Lahat ng Kabanata ng Inevitably Captivated: Kabanata 61 - Kabanata 70

I wish I could say I told the police everything, but I didn’t. I tried to protect my family as much as possible. I only told them that a huge fight happened between us, but I didn’t mention the reason. I contemplated telling them about my addiction, but I chose to wait. I did mention my dad’s decision against Evan, though. I know my rights. I know my rights well. I’m not inclined to tell them anything. I can wait for my lawyer. I don’t want to completely drag the family’s name into the mud.  They tried to get me to say more, but I couldn’t risk it. My parents are going to be super pissed at me, but I don’t care.

“Any news?” Layan wonders as she sits beside me in the waiting room. Another eight days have passed. It’s also been seven days since I purchased the small packet of heroin. Eight days have passed over my snorting the drug. I shamefully allowed that drug into my body again. Taleen is going to be so disappointed in me. I hate being a source of disappointment to her.  “Nothing…

“Oh my God! You’re awake. Don’t you dare scare me like that ever again. Oh… I can finally hear your voice again,” Lisa sobs while hugging me. She has one hand in my hair and the other on my back. “You’re never crossing the street on your own ever again. I can’t afford to lose my best friend.”“I’m all right. I’m okay. Stop crying,” I say, placing my hand, which is not in a cast, around her. I have amazing friends. Protective ones. I have people in my life who never fail to remind me of the love they have for me. They voice their love out loud, assuring me that I will always be provided with the emotional support I may ever need throughout my life.“I’m sorry… it’s just… I was there. I was with you. I was right there beside you when that car hit you.” A shiver runs down my spine upon hearing her say that, “I saw you covered in blood, unconscious and… God! I couldn’t even hold your hand because I was scared that I may wrongly move you, so I’d end up hurting you more. I would have never f

It kills me that she still thinks I’m clean. I want to tell her, but this isn’t the right time. She is going to be very disappointed in me. I’m petrified of the thought that she may leave me if she finds out—  more like when she finds out.This wasn’t supposed to happen. I wasn’t supposed to be this weak. I wasn’t supposed to give in when the first issue hit me right after I was clean. I made a huge mistake and I don’t know how to fix it. Honestly, I know how to fix what I’ve done, but it’s not easy. Detoxing is not easy; especially when I’m barely getting the sleep that my body craves. I’m not following a healthy lifestyle at the moment to get me through this.I’m trying to find any excuse to make up for the crime I’ve committed against myself, but at the end of the day, I know that this all falls on me. I know that nobody is at fault but me. I wish I can turn back time, but I def

“You look amazing,” Lisa tells me as she styles my hair, “I still can’t believe I’m touching your hair.” She laughs and I giggle in return. My birthday is today and mum has decided to throw me a small party in our backyard. Since I cannot style my hair, Lisa offered to do it for me and honestly, she’s doing a good job. Maybe I should trust her more often with my hair.  “Don’t get used to it,” I tease her, making her stick her tongue at me. “Avery, thank you so much for this dress. I’m in love with it.” Avery has gotten me the cutest sunflower dress I’ve ever seen and she even got me a matching necklace while Layan got me new black sneakers that I