MARX  There is nothing you can do when your heart decides who to love. I remember my professor in Psychology say this. For once, I have believed that this quote is a positive thing. But when I finally knew about Kristoff’s feelings, I realized that I am losing in this.I love him.He doesn’t love me.I care for him.I don’t know if what he is doing is caring for me.He does things now that he doesn’t usually do for me before. I don’t exactly know if this is an improving affection but I can see that he is starting to change.Bit by bit.I just hope it’s for the best. Because it is hurting me too much, I can’t seem to handle anymore.I walked out of my room today, prepared to go to the office. I am planning to skip breakfast because I know how awkwardly I will act in front of Kristoff after that hug last night.Come to think of it, I did r

HIS FEELINGS  “Okay. That’s all for today,” I told my employees as I closed the folder and ended the presentation I have been preparing for the past few weeks.The fashion show is just a day away and I am glad that everything is going well.I smiled at Min who waited for me at the door.“Congrats, Shan. You did it!” She beamed as I stopped in front of her. “Finally! Tomorrow, all your hard works will pay off!” She beamed excitedly.I chuckled and nodded. “It’s not just me though. It’s all of our hard works,” I replied. “We should all celebrate after the show!” I beamed as Min and I started jumping up and down in the office like we are some crazy fan girls going insane over the long-awaited comeback of Block V.We just stopped jumping when we felt really tired.“Okay. Let’s stop, I’m tired,” I said as we both

GOOD STRANGE   I want to be in your fashion show right now. I almost choked on my husband’s text for me. What is he trying to do again? Why is he like this all of a sudden?I started to focus on the ramp again as I know my face is red now. Holy shizzles, with just that text, I don’t know what my heart is feeling right now.My mom nudged me. “Your husband texted us. He said he will pick you up after the fashion show for a celebratory dinner for you.” She smiled teasingly. “When did you two start to have dinner this way, honeybunch?” she asked med.I automatically blushed. “I don’t know, Mom,” I replied.One day, I woke up and Kristoff’s actions had become more vulgar—like he does seem to care so much for me.My parents smiled at me while Kris’ just gave me encouraging looks. I smiled back and exhaled deeply as I turned my attention

DAD  Kristoff kissed me! I can’t even count how many kisses he has given me since this morning. I can do nothing but just sigh. Sigh in happiness and content. I like this feeling very much.Well, who wouldn’t like this feeling? The person I loved all these years loves me back. Isn’t that a good feeling?Maybe not.Because it is the best feeling ever.Who would expect someone who you thought has never laid his eyes on you to be crushing on you all this time?So, we were feeling mutual feelings for each other all these times. How did he manage to keep all those feelings in?But one thing is still unanswered in my mind. Who is that Bianca Lee to him? Why is she clinging to him to the she would tell everyone in the world that they have history?Just thinking about it makes me really bothered.Kristoff looked—or stared—at me while I was seated across him in the table.

SORRY, NOT SORRY  “Are you sure you can eat all these?” I asked Hunter who led me to an Italian restaurant near the forbidden park and ordered foods good for eight people.I looked at him in disbelief and shock. How could he order a lot of same dishes? I mean, they are all pasta and pizza. How could he eat all these?He just gave me a grin and started attacking the food.I sat there, watched him, stunned. Oh yes, he is eating well, eating really, really, well. What can I say?“Are celebrities supposed to eat a lot? Aren’t you conscious of your image and appearance?” I asked him, still not starting to eat.He looked at me while he was plopping the spaghetti in his mouth. He tried to respond but I didn’t understand because his mouth is full.I handed him the iced tea. It was bottomless as well. What will my bill be? How much will it be? It seems like I have to work harder on