All Chapters of Love or Lust: Chapter 81 - Chapter 90

Bowie POV The door to the room had barely clicked shut behind me when Harley's head snapped up from her phone like a cat. She was sprawled on her bed in an oversized hoodie, her curls piled into a messy bun, and the moment she saw my face, which was still very much flushed– she launched herself upright."Well?" She crossed her arms. "Don't keep me waiting, woman. Spill."I dropped my bag and collapsed onto my bed, staring at the ceiling with a smile I couldn't wipe off my face even if I tried."He said he wants to make it work."Harley's eyebrows shot up. "Make what work? The sex? Because that was already working just fine." She rambled.I chuckled, “No Harley, like... us.”“He wants to try for real." I turned my head to look at her. "He wants us to be exclusive. Public and all.”She stared at me for a long hard second and then let out a screech that probably woke up the entire floor, launched herself across the room, and landed on top of me in a hug that knocked the breath out

Bowie POV He signaled for the check before I could blink and we used the last of our restraint to walk up to the car. The moment the car door closed, he was on me.His hand found the back of my neck, pulling me into a kiss that was nothing like the gentle one at the restaurant. It was hungry and desperate. His tongue slid against mine, and I tasted a mix of the wine and tiramisu cake. I moaned into his mouth, my fingers fisting in his shirt."Been wanting to do that all night," he breathed against my lips."Do it again." I whispered, almost pleading.And without hesitation, his lips were on mine again.His hand slid down my side, over the curve of my hip, squeezing my thigh through the dress. I could feel how hard he was through his pants, and the knowledge sent a tingle straight to my pussy.I pulled back, just enough to look at him. His eyes were dark and his lips swollen."Let me taste you," I whispered.His breath caught. "Bowie…”I didn't wait for him to finish. I

Wesley POV“I need you.” The words came out of my mouth as raw as it could be.Bowie stood in the doorway, her eyes glistening and her lips trembling already. She didn't say anything, she just reached out, her fingers curling around my wrist, and pulled me inside.The door clicked shut behind me.And then her arms were around my neck, her body pressing against mine and her face buried in my chest. I felt her breath hitch, felt the dampness of her tears soaking my shirt, and something inside me cracked open."I'm sorry," I whispered into her hair. "I'm so sorry, Bowie."She pulled back just enough to look at me, her eyes red and her cheeks wet. “Don't do that again.""I won't." I shook my head instantly."Promise me." She hicupped.I cupped her face in my hands, my thumbs brushing away her tears. "I promise."She kissed me and it was slow and tender, like she was trying to pour every unspoken word into it. I melted into her, my hands sliding down to her waist and pulling her close

Bowie POV"Bowie, I-“He stopped.Whatever he wanted to say just hung there on the edge of his tongue. He swallowed tightly and something flicker behind his eyes… like fear, maybe, or hesitation. Or both.He was staring at me like a man that was utterly in loveMy heart was pounding so hard I could hear it in my ears.Say it please. Say the words.But he didn't, rather he just kissed my forehead again, lingering for a moment before pulling me into his chest."I'm glad you were there today," he said instead.I swallowed the disappointment, burying my face in his shoulder. "Me too."*** The next week was brutal.Midterms hit like a freight train, and Wesley had a whole week away games.We went from seeing each other almost every day to trading texts that got more spaced out as the week wore on.It shouldn't have felt this hard. We had only been together for a few weeks. But every night I laid in my bed, staring at my phone, waiting for his name to light up the screen. I caug

Bowie POV I sat on the edge of the bed, the vibrator in my hand and Wesley standing in front of me.His eyes were fixed on the toy, staring curiously with tightened jaw. The room felt smaller suddenly and the air thicker. I could feel his gaze on me like a physical weight."Use it," he instructed, his voice low. "I want to watch you."My heart hammered as I laid back against his pillows, spreading my legs slowly. His eyes followed my every movement, from the way my thighs parted and the way my chest rose and fell beneath my shirt. His breath evened out as i turned the vibrator on, the soft hum filling the silence between us.I pressed it against my clit, and a moan escaped my lips before I could stop it. My back arched, my hips lifted off the mattress, causing my legs to spread apart more and I heard Wesley curse under his breath."Fuck," he breathed. "That's so fucking hot."I kept going, my free hand gripping the sheets and my eyes fluttering shut. The vibration buzzed