Was It Worth It Taking The Risk의 모든 챕터: 챕터 21 - 챕터 30

“How's work, Li?” Ate Tar asked when I laid myself on her bed.Right after I stormed out of the office, pumunta agad ako sa apartment ni Ate Tar. I wanted to freshen up my mind and I need her wisdom. Namiss ko na rin siya.“Work sucks. Akala ko prof ko lang sa college ang magbibigay sakin highblood, pati rin pala si Mr. Almario.” umirap ako.Ate Tar is living with her boyfriend, Jeremiah. Well, he treats my sister good and right, and this apartment was his, he shared it with Ate, so I think he's good. I'd give him a benefit of that. As long as my sister is happy and in good condition, I'm good. “Where's your boyfriend?” I asked, smugly.Napairap siya sa ‘kin. “He's working.” Nagkibit balikat ako. “What are you doing here?” She asked, sounding a little curious. Ayan na naman siya. Manghuhula na naman ‘yan. Nakakatakot pa naman ‘yan kung manghula, talagang nahuhulaan niya! Siguro, hidden talent niya talaga ‘yon.“I'm stressed.” I confessed.Lumapit siya sa akin at agad akong tina

A soft blow of the afternoon wind blew my hair. Psalm was happily eating his ice cream, his smile wouldn't die down. But I… I am drowning with thoughts as my eyes play tricks on me. How the hell am I seeing a perfect family… eating ice cream and being happy?The little girl was in all smiles as she ate her ice cream, the cream was all over the sides of her mouth. Like how a little kid is supposed to eat, and… two parents looking exactly in-love with each other. Like no one could ever break their moment. They watched their little girl, full of smiles, love… and caring.A… tear suddenly fell from my eyes.I got a glimpse of Psalm looking at the direction I'm looking. Was that an imagination? Or did that happen exactly in front me?“Hey…what's wrong?” Psalm seemed worried now.Bakit ba sa lahat ng pagkakataon, ngayon ko pa kailangan makita ang eksenang ‘yon? Did the world just really want to play with me?Alam ko naman na masama ako, malandi pa nga para sa iba. Pero, kailangan bang pai

It's my first time witnessing a wedding. It's my first time attending a wedding, in general. I don't believe in this. Marriage? It's just a paper that makes two people bound. If they can maintain the relationship, good for them. But if not, then it's a waste of time, money, and effort. I am no risk taker. My decisions are calculated and all think thoroughly. So, if I'm asked about marriage, I'd say, it's not worth it. “Close your eyes, this one will highlight your beautiful deep russet brown eyes…” Alex said, as she put on any makeup on my face. The wedding is late in the afternoon, and early evening. The couple wanted to have the sunset as their background, as it will take place on the beach. It's a beach wedding. “Don't put on so much makeup. Baka mas maganda pa ‘ko sa bride, nakakahiya naman.” Psalm said he will fetch me, and I told him to fetch me in Alex's condo. Hindi naman daw malayo ang venue ng kasal kaya ayos lang na hindi kami maaga roon. At wala rin naman ako

“Hello, you must be Talliana?” It was the bride. She's now wearing her after party dress. She still looks so beautiful. I smiled and we did a beso. “I am. Congratulations on your wedding…” I said after that.The after party was just in the hotel of this beach. It's already dark and the guests are having their dinner now. Psalm left me for a while to get us food. The bride was roaming around to entertain her guests, and ask them if they're good. Wala pa si Psalm kaya ako ngayon ang natanong niya.“Well, thank you, Tali. I am Cassandra…” naglahad siya sa akin ng kamay.Agad ko iyong tinanggap. Her presence feels… comforting. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Siguro, may ganoon talagang tao. Katulad ni Ate Tar. “I really love the theme of the wedding, Cassandra. The whole thing was… perfect!” I said as a compliment.It was true, though. I really love the theme of her wedding.“Well, it was actually my mother in law's idea, and I guess it turned out very well. The beach wedding with sunset wa

I don't know how love differ from lust. Is it because when it's love you say I love yous whenever you do it, and when it's lust… you don't? If it's lust, it would only be filled with loud moaning of names… and some dirty talks? Hindi ba nagdi-dirty talk kapag love? Paano nila iyon ginagawa? Hindi ba sila napapamura sa sarap?“What is your view about marriage?” I asked after a while. We are sitting now on the sand in front of the beach. The night is young, and the wind is blowing cold. Hindi ko alintana iyon, nasasanay na rin ako sa lamig. But Psalm put his tuxedo coat on my shoulders.He is sitting next to me, eyes are on the waves of the ocean. Psalm, to me, feels like an ocean. He's full of things I'm scared of… and yet I chose to drown myself in him. Only that, I am hard enough to continue paddling myself… to the shore. I needed to get out. I needed to save myself. “I think marriage is best to those who truly swear, and not for people who make lying as a hobby.” He chuckled. “Y