Text conversation between Ryo and Oliver Come outside for a minute   Patient O   I look at my phone screen and smile. I get out of bed so fast my brain shakes in my brain. “Whoa!” I say stopping in my tracks. My heart is beating over time and I have to brace on my bed to stop from falling. I need to slow down. I can’t let this boy drive me crazy like this. I saw his text and didn’t even think twice. Here he is making me act like some love sick puppy. I want to take things slow with him but he has so much pull over me I can’t help it. “What’s wrong?” My mother asks from the hallway. I didn’t think she would hear me. “Nothing.” I say standing up right. She pokes her head through the door with a look of concern on her face. “That didn’t sound like nothing.” She says and she raises her brows at me in question. “It’s nothing big I just got up too

It’s been 24 hours since Oliver showed up at my house and I’m still thinking about him. I saw him at school today but I stayed far away from him. We were doing that awkward thing where we don’t know what to say to each other.I know I should be in the moment, pay attention to Trevor who is sitting in front of me smiling happily. He surprised me with an after school coffee date, I appreciate him being spontaneous and all but Oliver is running circles in my brain. I can’t stop thinking about what he said.I can’t believe he’s jealous of me and Trevor. I never thought him capable of jealousy. I thought his heart was made of steal and black coal. I didn’t imagine he had normal, human emotions.  Okay I’m being dramatic but you know what I mean. I didn’t think he thought of me that way.His reaction to me dating other people makes me curious, I wonder if Trevor feels the same way. I want to ask him but I don&r

 “You’re okay?” Ryo asks glancing at me from the driver’s. She looks so content holding that steering wheel. I can tell she loves doing these random trips. She looks so happy right now, I wish I felt the same way. I smile at her but I can feel my face fighting me. I don’t like this at all. I don’t like not having control.“Yeah. I’m okay.” I say stopping my body from moving uncomfortably in my seat. I’m lying with my mouth but my body is telling the truth. We’ve been on the road for about an hour now and I haven’t been able to calm down. I keep stopping myself from checking the GPS. I have this constant feeling of wanting to know. I want to know everything.I want to know where in the hell we’re headed. The fact that I’m not driving is not helping at all. Ryo is a great driver and I feel safe. I’m just not used to being the one in control. I hate that

 “Have you talked to you her?” Jameson asks staring at me. I place the fries on a table in front of him and shake my head. I just said I don’t know if I should call Ryo right now. I’m not brave enough to deal with her anger. I can’t imagine what she has to say after seeing me with Marlene. That was huge fuck up, why did I let her touch me like that?“I just said…” I say and he shakes his head too.“Well, you should text her or something. You can’t let this whole thing simmer. The longer you delay the more time you give her to think.” She says reaching for the fries. I watch him enjoy every bite, wishing I had the same excitement. I was looking forward to eating these but I’m not so excited anymore.“I’ll talk to her, I’m just thinking.” I say and he frowns.“Was it really that bad?” Jameson asks after a beat.“It was that

 "Wait a minute you did what, with who?" Kelly says screaming into my ear. I move the phone from my ear as my eardrum rings. If she screams one more time it’s going to burst. I’ve been begging her to stop but I know she don’t think she can hear me. She’s too shocked to process anything I’m saying right now.She’s been making me repeat the same thing over and over for the past ten minutes. And then when I do try to tell her what happened in the car she starts screaming at me. So she doesn’t hear what I’m explaining. My nerves are shot because of what happened and she’s not making it any better. I was hoping to have a normal conversation with her. But it’s not possible right now. I was hoping she would help clear this fog in my brain.I should give her a few days to process this and then we can talk about it. It’s a shame I need someone to talk to right now. I need someone to help me make sens