Semua Bab Conflicted - Twist of Fate. : Bab 11 - Bab 20

I feel myself drifting. The world around me is nothing but fog. You'd think I'd be scared but I'm not. It feels peaceful here, every worry a distant memory as an intense feeling on being loved and accepted fills my entire body. I never want to go back, it is too hard there. Everything is so complicated. Me and Aurora are bonded as one more than ever. Our minds completely content as we float through this ether world. It feels like weeks, just being at peace, floating. The fog starts to lift and suddenly I'm looking at the most beautiful face I've ever seen. Long white hair, big white eyes. Her face nothing but kindness and love. "Hello my child" her voice rings. I've never been in the presence of someone so majestic that I suddenly know who she is. "Moon goddess?" My voice comes out croaky as I try to compose myself. She smiles as she nods. "My special child, I've wanted to speak with you for a long time now" her voice like calming music. Just like all wolv

Leon and Aiden are quiet as I talk. I start with Tristan, explaining how I used my powers to break the bond against his wishes, the way I had entered the moon goddess realm, before reaching the part about my mother. I can't stop the tears from falling down my face as I explain the real reason she gave me up, that it was only to protect me from those who would wish to harm me. When I saw how she died, Aiden holds my hand. A tear escaping his eye as I sob. I finally reach the part about my father; explaining that he doesn't know about me. Selena telling me how he was a loyal child to her, how he was broken when he lost his mate but is still on the moon goddess path. Leon is quiet as Aiden looks anxious. "You want to find him" Aiden says sadly. I realise then I shouldn't have added the part about his staying strong while losing his mate. Of course Aiden would take that hard. I kick myself for not thinking of this earlier, Aiden feels threatened. A new father, a replacement of every

I wanted to stay longer. To comfort him, to learn more about their childhood, but Aiden was in pain, I can feel it. Seeing me with Nathanial would have broken his heart and I know he would be hurting right now. I said I would reject them, I had given him my word and that was something I've never broken before. My mind is a blur, filled with conflicted feelings, my choices all feeling wrong. How has someone who had never been kissed a week ago almost had sex with two men in one day? My hormone levels are clearly pushing me further into my heat. How do I beat this? Especially when in the moment it doesn't feel wrong. Do I run? yeh right. There is no where safe for a she-wolf to hide when they are in heat. It will always push us to mate. 'Please tell me where you are' I push my mind link through to Aiden, feeling his blocking me out. I push past it; knowing he can hear me, 'Aiden, please just let me explain' Nothing comes back. His ignoring me. He has never done that before.

The water is up as high as it will go. The heat doing nothing to warm my frozen bones, I feel like my entire body has been dunked in liquid nitrogen, the cold sending shivers through my body. Four rouge girls. Pleading for mercy & telling stories of their experiences in the Eclipse dungeons. Each one had been assaulted and raped by Alpha Caled and his men. None of the girls named the twins as their attackers but stated they'd heard other girls being attacked by them. Those girls were not seen again. My heart wanted to believe they were innocent. At the very least that Nathanial was. But they obviously knew that these girls being treated like nothing but meat, used for the pleasure of their men and discarded like rubbish. It was normal to kill rouges found on pack land. They were a danger. But raping them was only done by feral packs. Packs with ruthless leaders & horrible warriors. I think of what Selena told me about my mother. The same thing that happened to Aiden's mate

As we head down the stairs my whole-body tingles, I know they are close. I feel my heat trying to push me to mate. To be marked. I do all I can to push it down and hide it, focusing on anything except how much my body craves their touch. I will see Leon and Nathanial today. Two powerful Alpha's, ready to accept me. Then there is Tristan, the thought of the little boy in my dream haunting me. The change in his eyes, the sadness when he killed his father. All of it raw, with the grief of all that was taken from him wanting to crush me. What he did when he met me was a disgrace. Something I thought unforgivable. Now that I have seen the truth, I'm unsure. He was not always dark; he was forced to be that way. Always the protector, never protected, even as a small child. I wasn't ready to face any of them. Not when I needed my focus was needed elsewhere. As I near the door, my heart races. Aiden sensing this holds my arm tighter. 'I'm here for you Armina, I may not be able to