บททั้งหมดของ Defining Love : บทที่ 31 - บทที่ 40

I thought of my Dad,if he's ever real.Asking him to do a DNA test is such a bad thing to do for a child but I just wanted to get off the image Maggie brought into my head.And if he really is?And then?He never cared for me.He let's Maggie go to my School.He let's Maggie to do all the job both parents should be doing but then Maggie didn't even do her part.Nasa elementary pa lang ako hindi na ginugusto ni Maggie na makipaglapit sa akin.She always shut me down that I have grown of being fond with it kahit na gusto kong makilala kung paano ba mag-alaga ang isang pamilya.I envy Ada for it,her mother is a very affectionate woman.She sits where Ada sits during meetings ,She wanted to befriend me because she wanted to know who's Ada's friend.She takes care of her and never pressure her.While me ,I carry my own expectations that if Maggie become contented or have grown tired by the way she treats me ,she will begin to see what I am doing ,my achievements,how I became loving to her despite how

My nerves should be wrecking me right now.Dapat ngayon mas lalo na akong kinakabahan dahil sa layo ng tinakbo ng pananahimik niya pero hindi 'yon ang nararamdaman ko ,sa halip ,nawala ang nakadagan sa dibdib ko.Unti-unting nagiging normal ang tibok ng puso ko.My mind was suddenly peaceful and I am calm.It made me calm that it amazes me.I can't hear anything inside the room ,I should be nervous !But NO!It isn't!If this is how it feels to let out things on my mind I will gladly do."Caza"mahinang sinabi 'yon ni Ansel sa tabi ko.Nilingon ko siya sandali at napansin ang kaunting paggalaw ni Sir Clinton.Dineretso niya sa'kin ang paningin niya na kanina ay nasa mga papel sa lamesa."Where did you get all of your ideas Azazel?"he ask."Is this what Maggie told you?!!"dumagundong ang lakas ng sigaw niya sa loob.Umiling ako ."This is my own idea.I want to live far from here"he clearly disagree ,like I am only talking nonsense infront of him.He laugh without a humor."You are my daughter .You

How will you live outside?I don't think it was that hard? Didn't it?As long i can get my freedom ,i don't think it will be as bad as he thought .I will be fine,yes,I will be fine.Tahimik ang pag-uwi namin sa dorm.Ubos ang lakas ko sa pakikipag-usap kay Sir Clinton.I would admit now,that he has a point ,somehow ,at the back of my mind I know i am still looking for a way to survive out there but I can't just tell him that I don't have a proper plan about it lalo na at pinakita kong gustong gusto ko ang kumawala sa kanila.Sandali kong itinuon ang pakiramdam ko sa nasa malayong katabi ko ,si Ansel sa tabi lang din ng bintana.Kanina pa rin siya tahimik at nakatingin lang sa labas.I know I shouldn't entertain it but it is showing that perhaps he's not really agreeing with me.Of course ,if Sir Clinton find it nonsense ,maybe he is too.Hindi ko sinubukang kuhanin ang pansin niya hanggang sa makita ko ang pagpaling ng kotse papasok sa mismong School doon ko piniling tignan at tawagin si Ans

Hindi ako nagkaroon ng magandang tulog sa unang gabi na bumalik ako.I was then opening the boxes in the middle of the night.I am shaking my head while doing that though halata mong pinag-isipan talaga ng mga bumili ang lahat ng nasa box.I mean ,I love the violet lamp ,pabilog siya at maliit lang.May carpet na halos lulubog ang paa ko sa pagkakatapak.It was color brown which is one of my favorite things there.Ang kama ay may white and cream combination habang ang mga unan ay naglalaro ang kulay sa mata ko . There's blue green ,pink,blue,yellow,violet,kulay white with brown and then there's printed flowers , peacock,swans and then my cabinet got full with variety of clothes.They were designers , there's silky ,cotton ,lacey, fur dresses ,and then too much furrrsss.There's even a coat that reach the ground ,akala mo sobrang ginaw din dito.May mga pangginaw,Jackets that seems to belong with a guy , cowgirl boots ,high cut shoes , there's a variety of colors for the flat once and surprisin

"Can we take a picture ?"it hurt me but I glared at her ,still."No"matigas kong sabi pero tumayo siya doon at nakangisi na ipinakita ang cellphone niyang nasa camera na."It's a NO""He-he"she puts her face closer and I already heard a snap.A lot of snap."My eyes were puffy"I reasoned out to her but she only grin wider."Yes.That's why I want a proof that tells me when did I know your have a heart for me"she laugh."And that is today!"she came back at her seat which is opposite to mine .I look at the field who clearly has a lot of heat in it .Sa pwesto namin , although malakas pa ang sikat ng araw ,hindi ko na maramdaman ang init.I look everywhere to practice my stinging eyes.I did cry.And it was because of her.I can't believe I actually did that dahil matagal na akong hindi umiiyak.The last time is when I was in grade school.Sa nakikita ko ngayon ,hindi kami naka-attend na ng klase dahil sa unexpected na nangyari.Hindi ko narinig ang bell ,hindi ko alam kung kailan naubos ang mga