Semua Bab Love, Lessons, and Late Blossoms: Bab 1 - Bab 10

It all started when I was fourteen—and hopelessly gullible. I believed the world was as kind as I was. I trusted easily. I loved openly. And for that, I was discarded and betrayed like I meant nothing. Tossed aside like a ragged doll.That day in class, I saw my crush glancing at me with a kind of focus that made my heart stutter. When he passed me a folded note asking me to meet him after school, I smiled so wide I thought my cheeks would split. I was elated—convinced that my time had come.As soon as the final bell rang, I dashed home, completed my chores in record time, and took a long bath, scrubbing and smoothing myself until I felt beautiful and smelled like vanilla soap and coconut oil. I was light on my feet, giddy with excitement, practically floating to our meeting place.He was already there when I arrived—cool, confident, and radiant in the golden hour sun. One of the most sought-after boys in school had noticed me, and I was basking in his attention like it was sunlight.

A few weeks later, the illusion I had so carefully built began to crack.It was the festive season—a time that should’ve been filled with laughter, preparation, and joy. My mother and I were headed to the market, arms linked, shopping bags swinging. We had a long list of items for the celebrations ahead. Meat, rice, spices, drinks, gifts. Hosting guests during the holidays was tradition, and the market was bustling with noise, color, and people bartering with loud voices.One minute, I was beside her at a stall, helping to choose fresh tomatoes. The next, the world spun violently—and everything went dark.I collapsed.I heard her voice before I saw her face—frantic, desperate. “Please! Somebody help! My daughter—she's not breathing!”When I came to, I was lying on the market floor, my head cradled in her lap. Her eyes were wet, her composure shattered. “Why didn’t you eat before we left the house?” she cried, brushing the hair from my face, her voice quivering. “You know you have u

Coming home felt like stepping into a version of my life I didn’t quite belong to anymore.The gate squeaked open just like always. The lawn was trimmed, a bike leaning against the porch steps, a potted plant wilting slightly near the door. Nothing had changed—but I had.My aunt walked me to the front steps, carrying the small bag we’d packed days ago. She didn’t say much, just gave my hand a soft squeeze. “Take your time,” she said. “With her. And with yourself.”Before I could respond, the front door opened.My mom stood in the doorway, arms crossed, eyes tired but waiting. We locked eyes, and for a moment, it was like we were frozen in time. Neither of us moved.“Welcome home,” she finally said.“Thanks,” I replied, my voice small.Inside, everything looked the same. The hallway mirror. The pictures on the wall from summer trips and birthdays. The soft throw blanket on the couch. It was eerie—how normal everything looked. Like nothing had happened. Like I hadn’t quietly unravelled

The final week of college felt like walking through the last few pages of a story I wasn’t quite ready to finish.The campus was quieter now. Familiar. Sacred. Students moved slowly, taking photos in front of buildings they used to rush past. The air buzzed with a strange mix of nostalgia and anticipation—like we were all balancing between what was ending and what was about to begin.And for me, it was more than an ending. It was a beginning I once believed I’d never reach.I was graduating as valedictorian.Even as I held the printed speech in my hands, it didn’t feel real. My name was on the top of the program—Valedictorian Address: Layla Brooks. I had practiced the words over and over again, but still, part of me expected someone to tap my shoulder and say, “There’s been a mistake.”But there hadn’t.The night before graduation, I couldn’t sleep. I sat at my desk, flipping through old journals and notes scribbled in the margins of textbooks. In one notebook from freshman year, I fo

The letter stayed in my drawer, tucked beneath a stack of invoices and manuscript notes, but I found myself rereading it almost every night. I hadn’t told anyone about it—not even Mara.Not because I didn’t trust her.But because I didn’t know how to explain how it made me feel.Instead, I buried myself in work and routine—until one evening when Mara texted, Come over. Tea, music, silence optional.No punctuation. No questions. Just Mara.Her apartment was small, cluttered with warmth. Books stacked in corners. Candles half-melted on the windowsill. Throw pillows that didn’t match but somehow belonged together. The moment I stepped in, something in me exhaled.She handed me a mug of chamomile and curled into the armchair across from me.“You’ve been distant,” she said, not accusing—just observing.I didn’t deny it. “I’ve been… processing.”“Something happen?”I hesitated. Then: “Sort of. But I don’t want to talk about it yet.”Mara nodded. “Okay.”She didn’t press. She never did. She