Lahat ng Kabanata ng Teach me to sin (Sins of Heldon): Kabanata 71 - Kabanata 80

"How are you, beautiful?'' Darling got up and pulled me into an unexpected hug. He smelt so good, what designer brand was that?I forced a small smile and hugged back even if mine was not as warm as his. What was he doing here? Alone with Tristan? What were they up to."Boy, did you catch them doing anything?" a voice from within me asked and then added, "You really need to chill out and read the room""Hi" I said politely and took two steps back. Tristan was smiling but all I wanted to do was slap that smile off his face. What the hell was so amusing? Why did he have his fuck buddy in here?Was that why Darling was calling so much? Did he want them to have sex? here?"ALEX, CHILL THE FUCK OUT!" My inner voice yelled at the same time that Darling asked."Baby boy, are you okay?"I bet I really looked distracted. I blink and nodded."Yeah, yeah. I'm just a little out of it, got a lot on my mind lately,'' and then suddenly realizing that he had compliemented me twice and I had not ret

I had not trusted what I had heard of Darling from Tristan but I was cautious enough not to show it. I didn't want Tristan knowing that I was nurturing seeds of distrust in my heart. He would have been very upset. So for now, all I could do was watch and wait.I knew that the questions that I had really wanted to ask were questions that only I could find out for myself. Like if he and Darling were having sex behind my back? Did he have any attraction to Darling? Was I the side piece? Was Darling the side piece?Everything that happened just helped to fuel the insecurity that I felt even more. Each time that Tristan failed to answer a call or respond to a text a bit late or casually bring Darling up. Each of those things made it harder for me to convince myself that nothing was going on.I tried to distract myself with other things but that was a lot harder than it seemed. I couldn't study, I couldn't watch a movie, shit, I couldn't even watch porn.Eventually, I decided to do the one

''You can't just do this to me, Rita!" Toby screamed from the other end of the bedroom door, ''OPEN THE DOOR!!"I had left Halima's residence and taken a cab back to his place to get my things so I could properly be out of his life. He had arrived shortly after I had and I locked the door so he wouldn't have the chance to stop me.I didn't want to be stopped. I wanted to be out of this man's life and I wanted him out of mine."RITA! OPEN THE DOOR!"No can do, baby boy. I tossed the last of my belongings which thankfully wasn't too much and closed the box shut. God, I can't believe this was actually happening. And to think that I had given a relationship a shot after so long.I took a deep breath. It was time to leave. Pulling my box, I unlocked the door and Toby barged in before I had the chance to step out properly. His eyes widened in alarm as soon as he saw the suitcase and he held my hand before I could walk away."Rita, Rita, wait. Wait, come on. We can work this out okay. Just...

The brandy burned its way down my throat, a familiar fire that did little to thaw the ice around my heart. My reflection in the dark window pane was one that I did not recognize.My mind replayed scenes of different men and women who had called me beautiful. Once a nice lady had handed me a rose on the street and told me that I was gorgeous from the inside out.I felt like I was walking on air that day and even now, I still had the flower siting pretty in a vase. I turned to it and tried to smile. It hurt to even do that now. I wondered if she would still think I was beautiful if she could see me now.I now for a fact that I wasn't. I didn't feel that way, both inside and out. On the outside, I had a swollen face, a big purpling eye, a split lip that still stung and bruises over my chest and the rest of my upper body.Each movement resulted in so much pain that I had to breathe heavily before moving again. Unfortunately for me, Tristan had taken all the medication in the house after th

''I'm done with this part of the paper and I think that I need to do a little more research of course,'' I handed the paper to Tristan doing my best to avoid eye contact, ''Maybe you can go through it later and tell me what you think''He took it from me, gave it a once over and sighed."Thank you, Alex,'' he placed it on the table, ''I'll take my time and see what you've come up with''"Cool''I shifted my weight from one leg to the other. The tension in the air was heavy and I wanted to keep avoiding it the same way that I had been doing.I had not heard from Tristan for a week and that was mainly because I had been actively running away from him and the questions that I knew he had. Now that I was here in his office I doubted that I could run any farther."Tell me Alex,'' he took his glasses, his expression serious, ''Are we going to address the elephant in the room by any chance?"I sighed and took a seat. Might as well get it over with right? I only hoped that he would not be as