All Chapters of Pleasure & Confusion: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

(Deacon POV)The large oak dining table, twelve oak hand made chairs placed around, four of which are seating my parents, Dean and Declan."What's going on sweetie? You look so scared!" Mum asks softly.I bite my lip, squeeze my eyes shut tightly, and blurt it out, "Hany is pregnant."That's when all hell breaks loose!"How could you?""You stupid idiotic boy!""What about when you meet your mate?""You're an Alpha! Look at the example you're setting your pack!""Oh my God! I'm too young to be a nanny!""You can't take over the pack with this going on!""Your siblings are going to see this!""What are they going to think?""What are the pack going to think?"I just stand there, cringing with each angry screech coming from my parents, waiting for them to calm down."What is Bethany going to do?" Dad asks, "is she keeping the baby?"Right, a logical question."Yes, she wants to keep the baby." I answer in a timid voice, now standing at the other side of the table so nobody can kill me.

(Declan POV)Two weeks of hell.Two weeks of knowing nothing.Two weeks of worrying.I remember the evening this whole drama started; Deacon had his date with Virginia.He had been acting oddly since arriving home, but only after the date did we find out why.*Flashback*A commotion downstairs had my waking from my seat at my study desk in my room."But he's gone! He took off!" I know that voice.Grabbing the paper that was sticking to my face, and throwing it to the floor, I took off downstairs; for some reason knowing this was serious.I enter the living room to find a tearful Virginia facing my dad, Holden and mum who were all staring with shock."Why did he run? What happened?" Holden asks impatiently.A chill takes over my body.. Deacon!!"What's happened?" I whisper, knowing full well they can hear me.All of them turned to face me with grave faces, and Virginia is the one to talk, "Bethany cheated on Deacon. The baby might not be his. He left half way through our date; ran off.

A child needs a father; a son needs a father. Please Bethany?” I realise my voice has turned to begging, but I just don’t care anymore. I have no need for pride if I don’t have my son.I know I have other children to worry about, but Deacon is my first born, and our future Alpha; it’s in his blood. It’s who he is!I am a father and I will do anything in my power, fight anything and anybody for the safety and lives of my children.Bethany pulls me from my internal monologue, “how- what- how would it work?”I cringe at the prospect of putting her through a potentially painful and highly risky procedure for my grandchild and her in order to save my son, but I push past it, “we have a midwifery specialist within the pack who can perform the procedure… it would be along the lines of an amniocentesis.”Bethany nods, “I’ll do it.”No minute to think about it, no hesitation, just a decision… hopefully to save my son, the father of her unborn child.After thanking Bethany, I send for Christian

“I’m a disgrace to the pack; I am too immature to be an alpha! I have done so much I can’t take back, so many mistakes and I’m wracking my brain, trying to work out how to mend the wrongs… how the fuck-““Stop that!” He orders gently, cutting off my ramblings, “don’t you think I made mistakes? Look what I did to your mate’s brother, I made a huge mistake. Someone’s life was ended because of it. I am still alpha because our pack knew it was just that- a mistake. They respect me for giving my life to the pack, to protect them and serving the pack as my family.I am not perfect. I will never be perfect. Being a good alpha takes time, practice and copious slip-ups. I will never be the world’s best alpha, mate or father, but I do what I can.I have to admit… I never handled the whole mating situation well with Dean and your mother. It was so difficult. I nearly abandoned them because I found it so hard. It took near-losing Lizzie to make me realise what I did!I’m still learning Deacon, I

I grin, and the pride I experienced earlier bubbles back up inside; I’M GONNA BE A DADDY!~*~Nothing is going to ruin today for me!Since finding that scan picture, I’ve had this ridiculous grin slapped on my face. I haven’t been able to wipe it off yet.I don’t want to wipe it off. I’m happy- fuck everyone else.I’M HAPPY!I’m the happiest I have ever been; I have a wonderful family, a gorgeous and wonderful mate, an exceptionally selfless and strong woman carrying my son and of course, the son that will lead the pack in maybe 20-30 years.Nothing, NOTHIN is going to ruin today for me at all.“Deacon,” Dad rushes into my room, totally ignoring that I’d just got out the shower and was standing butt naked by my walk in wardrobe.“For fuck sake dad!” I exclaim, covering my dick.He rolls his eyes, “couldn’t give a shit about your junk right now. Virginia is gonna need you pretty damn soon. Her dad has been given a date for his execution. It’s tomorrow morning.” He expels the informatio