Alexander's POVWe are currently in Houston, we have been in Texas for a week and we still haven't found my wife. To say that I was losing my mind would be an understatement. I don't know where she is, I am not even sure if she even in this God forsaken place. It was hot, too hot and I was sweating bullets. " I hate it here man." I said to Jack." I know, I hate it too buddy." He said. We were sitting at some restaurant. We have searched high and low for her, we have asked a lot of people about her and no one has been able to tell us anything, it was like she had disappeared off the face of the earth. I hate it. I know that I messed up, I am man enough to admit that and if she could only give me a chance to talk to her, I know that I can fix this. I always thought that love was just comfort food for the week and uneducated. Now I know better. Falling in love is like nothing I had ever imagined. This sh*t hurts. I am usually a well reserved person, always in control of my emotions. I

Ella's POVI have been here for a a little over a week and it seems to be working, well most of the time. One good thing is that the nightmares are gone. I don't know if it was the environment I was in or the fact that I had shut the world out but I was doing pretty good for myself. Alex is still very much in mind, more than I would care to admit but seeing a friendly face has made things seem a little better. Being in the farm is the best decision I have made in a long while and I couldn't be happier. Dustin has been the perfect gentleman. He takes me on long walks around the farm. He makes sure that I eat and he has even got me running. I know that I am a bit thicker than most girls and I don't have any problems with that and I am not trying to change it, infact I love my shape, I have Kim Kardashian body and it it's all natural but Dustin said that it's a good way to clear my mind and I agree with him. It was a good way to clear my mind. As wonderful as being in the farm has been

Ella's POV" Oh my god! OMG!" I said as I ran to the room I was using. Dustin was right behind me. " Ella... Hey talk to me." He said as he bugged into my room. "I am so so sorry Dustin, I don't know how he found me." I said as I opened the closet. I was like a mad woman. I know I said that I was ready to face him but this was not the way I planned it. How the hell did he even find me here? No one knew where I was. No one. " Ella will you calm down for a second?" He said. " I can't, I am sorry but I have to get out of here. " I said to him. " Because of him?" He asked me. " Yes because of him, I am sorry Dustin, I can't be here." I said and pulled out my clothes from the closet. " No, I won't let him get to you, I promise you, I can protect you." He said. I realised in that moment that the way Alex acted and the way that I was acting right now might have sent the wrong message to Dustin. I realised that I owed him an explanation. He didn't have to take me in but he did, he didn

Ella's POVWhen I was younger, I was a girl and so I did girlish things, I wish I knew then what I know now. Growing up has got to be one of the hardest things any human should have to go through, now that I am older I have to put away girlish things and become an adult, that means making hard and difficult decisions. One of them is having to make a decision to choose from two different men. On one hand Dustin is the perfect gentleman, he always had been and I actually even liked him at some point. Had it not been for my best friend then I don't where we would be today. It has been years since I even thought of him that way. Back then I couldn't allow myself to feel anything for anyone, especially since I was so vulnerable. Right now the tables have changed, we are both older and wiser, we have both loved and lost. This time would have been the perfect time for us to explore our feelings for each other but I am still very much married. I got into this marriage with my eyes opened. I

Ella's POVI honestly had no idea how my morning was going to go, I knew that there was going to be some very uncomfortable conversations but I didn't think that they would be directed at me. Alex found out that I was pregnant with his child, I don't know what scares me the most, the fact that he found or the fact that the he doesn't know the whole story. Right now he wants to know what happened to our child. He thinks that I terminated the pregnancy which is what I would think if I was him but the truth is that I did not. I find myself at the crossroads having to question everything about myself. I thought that he was cheating on me, he said that he didn't and I still don't know if I should believe him. I just couldn't stop there. I wanted the truth, nothing but the truth so I asked him about the pregnant woman. He said that he was just trying to ruin things for him, I don't know why she would do that but I believe Alex. I don't know why but I do. Which is why I am so conflicted rig