Lahat ng Kabanata ng My Alpha, My Demise: Kabanata 41 - Kabanata 50

Davina’s POVSixteen girls! Give or take that is, goddess knows how many he forgot to count or remember.Ok, so I was expecting him to be experienced from the way he was so…. Bold about pleasuring me, but sixteen! That’s a lot.I have sixteen girls to be compared to when I decide to have sex with him and I was totally oblivious and inexperienced. How will I ever measure up to what he was used to getting before?And the hurtful thing I came to realize is, he’s used to having sex a lot and hasn’t had any since I came into his life. He was respecting my fear, my constant worry and guilt for my sister, and my hesitation by not pushing me into it or even hinting at it. But the longer I deny him the pleasure he was constantly used to getting from others, the more guilty I’ll feel for it. And the guiltier I feel for not giving myself to him, the more I’ll consider having sex with him when I wasn’t ready for it at all, just to stop my mind from constantly reminding me that he was denying hims

Davina’s POV “I thought they would never let us shift back” I said tiredly to Jude as we walked back to the pack house after wearing the clothes they left at the foot of the forest before they shifted. They have been together for the past three hours and let’s just say they didn’t really do a lot of ‘training’ like they were supposed to be doing. If you could combine the actual time they were training in, it would probably equal to forty minutes out of three whole hours! So what did they do with the remaining time you ask? They couldn’t keep their paws off each other as they nibbled, sucked, and affectionately bit each other every two minutes. They were so fucking horny it made me so irritated because I couldn’t get that kind of thing yet. “And whose fault is that my dear? Go ahead, make love to your mate instead of being jealous, what’s stopping you?” argued Rowena challengingly. I’m not going to do it until I save Irena and make sure she’s okay. I can’t have sex for the first

Davina’s POV“What do you mean?” asked Ian in confusion, obviously feeling like he was missing something.Jude looked at me expectantly.I have to admit, I was pretty annoyed at his obvious attempt to have me reconcile with my father forcibly.But the opportunity he was giving me to surprise his betas repeatedly, kind of made up for his sneaky scheme.“I will cast a protective shield around the territory that will render the Dickenson pack’s supernatural powers; including their warlock’s, useless. They cannot shift, heal, or have supernatural strength or speed. They will just be weak humans” I said firmly looking only at Ian.I watched his eyebrows shoot up in admiration as he said in surprise “That….. Is a pretty powerful shield, I admit”“Powerful indeed” said Robert grimly.I turned to him for the first time and looked at him with one raised eyebrow.“You have something to say? Don’t be shy about it” I taunted coldly.He looked at me sternly and said tightly “That kind of spell req

Davina’s POV“You don’t mean that Davina. You’d never wish pain and suffering on anyone because you’re kind and warm. Let me ask you something, what will your sister do once she finds out that Robert is her father?” he asked curiously.I lean back from his chest and look at him.He asked the exact question I’ve been constantly asking myself since I found out about Robert.“I don’t know” I admitted sheepishly.“She’s your twin sister. You know her more than anyone else in this world, you must have a slight idea” he prompted.I did. Probably.Maybe that’s why I’ve been constantly lashing out at him, because someone needed to, because Irena probably would hug the guy right away and accept him, but he doesn’t deserve to be forgiven for abandoning us, and my mother for the past eighteen years without so much as a phone call just like that!“She’s a lot more forgiving than me. She’s practically been the peace keeper between me and mom every time I tried to fight with her over leaving that t

Jude’s POV I was taking out all my anger and frustration at Davina on my betas during practice. I was vicious and unbeatable the whole remaining hour and a half. Ian and Robert didn’t say a word the entire time but focused on not getting any permanent damage from my continuous attacks. “I can’t believe I’m saying this, but thank goddess practice is over. That was intense dude” said Ian as he tapped off to get me off him and stood up from the ground after I pinned him in a death grip. “It’s supposed to be, we have a battle the day after tomorrow to prepare for. You need to up your games” I said tightly. “Oh trust me our game is up enough to handle them. It’s your wrath that can’t be managed right now. Take it easy man, she’s okay” said Ian carefully. “What the hell is okay about her? Her wolf is not responsive! Goddess knows when she’ll be able to come around!” I snapped at him. “She’ll come around. As long as she can feel her inside, there’s nothing serious about this. We all k