บททั้งหมดของ My Uncertain Love: บทที่ 11 - บทที่ 20

Kyle was crying when he left me in the garden. When he turned his back and walked away from me, I wanted to chase him. But I know it would be harder and more painful to both of us if I did. I broke down crying. If only I have the courage to turn my back from my family. If only I wasn't the first born of the Nitori Clan. I could freely love him. I felt someone touched my shoulder. I thought Kyle came back but it was Alora and the girls. Peggy kneeled and hugged me. I cried and cried. I don't know how long but they let me cry and didn't say a word. I know they're waiting for me to tell them what happened. "It hurts so much. Why does it have to be like this? Why did it end like that? For once, I hated being a Nitori. If only my family would understand this pain. I have so many questions in my mind."

I woke up from the sound of the alarm clock on the  bedside table. I turned it off and saw it was 7 in the morning. Miriana, one of the servants, went in after a few knocks. She was holding my dress and my shoe. Today is our graduation. After this, we will be college students. "Is everyone downstairs already?" I asked, holding my head. She nodded. I had a few drinks last night with my staff to celebrate my company's anniversary. I went home late. Alora was sending me messages, reminding me not to get drunk and go home early. She was worse than my mother. I was still living here in Queen's. I have my own house like the others but for some reason it became our routine to sleep here everyday. Luke and Alora don't mind at all. Alora was still under psychotherapy and

"Xander! It's nice to see you again!" I said sincerely. He kissed me on the cheek and handed me a bouquet of tulips. "Oh thank you! Another one huh?" I smiled. "I thought I'm not going to make it. I was in a meeting and rushed here after." He said while smiling back at me. For some reason, I missed his smile. "Sister, why are you blushing?" My little brother suddenly asked. I cupped my cheeks in embarrassment and glared at him. My family laughed and teased me. "Xander, why don't you join us for dinner tonight? For old times sake." Dad asked. I looked at him and at first he was hesit

Kyle said his goodbyes to my parents after he and my father finished chatting. "I'm sorry for disturbing your night. I should probably go. It was nice seeing you again sir." He said. I walked him outside to see him off. But we decided to talk a little so we went to the garden. He really has changed a lot. His appearance was so much different from the nerdy Kyle I knew. "You changed." I blurted. "I guess so. It was necessary." He said. Then it went silent. "So? How are you? It's been almost a year." He asked. "I'm fine. Luke helped me with my company so it's doing really well." I said.

I took a deep breath before I answered. "He asked me if we could start over as friends, I agreed." He stared at me and didn't say a word for a moment. "Emily, what do you exactly feel about him?" He asked. I was surprised. I didn't expect him to ask me about my feelings towards Xander. "I-I, He's a friend." I stammered. He heaved a sigh. "You're also not sure about it. I hope you can figure it out Emily." He said. We finished our meal but Kyle was quiet. Did he think I'm in love with Xander? Is he mad? I stammered because I was surprised. I don't feel anything about him.