Losing the Lonely のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 11 - チャプター 20

Over the past few weeks, things at work were ok. Nothing good. Nothing bad. Working is fun but definitely not highlighted in my life. It’s just a skill that I can do and not a big deal. Orion and I have been getting to know each other too. We would go out on dates, talk on the phone, text each other, or even relax at his place or mine. In my twenties, I would have done the deed with him already. Now, turning 40 in 2 years, I abstain. Not that I don’t want to be with Orion, it’s just that the older I get sex isn’t that great. I’ve fallen asleep one time, another time I got bored because it’s the same thing over and over again, and then there was one I called out a name that was a character of a book I was reading at that time. I had to laugh at myself for that one, definitely no forgetting that experience. That’s quite funny now that I look back. Majority of the time, I had to get myself off after he got off. I swear some guys have no idea. With that thought I had to laugh

My body didn’t hurt much when I went into work that night, so I was relieved. The good part is that I worked in the ER for tonight. It wasn’t busy, which is suprising since it's a friday night, so I just sat there waiting for rounds to start. “Hey Lara” I heard someone say. I looked up from the game I was playing on my phone cause let’s face it, it’s boring now, and I need something to keep me busy, or I will fall asleep. I see Dr. Cameron walking up to me with a big smile on his face. “Hey Doc” I greeted him. “How you doing? It’s been a while” he asks. “It has been a while. Everything is ok. Nothing to complain about. What about you” I respond. “My shift is ending soon. Let’s go eat after” he says to me. “Sure. Who else is coming” I respond because it’s best if there is more than just us. “Just us” he says. My right eyebrow goes up on my forehead. Are you for real, I thought. “Huh” I say. “Just us. That’s ok, right” he asks. Is it ok, I thought. I don’t want to give him the wron

My phone started to ring again. The name on the screen read Orion. I don’t feel like talking to him because of the phone call I received earlier. There is nothing for us to talk about. He can do whatever he wants to do. Then, why do I feel this pain in my chest. It’s not like Orion and I committed to each other, but I still have a pain in my heart. Absentmindedly, I rubbed my heart. When did I start to like Orion that I have a pain in my heart after learning who he was with today? There must be a misunderstanding. I listened to his voicemail again. I looked at the time when he called, then I looked at the time of the other phone call. The timing of the two calls were too close together. This feeling sucks. At this age and experience, why do I still feel pain like this, but I am trying hard to be in control. The pain cannot take control of me. Obviously, I have experience in this, I thought to myself chuckling a bit. My hands start to shake because the mix of feeli

“Hello” I heard a deep voice say. The voice was familiar, but I couldn’t quite place it. “Hello, Lara” the deep voice said again. “Crown” I asked. He and I don’t talk much, so it takes me a while to recognize his voice. Why is he picking up Orion’s phone, I thought. “Yeah, it’s me” he replied. “Where’s Orion? Is everything ok,” I asked felling a little concerned. “He’s here. He drank to much last night and is sleeping in” Crown notified me. “What? Why? What happened,” I asked. Why would Orion drink to much that he had to sleep in? “The only thing that I know is he couldn’t get in contact with you all yesterday, so he drank. A lot,” Crown said accusatory. “I…” I started to say but then what. When I heard that he was with Hana for lunch I…. Well, I don’t know. Was I hurt? Was I mad? Did I care? Did I not care? “Lara, if you are just playing with him, then it’s best that you leave him alone,” Crown said. It was a bit cruel for Crown to jump to conclusions that I am playing with Orio

Lara It was another night shift, same as any other night. I was doing my rounds when I noticed Dr. Cameron coming out of one of the patients room. Not thinking much of it, I walked over and said, "Hey." As I took a closer look, he looked really bad. Disheveled, a shadow on his face, and dark circles under his eyes. He looked up at me, but I don't think he really saw me at first. "Dr. Cameron, is everything ok." I asked. "Oh, yes. I was just, um, visiting a friend," he replied, a little distractedly. Wow, I thought. He looks really, really bad. "Did something happen," I asked, concern in my voice. "Ah, a friend got into an accident. She hasn't woken up yet," he said. "Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry about that, " I said, understanding now why he looks like this, as I looked him up and down. "Well, I'll leave you to your friend. Don't forget to eat," I said, then walked away. Holy crap, when did that happen. Im curious now, and I need a little gossip. who shall I ask? Hehehe, as soon