Lahat ng Kabanata ng Tragic Voice of Pleasure: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 30

Birthday I can't believe mom even invited him over our lunch. Pagkatapos niyang bayaran ang kulang ko ay niyaya niya si Jasper na samahan kaming magtanghalian. I tried really, really hard to stop him and say no, but he still agreed. Malaki pa ang ngiti niya, hindi ko alam kung inaasar ba ako o ano. I am silently scrolling on my phone while my mom and this guy over here are having their sweetest conversation. Para bang dati na silang magkakilala sa dami ng pinag-uusapan nila. Ni hindi nga ako nagsasalita, unless papansinin ako ni Mommy. "Oo nga pala, why don't you come over in our house this Monday, Jasper?" Mula sa nakakaburyo kong phone ay inangat ko ang tingin kay Mommy dahil sa sinabi niyang iyon. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin bago nilingon ang nasa tabi kong si Jasper. Mabilis na nawala ang ngiti niya siguro nang nakita ang masama kong mata. "It's her birthday this upcoming Monday." Mariin akong pum

Mom Mabuti na lang at tapos na ang school year na 'to. Kahit na marami pa rin akong kailangang ipasa para maging promoted sa fourth year, hindi ko 'yon ininda. I organized my time and energy correctly. Half of my day is on my mom's, while the other half is for leisure. Hindi ko naman na kailangan no'n pero si Mommy na mismo ang nagpumilit sa akin. She doesn't want to see me 24 hours a day, she said. It's been almost two months since mom got hospitalized, pero kada araw ay mas lalo siyang lumalala. The doctor said that it's some kind of cancer in lungs. Hindi ko alam kung paano nangyari iyon, pero sinabi ni Mommy na mahilig siyang manigarilyo noong kabataan pa lang niya. Maybe this is the aftershock of her action. I went out quickly from Jasper's navy blue Lexus car. Saktong-sakto ang paghinto ng halatang mamahalin niyang sasakyan sa hospital kung nasaan pa rin ngayon si Mommy. I even heard him called my name, maybe becau

Pregnant "Ah, my shy wife..." His sweet voice filled my whole hearing senses.  Mas lalo kong binaon ang mukha ko sa unan ko. This freakin' handsome guy behind me really knows how to fucking annoy me! Muli kong kinagat ang labi ko nang naramdaman ang pag-init ng pisngi ko. I know 'that' thing is normal for married couples, but still, I didn't expect that to be rough and hot.  Napamura na naman tuloy ako sa isip ko nang naalala kung ano ang ginawa ko kagabi. If I could just kill myself right now, I would definitely do that. This is so embarrassing. Mabilis akong tumayo nang hindi hinaharap ang buong katawan sa kanya. Mabuti na lang at mas maaga akong nagising sa kanya kanina, nakapagsuot agad ako ng damit.  Muntikan na

Breathe Indistinct conversations. Deafening beep of a particular machine. Sickening smell of medicine. Those things were the reason why I slowly gained my conciousness back. Dinilat ko ang mata ko. Kahit na inaasahan ko na ang puti at maliwanag na ilaw sa ibabaw ko ay sinalubong ko pa rin iyon. Bahagyang kumirot ang isang bahagi ng ulo ko nang agad na nagtama ang tingin namin ng nasabing nakakasilaw na ilaw. "... doesn't mean you need to left her all alone, fucking jerk! Gusto mo saksakin kita sa baga, ha?" I know that voice. Avon Jaz owns that screechy, loud voice. She's just like that. "Calm down, Avon Jaz. It's not my cousin's fault. Hindi niya naman inaasahan na magiging ganoon-" "Ha! So kasalanan ng gagang 'to kung bakit siya tinakbo sa hospital?" masungit na pagpuputol ni Nova sa boses na medyo hindi pamilyar sa akin. But I think I've heard that manly voice somewhere. Hindi

Control I was left in awe. I don't know what coincidence this is... but I am definitely shocked! Lucas Chua, my first crush when I was in college, is in front of me! Really. His familiar height changed. Mas lalo siyang tumangkad ngayon. Ganoon pa rin ang iilang features ng mukha niya. Mapupungay na mata, matangos na ilong at mapulang labi. Ang buhok niyang laging nakaayos dati ay medyo loose na ngayon, pero hindi pa rin naman ganoon kagulo. Or baka magulo lang pero hindi ko namalayan kasi bagay naman sa kanya? I don't know! But one thing is for sure, he really has changed. I can literally feel it. It's been... well I guess minutes since we met each other again. After years... I can't believe he's now here! In front of me. What a life, right? Malaki siyang ngumiti nang tinawag ko ang pangalan niya. Mas lalong nalaglag ang panga ko dahil doon. I can't believe that smile I am waitin