Noah woke up before his alarm.I knew because I heard the chair scrape softly in the kitchen and the kettle click on, the careful noises of someone trying to make a morning feel normal by controlling the smallest parts of it. When I stepped into the doorway, he was standing in front of the sink, staring at nothing like he was bracing for a sound that hadn’t happened yet.“You don’t have to go today,” I said softly.Noah didn’t turn right away. “If I don’t go,” he replied, voice quiet, “it feels like she wins.”My belly tightened, the familiar band of pressure, and I pressed my palm there until my body remembered how to loosen. In for four. Out for six.“She doesn’t win because you rest,” I said. “She wins if you think resting is shame.”Noah finally looked at me. His eyes were too bright, jaw clenched. “I’m tired,” he admitted. “But I’m also tired of being moved.”“I know,” I whispered.He stared at the table, then said, very carefully, “If someone tries to talk to me, I leave.”“Yes,
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