The boy I should not love 의 모든 챕터: 챕터 11 - 챕터 20

“So, you hung out with Golden? That’s a development.” Zach says talking too loud for my liking. I look around us to see who’s listening. We’re on the school field to have our lunch, the closest person to us is the school grounds keeper and he’s on the other side. But still, you never know who’s lurking. We’re kicking it alone today because I had to tell someone about spending time with Golden or I’m going to burst. “She didn’t really give me a choice and can you not talk so loud,” I say speaking softly. “What do you mean she didn’t give you a choice?” He asks making a face at me but he lowers his voice. “We had ice cream and she came back home with us. I didn’t invite her, she sort of walked along with us until we got home.” He smiles at my explanation and I already know where this is going. “She was in your house, wow dude. You guys are moving fast.” He says smiling a very sly smile. He wiggles his brows over and over, I cringe inwardly at that. “Not like that. Don’t say that.

“I have a favor to ask.” Zach says across from me. I look up at the Ms Swan our English teacher. She doesn’t like talkers in class. She has her back to us but everyone knows she has supernatural hearing. She can tell you who’s talking without even seeing them. It’s like a mutant power, don’t understand what’s so important that Zach can’t wait until lunch. I give him a look to let him know I don’t want to talk right now. He raises his brows at me in question and then he gives me a shoulder shrug. What’s wrong with this dude? Did he forget where we are? Miss Swan doesn’t play. “No,” I say as quietly as possible. I want to tell him we can talk about this at lunch but that’s too many words and Ms Knight will definitely catch me talking if I say anything more than that. “What do you mean no? You don’t even know what the favor is.” He says whispering back at me. Of ‘course he thinks I’m saying no to his request for a favor and not to talk in Ms Swan’s class. I look at him hoping he can

“They’re in their element.” I say looking at her. She smiles waving at Mina and Jon; they wave excitedly back at her. “How are you?” She asks looking at me, she’s smiling at me. I wonder if she knows how beautiful her smile is. “I’m alright and you?” I say taken aback by how beautiful she looks. She’s wearing a yellow top and blue jeans. The yellow makes her skin glow in a mesmerizing way. Her long braids framing her face beautifully, they go all the way to her bum giving her a soft look. “I’m good.” She says and starts walking to a table behind us to sit down in a chair. I join her at the table sitting across from her. She looks at me saying nothing. I look away trying to gather my thoughts. What do we talk about now? I never know what to say when she looks at me like that. “Would you like a drink?” I ask her after a long silence. Being next to her always makes my brain switch of. It’s like I can’t think beyond her beauty. Do I sound pathetic? I feel like I sound pathetic. “I

“Golden really did a good job. Did you say thank you?” He asks his little sister and comes closer to her inspecting my handy work. He’s wearing and all brown pant and t-shirt combo. The t-shirt has a logo on it; Mr. Brown’s. He smells so good; this is the first time we’ve stood this close to each other. I guess he showed while I was doing Mina’s hair. “Thank you.” Mina says appreciating all the attention her brother is showering her with. I don’t blame her he’s looking at her like she’s the best thing in the world. They make me smile. “You’re welcome.” I say smiling too. Leo looks at me smiling and mouths thank you to me. His smile makes my heart beat ten times faster. I look away trying to catch my breath, he smiles so rarely that every time he does I get all the feels. I’m not supposed am I? I’m confused. “Go and put your shoes on so we can go to Sofia’s.” He says to Mina and helps her get off the chair. Her little feet tap on the flooring as she walks to the bedroom to put her s

It’s Monday morning that means I get to see Golden. I’m nervous; the last time we were in contact she sent me that text.  It took me by surprise; I didn’t expect her to do that. Now I don’t know how to react when I see her; does this mean that we can be friendly now? Pumping into her at the shop or at Zach’s party is way different from a text. A text is more personal. I don’t know how other people see it but to me, when you start texting someone. It means you’re friends, it means you wave at each other when you walk down the school hallway. But I don’t want to overstep, she may be cool with me when we’re outside of the school grounds but I don’t know how she feels about people knowing she and I are cool like that.Life at school is a different beast, there’s a hierarchy here. Golden is at the top and I don’t even rank on the scale. A fact that I was okay with before she became all friend