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I wore a black mini skirt which was very tight and black bustier chain strap padded crop top. I looked at the mirror. I made some circles and then whispered:“You are a corpse.”I made a messy high ponytail with some front strands of hair being free. And I decided to make a wavy ponytail. I put on some makeup: mascara, eyeliner, highlighter and a dark burgundy matte lipstick. I was ready and going to the party had never felt so good.I went downstairs and everyone was ready as well.“God! You are my crush!” Ashley exclaimed.I laughed.“No comments!” Bella gasped.“Looking fire!” Dylan said.“Meh,” Linc added.“Why? Thank you everyone, especially my dear brother!” I exclaimed and chuckled.“Yeah, I’m the best thing in your life.” Linc winked.I rolled my eyes and commented:“Your arrogance is too annoy

“Maybe I did,” he mumbled.“Why?” I sighed.“Because...Lincoln wanted to be with her. He was telling me about how bad he missed her.”“Oh,” the only thing I said. It disappointed me, because I wanted me to be the reason of it. “And that’s the only reason?”He nodded slightly. “Yeah. Which other reason should be here?”I nodded. “Right,” I whispered and turned on my heel to leave, but he stopped me.“Did you miss me?” he asked, grabbing my arm.I didn’t know what to say, because if I told the truth, my pride would omit down.“I feel the same, as you do,” were the only words, that could come into my head.And I left. When classes were over, Dylan drove us home. We wanted to change our clothes to drive to airport and meet Mia there. When I was ready to go, I went downstairs and saw boys playing

Others woke up and we sat at the table to eat breakfast. I was looking around. Everyone was eating in silence. But I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t get myself swallow even one piece. I put down the fork I had been holding. “Why aren’t you eating?” Raf asked. “I have lost my appetite,” I answered and got up, heading upstairs. I looked at my room and saw a picture in my bag. I took it and sat on my bed. It was a photo of me and granny. I smiled bitterly. She had to recover! She had to...Then, Linc came to me, as he opened the doors, and said: “We are putting the bags in the trunk. I will take yours.” I nodded and started helping him with the luggage. We went downstairs and put everything in the trunks of two cars. These were uncle’s and Dylan’s cars. I sat into Dylan’s car with Raf, Lincoln and Mia. Bella and Ashley were in uncle’s one.I leaned my head towards the window. It was raining that day. The “sky’s tears” were dripping

Next day, we had to go the doctor’s appointment. It looked like she had to get her first chemotherapy. I woke up at 7:30 and started getting ready. I wore a pair of jeans, white T-shirt and trainers. I made a ponytail and put on some gloss. I went downstairs and saw guys sitting on the couch with grandma. Uncle and dad were cooking breakfast. I sat on the couch and joined the conversation. I noticed that Raf wasn’t there. Probably, he went home last night.“Good morning!” I said.“Good morning!” everyone said back.“What are you talking about?”“Nothing interesting,” grandma answered.I nodded. I knew exactly that they were lying, but I didn’t want to push it. When breakfast was ready, we sat together at the table and started eating. Everybody was silent. I guess they were tensed about the chemotherapy. We knew that everything would change. Her hai

I went downstairs and sat at the table. There wasn’t Raf. We started eating. I was thinking of the words I had to tell him. Maybe I was stupid, but it meant a lot for me. It was the first time I had ever fallen in love with someone and something told me that it was the last time. I needed to know if it was a reciprocated love. When we were done, we went outside to sit in the car. There was Raf. He was like always sitting on his motorbike. Everyone sat in the car and I sat next to him on the bike. We were driving to the park. I wasn’t distancing myself, I took a hold of his waist and put my head on his back. He looked at me, surprised of my action. Yes, I was confusing. One second I could run I away, but the next second I would pull him in my embrace. And I hoped he would be the only one who understood me. When we arrived to the park, we parked the car and bike and went inside.“I want to ride on carousel!” grandma sc