when Duncan took the gun off the counter I tried to protect Cleo. The last thing I remembered was falling and hitting my head. Cleo had gained a lot of weight and she still looked beautiful .We are having a baby boy and a girl. I still love Giovanni I'm all he has left . I've been going with him

 AngeloI read somewhere that regrets are kind acts we thought of ,but never really put them into action. Many things trigger regret . In my case tragedy has always triggered my feelings of remorse and guilt, mainly because I had caused the drama. This morning I woke up determined to find out why Cleo wasn't sleeping in the same bed as me. At some point I thought she wanted to break up with me. I thought she needed her space but I was so wrong. She didn't seem like herself this morning and even though our drive to the hospital was short, there was a lot to be said but there wasn't a lot of time. Cleo doesn't talk when something's wrong with her but she talks if it has to do with the babies. She passed out before we could walk in and she was taken to the O.R. Carl was with me when Cleo hit lights out. I can't get over the look she gave me before she closed her eyes, it was a look of fear mixed wi