All Chapters of YOU WILL NEVER BE MY GOD, FELIX.: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

🦋 BENITA CELESTINE 🦋 I stood spellbound in front of the mirror, my gaze unable to tear itself away from the reflection staring back at me. My eyes seemed to gleam with an otherworldly light, my skin radiant with a divine glow. Every feature seemed sculpted to perfection, as if the gods themselves had crafted my face with detailed care. My hair rolled down my back like a waterfall of gold, and my lips curved into a smile that seemed almost divine. I couldn't help but feel like I was gazing at a work of art, a masterpiece that stood up to human explanation. The more I looked, the more mesmerised I became, unable to comprehend how such beauty could exist in one person. It was as if I had stepped out of the mortal realm and into a realm of perfection, where flaws didn't exist and every aspect of my being was a testament to loveliness. Time lost all meaning as I stood there, entranced by my own reflection, unable to look away from the breathtaking vision that stared back at me.“How

🦋 BENITA CELESTINE 🦋 I didn't sleep all night, but I was at least happy that I got to meet Felix again; to me, there's no better achievement than that.The time was 5 am, so I jumped up to prepare for my first day at work. Going to work late on your first day at work leaves a very bad first impression.Nikita had moved in with me yesterday, but I was too occupied to actually have a responsible conversation with her. I just kept on rumbling about Felix, and she was too tired to listen, so she slept off.Suddenly, she stormed into my room and I held my chest in panic, “You scared me!”“I thought you would already be awake,” she blurted out. “You were telling me something yesterday, how did it go? Did you meet him?”I pouted as I remembered what happened: “He kicked me out.”Nikita’s face reddened as she tried to hold in her laugh.Dissatisfied with her reaction, I pushed her out of my room. “Get out, I need to get ready for work.”“Wait, wait, wait,” she pleaded, and I paused. “See,

🦋 BENITA CELESTINE 🦋 I couldn't express how happy I was. Finally, I'd be able to see him every morning. I shouldn't be selfish. Even if I'm unable to jump on him, I'd still be close to him. “Should I not have made my face different?” I thought, sadly, you can be magnificent and still regret being beautiful. I was always beautiful before my face got ruined. Now I'm even more attractive, but… I want more than being beautiful; I want to be remembered by Felix. Like it's me, boy… Come to mama! But it's not that straightforward; I have to act like a serpent just to be closer to him, how pathetic.“Still… I'm happy!” I screamed.I began jumping around happily! It was a feeling that was hard to contain, like a bubbling carbonated drink that's about to overflow. I couldn't help but let my feet leave the ground, my arms flail wildly, and my face broke into a wide, beaming smile.As I jumped, my heart felt light, my spirit soared, and my entire being radiated happiness. I was carefree, unin

🦋 BENITA CELESTINE 🦋 As soon as those words left my lips, I expected anger or shock, but I got neither of them.He just stared into my eyes, more like staring into my soul.Sniffing, he whispered, “Do you go around proposing marriage to everyone?”“No… just you,” I blurted out, truthfully. “Aren't you mad I said those?”He inhaled sharply and looked away, without saying a word.Behind us was a river, and that was the direction Felix was facing.His gaze locked on the flowing water, and his chest began to constrict. Panic crept in like a thief, stealing his breath and racing his heart. His eyes, once calm, now darted wildly, as if searching for an escape from the suffocating fear that gripped him.The river's gentle lapping grew louder, an uproar that echoed the turmoil in his mind. His vision blurred, and his legs trembled beneath him. As he stared into the water, his thoughts soared out of control. Fear gave way to desperation, and he felt like he was losing himself in the depths

🦋 BENITA CELESTINE 🦋 Not even a word left Felix's lips; he just stared at me, because he was curious… or not.“You are going to dig a hole in my face,” I teased. “Am I that beautiful?”Felix immediately broke away, his face reddened, and he coughed to ease the awkwardness.A warm smile spread across my face, “I'm going to ask you out three times. On the third time, I'm going to leave.”“Is this the second time?” Felix murmured, and I shook my head in disagreement. “This is just a love confession, you still have two chances left.” “Go home,” he commanded.I slowly look up to glance at him, “You are chasing me away again.”“To rest… come back later,” he added. “You didn't sleep because of me. Why would I chase you away when you've been nothing but good to me?”I chuckled happily, “Have you fallen for me? Are you worried I might crash? Who cares about sleeping when I was able to stay here with you?”“My driver would take you home,” he announced, got down from bed and walked away.I s