Semua Bab The chaos of him: Bab 101 - Bab 110

ELIJAH STONE’S POV I can’t lift my head.How can I? How can I continue to look him in the eye? The entire trajectory of his life changed, changed because of me. I ruined his entire life.Even now, being cuffed to the bed,he is only saving me from a vengeful organization. We have been running around since I met him, I thought he just didn’t want to hand over the item. “Other times… was the item was a person?” I bite out the question, blinking back the feeling of gratitude. I am not deserving of him, of all he has done for me. God.I wonder how on edge he must have been when I joined the department, after working tirelessly, without pay from the shadows to keep them away from me, I went to join the department. “No…” he says, inhaling,“It usually was the item. But they are desperate to get rid of you, and that is their mistake.”No, no it’s not.I brought this on myself, ignoring them shouldn’t have been that difficult. Why did I make his life so difficult? “They knew I woul

“Hey, any chance this feud of yours ends any time soon?” Jazz asks, making a big gesture with her hands in the space between Jesse and me.I glare at her, she withdraws from my glare, eyes Jesse wearily and clears her throat.“It ends when someone stops acting like a child.” I say, returning my glare to his back. He was making dinner for me. He had been serious when he said he’d lock me in here, my left hand is currently cuffed to the dining table, I never knew he could do that, but he could. He has been cuffing me every where I go, in the bathroom, in the kitchen, while I did more research on he organization. The only place he doesn’t use the cuffs, is the bed room. He wraps his entire body around mine, like his legs locked around mine, there was no way to move. All the while we weren’t talking to each other. It was so awkward to know we were both hard, but both of us too stubborn to do anything about it, he wouldn’t even move the other way, so we’re forced to feel each other’s

Why didn’t I think of that??“Because you were trying to play hero.” Jesse says flicking my forehead, once again reading my mind like I said anything out loud. “You both tried to play hero, trying to die for each other, like this is some kind of modern day Romeo and Juliet.” Jazz says rolling her eyes, Shyly, I glance at Jesse from under my lashes.He looks relieved but only slightly. “You’re still worried.”“No, I’m not.”“Yes you are. I am still in hand cuffs!”Jazz groans.“Stop with the BDSM!”“I don’t even do that with him, he isn’t into it.” he sighs at her.“Who said I wasn’t??” I blurt out.When four pairs of eyes blink at me, I pray for the ground to open up and swallow me. My entire body flames, and I wish it would combust, it is quite easier to explain than to tell people my team members lost respect for me because I admitted in front of them that I may be into BDSM. “You have a lot to discuss, we’ll be waiting in the meeting room.” Jazz says flashing me a knowing smil

“You won’t. I promise. We’ll come back together.” he says pulling me into his arms.My body sags against his own.“Promise me.”He chuckles, “If there’s anything I have learnt these five years, is that there’s nothing you want to do that you won’t do. Nothing has ever been able to stand in your way.” “That’s because I had you.” I say, voice thick with emotion, and from being pressed against his own.“And now, you still have me. But all of those things, you accomplished them by yourself, I watched it happened, a witness to your strength. I believe you can do it, I have never doubted you for a second. You can do it. I know we’ll come back and then…” He lets out a breath.“And then?” I press,He chuckles, pulling me away from his body. I sniff, watching his face, maybe the rest of his statement is hidden in there somewhere. “Come on, let’s practice.”He wasn’t going to tell me what he plans to do when we get back then. This time, we actually practice, and the raging boner I had bef

They didn’t catch us. Not naked at least.But they did groan when we walked out of the corner in clothes that were inside out, my neck covered in hickeys. Jesse had a proud smile on his face, and I was almost the shade of the hickeys, unable to meet their eyes. Jazz groaned.“Don’t make our work harder!”“We’re making it easier by being together at all times, you don’t any safer than that.”“Yes, but not too together, or else we’d be third wheeling and I never thought you’d be into PDA.” She had turned to me the last part. A hiccup slipped through my mouth.“We’ll learn more about me together, I guess.” I told her, not looking at her eyes.Jesse chortles like it’s the funniest thing he ever heard. It forced me to look at his team mate and mine, Jazz was giving him an incredulous cartoon look, like this was the first time she was really seeing her captain. I chuckle hesitantly, an explanation for his just lost his mind behavior.With our entwined hands, I pull him along with me. “