NateI don't know what's going on in my head. Yesterday, after the kiss, I promised myself I wouldn't get that close to him, and today when I saw him in the dressing room, I was sure he wasn't okay. I've only known him for a short time, but I know that when he's not smiling, joking, talking the nonsense that makes me smile, and then wondering why you think it's funny, or not acting like a fool, and flashing that smile, that damn smile, I know you're sad. I got confirmation when I got to the bathroom and heard him crying. That worried me, and I thought I was to blame for her sadness. I don't understand, why do I care so much about him?We spent a very pleasant afternoon and early evening. However, he had to provoke me. That conversation in the mall parking lot shook me up. In fact, I don't know what's going on, because from the moment I accepted the role in

Will  When did it get to this point? I do not know. It was installing itself inside me surreptitiously, and when I realized, Nate started to awaken feelings and sensations that I used to repress, he has the power to make me like an imbecile, completely attracted to him. At other times, I would never admit it, but now I can't hide it anymore, and after the kissing, and the flirting, and all this tension that hangs over us, it's inevitable, I'm in love. How did I fall in love with my co-star? I do not know. Maybe it's his manner, the way he smiles, his mouth, his eyes, his body. The combination of all these attributes, plus how good I feel next to him. I can no longer hide this feeling, not even from myself. Being in his room, so close and yet so far away, is very disturbing to my mind.As s

NatePlease look at me before it's too late,If you think it's me,So don't keep it to yourself...I shouldn't feel this way. That kiss in my room was intense, and it left me extremely upset, I couldn't sleep very well, in addition to the frustrated attempt to get rid of all that sexual tension. No. I didn't feel that way about a man, did I?I've never felt this way, it's too weird. I've always dated girls, what's going on? Why does my mind remind me of the kiss in my room every time I think of something that reminds me of him? There are so many questions, and I don't have the answers to them. Ever since Will walked out that door, I've been feeling a lot weirder than usual. I

NateSitting on the bed, and thinking about what I just said to myself in front of the mirror. Coming to this conclusion was not easy, there are so many things that imply, but it is very clear. It's no use hiding it from myself, Will came into my life and settled in my mind, and also in my heart. This is a fact!I think about the times I turned Mali away, because I thought about Will and the possibility of kissing him, during the shooting of scenes for episode five, and how completely thirsty I was for a kiss from him that day. I think about how weird I felt, thinking I did something wrong, and I happen to remember what I heard from my uncle Khalan, that he would never stop loving his husband, who is in Japan on business, because society thinks he can not.My uncle is right. I was wrong. Will made me see that it

NateHis gaze is confused, in fact I can't believe I even had the courage to say it in front of everyone on set, and before any reaction from Will, P'Tan scolds me once more.— Sorry to inform you, I liked your improv, but that's not what's in the script, Nate!I look in his direction, a little lost.— It's not that...— Alright, let's redo that last part!The scene was redone without the "I'm in love with you, Will!" As soon as it was over, I went to talk to the director to clarify my “distraction” in the recording, and the errors