It’s Sunday, but this Sunday is special because my date with Josh is today. I’m excited and nervous. I have gone out with him more than once, yet none of those times was an official date. Even if he secretly considered any of them a date, I never did. Also, this is basically my first date. I have never been on a date before, so this is nerve-wracking to me.        “Do I look good?” I ask Lisa, looking at my outfit in the mirror. I’m wearing a mid-length tight camel skirt with a long-sleeved black top and knee-high black boots. The front strands of my hair are pulled back; Lisa says my face looks better when I do that. My make-up is simple. There’s no need to cake it with an unwanted amount of make-up.        “You rock!” She grins as I look at her. Lisa isn’t still into the idea of me getting close to Josh and although she hasn’t voiced her

On returning to the dorms last night, Lisa bombarded me with billions of questions, demanding to know every single detail about my date. Truth is, I didn’t mind filling her in, but I was in a state of total disbelief. It took me a while to realize that I’ve actually been on a date and I’ve received my first kiss in one night. I still remember her initial expression on telling her that I had finally received my first kiss. She almost screamed. Had it not been for my hand that clasped her mouth, security would’ve come to our room, thinking that something was wrong.  

I feel the rays of sun hitting my face and they’re strong enough to wake me up. I look beside me and see Taleen asleep. She looks tired. I can tell from the bags under her eyes. I look down at my hand and see her holding it. Last night wasn’t easy for her. The last thing I remember is telling her to leave me alone. She didn’t. Did she spend the whole night nursing me? I carefully sit up and look at the nightstand beside her and see a big bowl.  I kiss her cheek and gently remove my fingers from her soft grip. I look down at her again and my heart flutters. I love this girl so much. God! What did I do to deserve her? I could sit here all day and watch her. I wouldn’t even get bored. 

My brain can’t grasp the thought that I’ve agreed to date Josh. I don’t regret saying yes. I love him and I want him. As I told him, there’s no point in denying my feelings for him. I thought I can avoid dating, but it turns out that Josh is the one who moved my heart, who made me change the whole way I look at dating.  When I’m with him, happiness automatically finds its way to me. He doesn’t even have to try. Just the tiniest gesture from him makes me over the moon. I never thought I’d meet somebody who would have this effect on me; not at such an early age like that. I’m just nineteen. 

I’m meeting her family tomorrow. I’m really meeting her family tomorrow. Not as her friend, but as her boyfriend. My nerves are all over the place. I swear, I can feel my heart shaking in my chest. This step is too early. I didn’t plan for this. Yes, I know I’m bound to meet her family, but this is happening too soon. I’m scared that they might think that I am not the right man for their daughter. Of course, I know I’m not the one their daughter deserves, but they know nothing about my dark side. Taleen should be with another person. Somebody who won’t drain her energy. Somebody who isn’t too demanding. But she thinks I’m the best boyfriend she could ever ask for, and this breaks my heart. I will do my b