AlessandroI had three rules about the pills.One, Matteo kept them. Not me. If I kept them, I would take them too often, and if I took them too often, I would need more of them, and needing things was a luxury I had not permitted myself since I was fourteen years old.Two, I asked for them once. Never twice. A man who asked twice was a man who was afraid, and I had decided a long time ago that whatever I was, I was not afraid.Three, nobody knew.Not Matteo. Not Lucas. Not the doctor who prescribed them under a name that was not mine through a clinic that did not officially exist.The pills were small and white and they did one thing. They kept the dark from becoming something with teeth.I had not needed them in eleven days.On the twelfth day, the power went out.It started at half past ten.The storm had been building since morning. I had watched it from my office window, the sky going darker by degrees, the kind of slow accumulation that looks manageable until it is not. By ten t
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