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I saw a nice, comfortable and decorated room. There were candles on the floor, four blankets and on the little table there were packets of food and drinks. “Wow,” I whispered.“You like it?” James asked.“I love it!” I exclaimed and hugged him.“How did you organize it?” Linc asked.“It was James, who did it!” Bella exclaimed.“That’s why you couldn’t give me a lift?” I asked, but it was more like a sentence.He nodded and smiled.“But where are we?” I asked.“It’s a little basement in the park near our house,” James elucidated.“You have a basement in the park?” I asked bewildered.“Something like that.”  James giggled.“Come on! We have a lot of things to do,” Dylan said and sat near the blankets.“What are we going to do?”

All of us knew who it was. His stupid hair was as always perfect, his mischievous smirk was as always hot, his eyes were as always piercing with the gaze, his...his everything was stupid, annoying, wicked, smug...but it was still the best for me. He started walling towards me, but I was sure, that he would repeat the last action, he had done on the ball. He would give me hope and then trample it with all his strength. Just to hurt me. Our eyes were locked. The story was repeating itself. I knew it, I was sure that he would do it again.But it didn’t scare me from getting into his mind, using his eyes as the gates to hell. However,  then he stopped near me and my heart started beating as fast as it was possible. “Can I steal one dance?” He winked at me, but was talking to James.I nodded, but I guess James was against it. However, I was already dancing with Raf in my mind and I completely forgot about anyone or anything els

I wanted to scream, to stop him from leaving. That what he meant by saying that his departure depended on me. The answer on his question was responsible for it. My answer wasn’t the one he wanted to hear. It didn’t make him stay. I ran to the windows and saw him going to the airplane. He was going upstairs and when he was already near the doors, he looked up at the window. I guess, he was looking at me, but he was too far for me to be sure about it.“Raf,” I whispered.It was like he heard it. He looked down, shook his head and went inside the airplane. I was standing there until the plane took off. And I understood, that there was no chance that he would come back.He was gone...I went back to the Uber driver. He was still there. I just needed to tell someone about it. Right now.“Hey, how did it go? Is he taking his luggage back now?” he asked, smiling.I looked at him an

But I hated having no answer. I hoped for a positive answer, but she didn’t even say the negative one. I started being numb to everything. I ran back to the departure hall. l was replaying her answer. “I don’t know.”Then I was already on my way to the airplane. Everyone was inside, except for me. I went upstairs and each stair was like one more repetition of her answer. And it was like a knife was stabbing me deeper and deeper in the heart.When I was near the doors, I looked up at the windows. I hoped she was exactly there. Then I looked down and whispered:“I love you.”I shook my head in disbelief and then went inside. I found my seat and sat near the window. Then plane started setting off. And I understood one more time, that I lost her. Forever.How? Why? How did you do it? Why don’t you love me? I was never meant to fall in love with you. It was a gift and a puni

“Kylie, Linc! I’m so glad to see you!” she exclaimed and hugged us.Well, we were taken aback at first.“Hey...” we stated confused.“Don’t worry! I’m not that psychotic bitch anymore. I am telling the truth! I have been attending appointments with the psychologist. I am getting better!” she explained.“But why did you decide to do it?” I asked.“Bella told dad everything. He decided that I needed a little bit help after the divorce,” she continued.“It’s true. She is getting better!” uncle affirmed.“And I’m deeply sorry because of my past actions! Can you forgive me?”We exchanged looks with Linc. We nodded and stated:“Yes.”She hugged us again. It was childish to hold grudges. We are family after all. We have to stay together, because there aren’t a lot of people who i