Teach me to sin (Sins of Heldon) のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 51 - チャプター 60

Fuck, fuck, fuck!! What have I done? How could I have been so stupid? I ran outside shortly after Alex had stormed out. The cold air outside the restaurant hit me like a slap. A well deserved one at that. One minute, I was on a date with my boyfriend and now I was standing on the pavement looking from side to side to see if I could catch a glimpse of him. The anger that I had been trying so hard to subdue had now been replaced by a chilling dread.I tried dialing his number but I was sent straight to voice mail. Shit, he was really mad and rightfully so. What I had done was dumb and so insensitive and for what? What was really the whole point?Alex was gone. Alex was gone. The words echoed in my head, each one a fresh stab of panic. This wasn't just a disagreement; this was a walk-out. The look on his face before his exit wouldn't leave me be.This was... this was our first real fight, the kind that I feared would rip a hole in the fabric of a relationship. And it was all my fault. I

''Let's go out on a date, just you and me this weekend. What do you think?" Nico had asked me earlier this week when we were having ice cream in his dorm.Alex had been out working on his paper with one of his professors and Nico and I had the whole place to ourselves. The dorms of Heldon were designed like every typical two bedroom house.No wonder it was a school for the rich. Nico however acted regular and down to earth that I tend to forget that he was wealthy and that was one of the reasons that I liked him so much."A date?" I asked and he nodded."You pick a place and we'll go"I playfully leaned forward and wiggled my eyebrows at him."Ooouuu, look who's falling for me. I can't say that I blame you though. It is my burden to bear"He slapped my arm and laughed."Girl, hush""You can't even deny it""Yeah, yeah, whatever," He chuckled and rubbed the back of his head, "I like hanging out with you, Hayley and I want to keep hanging out with you""You mean that?"He nodded. ''Yea

The ride back to Heldon was quiet, the only sounds the soft hum of Nico’s engine and the distant thud in my head. I had been holding back tears for the past thirty minutes and my chest was starting to hurt. Nico was behind the wheel, his knuckles white where they gripped the steering wheel, his jaw clenched tight. We had been able to stop a fight between him and Collin but I knew that he wanted to still punch his face.Hayley had her hand resting gently on his arm, occasionally rubbing soothing circles. She didn’t say anything, but the gesture was enough. I wonder what she thought. She had met Collin for the first time tonight and this was his first impression.In the backseat, I was shaking slightly while Rita had me wrapped in a protective hold, her arm slung around my shoulders, pulling me close. She had always been my anchor during the storms of my life. No one spoke. No one needed to. The shock of what had just happened still hung heavy in the air, thick and suffocating. I don

The soft hum of expensive hair dryers filled the air of the large bedroom also followed by the scent of high-end perfume and the hushed chatter of stylists. Toby had hired a personal team of glam squad employees, all meticulously dressed and remarkably efficient to prepare me for the big event tonight.They all moved around me like a well-oiled machine. This was a routine for me. If Toby had an event that he wanted me in attendance he always made sure that I was well prepped by professionals.Tonight was no different – a major fundraiser was being held tonight and Toby and I had received an invite. Well, mostly Toby, I was just the pretty lady on his arm.I had no idea what institution was holding the event but I did know that it was for some obscure foundation and this event mostly served as a networking opportunity for the city's elite.I was draped in a green, silk robe, sipping on sparkling water, trying to relax into the pampering. The makeup artist was meticulously blending a s

The morning hit me like a sledgehammer, my head was pounding at a rapid rate and each throb behind my eyes was a brutal reminder of last night and how I needed to stop drinking.But I had drank alright. I had drank quite a lot and now I was waking up on my childhood bed, in my mother’s ridiculously large and expensive house.The scent of stale liquor still clung to my clothes and my breath. The memories of how I got here were a bit blurry but not lost to me.I remembered drinking...a lot. And then, I remembered driving up here, standing in the middle of her lavish living room and screaming at her....Just screaming my lungs out like a tantrum throwing baby.What had I called her?I’d called her a monster, a destroyer. I’d accused her of ruining the one thing I loved, of making me lose Alex. And although I had my part to play in that as well, she was still the reason that I had lost the man that I love.The words had poured out of my mouth, unfiltered, raw and made to hurt. I was angry