I was hoping that my guilt would sooner leave me so that I could enjoy the time I had left with Liv, my girlfriend has been here for almost 3 days and it was just stressful and not fun at all.. The only time we had fun was the day she arrived here but it also started a bit rough. I was tired.I opened my eyes and smiled a little when I noticed I was cuddled up to my girlfriend and she was still fast asleep.I had no idea what to do. Tawny was going to be discharged from the hospital today and I didn't know if we should go get her or what.Olivia was the best and she was there for Tawny as much as she was there for me. But I was lost a bit, I had no idea what to do. When it came to things with Tawny, I was wondering if Olivia would see it the other way if I were to initiate us fetching her from the hospital... Would I do anything that would make her question my love for her? For us... Because in honesty she knew I cared about Tawny too."if looks could kill... I'd be long dead right no

When Liv left I felt a little bit out of balance. At first I was mad that what I heard about Tawny not wanting me forever got me hurt like I was supposed to care what she wanted in her future.Then it had me questioning everything and even my future. I wasn't getting younger at all. Sooner I'd be turning 26 and things were still a bit fuzzy on my way forward.That gave me motivation though. While I was concentrating on my work during the day later when I got home I'd watch videos of galleries so I could see what mine could bring that was different. Then talk to Liv as she helped me get a place at home.I'd try to paint a little bit. I changed my bedroom and created a corner where I could paint freely.Olivia on the other hand was doing her thing so well that they were going to open in two months. I was so proud of her.'so... You have a mail sent to you.' she said on the other side of the phone and I smiled, "what did you send? Your undies?? "She laughed, 'I forgot what an idiot you

"what the fuck did you just say?" the words slowly escaped my mouth as I couldn't control myself.That had my sister arched her brow at me, "watch your mouth Amora.." "how can I fucking watch my mouth when you can't watch how many people you sleep with..!!""Princess...!!" Olivia budged in, "please... Please don't start this."I didn't want to, but hearing Paris say that just made me so mad. It was bringing back every single thing she ever did before she met her girlfriend. It pissed me off how she was ready to just throw off what she had because she was insecure... Worse after everything that she put her ex girlfriends in."if I were you I would listen to Olivia. Because if you utter one more shit you'll regret it.""no I won't... Because here you are being soooo stupid. You think sex fixes everything.. Well news flash it doesn't, because it ruins you more than the million people you sleep with."Shs smiled, "okay miss perfect.. Keep on insulting me."I looked at Olivia, "I'm tellin

I watched her as she sat in front of the mirror and looked at herself. I didn't know if she was having a moment or what. She smiled a bit and looked at her hands, they were shaking a bit. Then she turned and looked at the mirror again, then I watched as tears started waltzing down her face.. I got out bed coz I knew then that I might be needed. I went to sit next to her. I took her hands in mine and let her rest her head on my shoulder. She trembled a bit and I put my other hand over her shoulder and kept her close to me. I didn't want to talk until she was ready to. I figured she needed this. God knows how long she wanted this, she has literally talked about it since she was in high school. Now it was happening. I knew I'd be like this too. The past two to almost three months were also this much. She was working so hard without taking a break making sure that everything was perfect for today. It made me smile that she was going to have to breathe a little bit. I held on as she w

I felt like I was dreaming standing in front of the mirror at my apartment. Olivia was on my side doing what I was doing to her over 7 months when she had her opening. It was like the places have been reversed. I felt how she was feeling, a mode of happiness that was hit by disbelief a little bit. It was still hard to believe that this was truly happening. I was opening my own baby that would take care of me forever. Her hand held on tight on mine and I looked at her. I knew she felt this before, so she could relate fully. I shook my head, "I don't wanna cry again. I've done that a lot these past days."She smiled, "you've done it so much that I think I enjoy listening to you cry now. So cry away." I rolled my eyes at her, "you're an idiot. And no I'm never crying at all.." She pulled me into a hug, "you are magnificent princess. I can't believe that you are pulling this off. But then again, I can believe it. I know how much you work hard and you know to be honest you deserve thi