I froze on my spot when I saw Sain Czar pointing a gun to my brother Jaxer. I tighten my grip on the gun I am holding doesn't know which side I should choose. On the back of my head, I know that I should sided with my brother because Sain is our enemy but then for some reason I couldn't erase inside my head that Sain become my husband and I become his wife. I am torn in between, in short. I do not want anyone of them get hurt because for sure it will greatly affect me. But then that thinking is stupid. I came here to kill Sain Czar. I plan this, all of this so that I could finish this mission and prove to the council that I can do it and I was not hesitating. I should kill Sain Czar, the son of the man who killed my parents, the brother of the man who killed Enzo. Sain's family took everything away from me and I am left with nothing now. I should not waste this chance given to me, especially now that I am standing at his back, not aware with my presence. "What are you waiting for?!

"Then who is Zacharias Eron? Why is he claiming that he's a Cortezi? He said Celeste is his sister!" I fire back, still not convince. Apollo tighten the grip on my wrist as if telling me to stop but I am too emotional right now. I will not stop until everything was answered. "Is he your brother?" He ask me in return. I gulp and shut my eyes close. I don't have a brother. I am the only child of Cortezi couple, there's no way I have a brother without knowing it. "I don't have..." I whisper and open my eyes. "See? They are fooling you, Herravie! You let them fooled you that's why you failed this mission!" Dad growl and I flinch a little because of it. "They are trying to save Celeste that's why they are finding her even after all these years without any hint about her whereabouts" I bit my lower lip. "They act as if they are all concern to her and to the Cortezi family. They said-" I didn't finish my sentence when Dad grab my arm and held me tightly. Apollo tried to stop our fat

"I wanted to know my worth as a Costello, once again..." Tears stream down to my face. I felt a pang of pain inside my chest and I couldn't hide how vulnerable I am right now. I always wanted to act strong in front of the man who molded me as Herravie. I always wanted to show strength to the father who teach me how to be fearless, but right now I am crying desperate to hear his command. UuuWould that be too much to ask? I just wanted to reclaim the same worth I feel before. I was not able to kill Czar Ildefonso, Jaxer ends up getting shot, my identity as Herravie was discover. Everything is a mess now. I am having a dilemma inside my head because I am questioning myself. At this moment, I don't know anymore what am I chasing? Was it the revenge I wanted or because I just wanted to prove my worth as a Costello because I am just an adopted daughter? "We will talk about this tomorrow" he firmly utter and turn his back on me. "Dad!" I call him and try to follow him but Apollo held my

"Then I will kill him for you" His tone is firm and it weigh so much emotion despite how he's trying to control his anger. He is not like this, I am always feel as if he's not taking things serious but right now, I guess he's trying to be a big brother to me because I am questioning myself. "Would it still be a revenge if I let you do it?" I whisper, doubting. I shouldn't doubt. I know to myself that should not doubt my own brother but then here I am, hesitant to Pollux's concern. "Does it even matter?" He fire back and let go of me. "Do you really have to question who will kill that bastard? I think what's important is the assurance of his death. I can assure you that I can kill him for you" he added. He's right. I shouldn't question about it because what's important is he will die. Cesar Ildefonso is still there, he is the one who killed my parents while Sain is just my way to make him realize how painful to lost someone you love. But will it be okay to me? My lips move wan

"Cesar Ildefonso killed my family..." I remind myself while looking at my reflection on the mirror. I could no longer see the sweet smile of Selena Castania that I used to wear when greeting the people around me. The woman in the mirror is Herravie Costello, the woman who seeks vengeance. I am holding the gun that Luscio Costello gave me while reminding myself that I must hand this gun back at him stained with Sain Czar's blood. That's the only way I can prove to myself and to the Costello that I am one of them and I deserve to be a Costello woman. I am confused right now but this is no time for me to question everything. Despite relying on the memories I remember, still, I am hesitant if what I am doing right now is the best thing for me, for my family, and for the Costello. All I know is I must do something. I am force to do something because that's my responsibility since I become a Costello woman. I shut my eyes close and Sain Czar's handsome face flash on my mind. I could n