Ella's POV"Shots all around..." Jack said as the waitress brought us our fourth round of shots. I was already tipsy." I think I'll skip this round..." I said and stood up. I lost my step and Alex held my waist to give me some balance. I have already had three shots and about six glasses of redbud vodka. It made me feel like I was being drunk and electrocuted at the same time. I used to be a lightweight but after few years of partying, I can take more than I could ." I've got you..." He said. I don't know if it's the way he held me or what he said to me but I believed him when said that he had me. " Thank you..." I said with a smile. Isabella also stood up and walked with me to the ladies room. The music was loud and the club was banging. I can't even remember the last time I stayed out this late partying. " I think I have had enough for one night." I said. " Oh no, we used to party and drink much harder than this." Isabella said. " I know... but you have to admit it, this is fu

Ella's POVLast night was only short of amazing and I can even say that it was the best night of my life. I felt alive again, I felt like a woman, a sexually liberrated woman. Chad has never not even once made feel anything close to what I was feeling last night. With him it was always the same thing in the same beds doing one thing over and over like a song on repeat but last night, Alexander worshipped my body and he appreciated everything about me even the parts I was mostly shy about. Alexander Black is a sex God.Whoever said size doesn't matter has clearly never had one like his and this time, I remember each and everything we did. I won't lie this has been something I was not anticipating on but now, all I can do is think about last night and smile about it. This morning, he didn't disappoint me, I swear it was like he couldn't get enough of me. Do you know how good it feels to be with a man who just keep his hands off you? A man who worshipped you and appreciated everything ab

Ella's POVHow did I get here? Isabella went home two days ago and we still haven't said anything to one another. The worst part of this is that the nightmares are back again. At this point I don't even want to go to bed. It is like I was ghost in a time loop doing the same thing over and over again. The dreams are always the same, no matter what I do I just can't seem to see the face of the person with the gun and even though he was the one with the gun, I saw a lot of blood in my hands." Ella you need to speak to someone about this." Alex said to me. I was sleeping in his bed which is what I have been doing since the night of the night club. Most people say that their dreams are way much better than their reality but for me it's different. My reality is way much more better than my dreams, because in my reality, I have Alex Black to hold me. " I will be fine, it is just dreams. " I said to him. " Not if they keep on coming back like this, you hardly slept for the last two nights,

Ella's POVGod Alexander told me that he wants kids. That means that he is willing to have a baby with that woman, whoever she is. I don't know but I am not okay with that, it hurts me to the core. I don't understand why he hasn't told me just yet. I don't know why he is being so sweet to me and why he is trying to make it seem like everything is fine. He found out that he is going to have a baby with another woman and he is not bothered by him. I never thought that a day would come when I would be jealous of a baby and yet here I find myself wishing that the baby didn't exist, hoping and praying that it is not true. That is what I tell myself to make myself feel better about this whole situation. I am consoling myself and thinking that maybe that is why he didn't tell me because that woman was probably lying. I suppose a part of me should have expected something like this from a man like Alex, he is a certified playboy and I was a fool to think that I could change that. Maybe this

Ella's POVI got off the plane and wondered what to do next. I didn't exactly have a plan of action, all that I knew was that I just couldn't stay in that hotel suite any more than I had knowing that my husband was out with another woman who is not me. I just couldn't bare the thought of him coming home smelling like cheap perfume and booze. I know it for a fact that if I let him go on like nothing happened then I will be opening up a while new chapter that I didn't sign up for. I can't have him sleeping with me while sleeping with other women. How could he even let another woman answer his phone? I didn't know how to react to that. No one told me that I would have to deal with a cheating husband. You know I have always been the one to judge the women when their man cheat on them, now I realise that I might have been too harsh because it is not their fault. I mean look at me. I gave him the very best parts of me and even that was not enough. Chad was an a** but at least he tried to