Lahat ng Kabanata ng Hidden Affection: Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 18

ADRIENNE"iusog mo pa pakaliwa. A little bit more. More Addie. There you go. Perfect!." I looked at Ash over my shoulder. We've been setting up for hours already but she doesn't seem to be getting tired. Not even a bit. Balloons are now floating in the ceiling along with their photos piercing my heart without even her knowing it. I look pathetic right now for helping her kill my soul slowly.Pagod na ako. Hindi lang physically but mostly emotionally. Hindi pa kami umuuwi simula kaninang tanghali. After buying all the things she needed for her proposal ay dito na kami dumiretso sa restaurant. Sarado ang gusali ngayong araw at mamayang gabi lamang ito bubuksan since it was reserved for later kaya ngayon heto kami abala sa pag aayos na kulang nalang magmukha na kaming event organizer sa isang napakaimportanteng salo salo.I heaved a sigh. I am not this kind of person who has long patience but fuck it, I cannot say no to her. My mind is urging me to stop doing these for her kasi for godd

ADRIENNE I wince in pain. My head is throbbing like hell. I massage my temple and groan. I slowly open my eyes and fuck I am very much familiar with this room. Freaking hell not again. Damn it, no no no not again. I tried to recall why I am here..... but I don't remember anything. Sapo sapo ang ulo kong bumangon at umupo sa malambot na kama. Bumaba ang kumot sa katawan ko kaya bumaba ang mga mata ko sa suot. Iba na ang suot ko. I am now wearing a navy blue cotton pajama. Who changed my clothes? darn it..I should stop drinking na talaga. Nagkaka-amnesia ako kinabukasan and I hate that I couldn't remember any single details on how I got here again. Ang natatandaan ko lang ay may lalaking lumapit sa akin at hinawakan ako then may babaeng......fuck don't tell me it was Amber again who found me in the same situation just like the first time she saw me a month ago?? Tangna talaga. I shook my head but ended up groaning dahil sa pagpintig ng sintido ko. Bumangon ako at tinungo ang

ADRIENNEA week has passed and Blue still hasn't woken up. She was shot in the chest which almost killed her. Amber and Asher's engagement has also been canceled too. Asher chose to let go. I admire her for letting the woman she loved go even though she is struggling and hurting right now. I stared at the woman who is now peacefully sleeping in front of my eyes. Looking so pale and lifeless. Mouth partly agape as she cutely snorts slowly. She was wasted. I can't take my eyes off of her. Her wound is now healing but the trauma keeps on haunting her every night whenever she is asleep as she told me. She looks fragile and delicate and I love her so much that it hurts. It hurts seeing her in pain.She doesn't speak. She doesn't say how she really feels but I can feel her pain. She's trying and I know she does. Kung ako nalang sana. That's what I always ask god, but because I'm just a mere sinner to him, he doesn't grant it, he seems to never listen to any of my pleas. A

ADRIENNE Two weeks. It has been two weeks since I was last with Asher. That was the day she brought me to her office. We didn't get to eat that day because of a call from someone who could make her rush with just a single phone call. She scrambled to leave the cafeteria that day without even saying goodbye to me. She just left without a word, as if a single call made my existence in front of her vanish. Like I was nothing but a nobody in front of her. Hanggang ngayon sa tuwing naaalala ko ang nangyaring iyon sumisikip parin ang dibdib ko. I felt neglected and unwanted. It feels good to love. LOVE is just a four-letter word, yet it means so much. Loving really does feel wonderful, but the pain that comes with it never truly goes away because not all love is returned equally to what you are able to give. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa baseball bat na kanina pa nasasakal sa higpit ng hawak ko. Kung nakakapagsalita lamang siguro ito ay kanina pa ito nagreklamo. Pakiramdam ko nabubuhos k